Reassurances from professionals that we will heal

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As everyone can see by the top of that post I am still working on my copy paste issues..... :laugh: ..m..

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Woofs.....I was able to talk to my pharmacist.....he was very busy.....and could not spend any amount of time on the phone.....but I will be going to town in the next few days... I will stop in to see if I can get some info in person.....

 

Be well woofs, and bless you to (wish we could talk to God about this and get the real answers) ..

 

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Thanks for posting that again Minnie

I don't have positive stuff to say today except I've met some incredible people here.

Thank you.

Woofs I say a post of someone who was out 6 years and doing fantastic. I will try to repost it here.  Hang in there.

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Sorry you are not feeling well Whoot..... ..m...

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Thanks Minnie

I have the looping fear/dread/anguish today.  Dizzy a little shaky.....

Trying to reassure myself that it is in fact withdrawal and it will pass like it always does. I've been on BB all day looking for and trying to give support.    It is just withdrawal....right?? I need reassurance badly.

I really love your posts and your thoughtfulness.

I have had no professionals really help me out with this.  They all think it is just anxiety.....

My pharmacist did tell me it would be hell and helped me when no one else did.  I think pharmacist are just so much more knowledgeable about drugs and their interactions.  He helped me through some of the worst of it. He understood and that meant everything.  :smitten

When did the intrusive thoughts and fear get better for you again?  Reassurance......please and thanks.

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Hi Whoot..... this is the worst place to be ..... I cannot tell you how bad each persons suffering makes me feel.....yes Whoot it is w/d...even knowing that sometimes only helps so much....I think when things are at their worst it would be like trying to think clearly in the middle of a tornado.....

 

I have not had a lot of extreme fear/anguish/dread for about 3 mo..I think.....but I can still get really emotional when I feel bad...it is almost impossible to not feel some fear and anxiety when we are being knocked about on a regular basis...

 

Whoot try if you can to keep focusing on the reassuring posts... and if you can, keep repeating something positive over and over ....it may help the fear and looping thoughts... try not to let fear get a big foothold....that always made things so much worse for me.....

 

I am still holding onto what my pharmacist said that we will all ABSOLUTELY heal.....we just have to do whatever it takes to get through the hell that can ensue in the present moment.....

 

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Thanks for posting that again Minnie

I don't have positive stuff to say today except I've met some incredible people here.

Thank you.

Woofs I say a post of someone who was out 6 years and doing fantastic. I will try to repost it here.  Hang in there.

 

6 Years 

 

I hope they healed well before then

 

Thank you whoot 👍

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Just wanted this thread to come up on my replies to posts list

 

Sorry I can't add anything sadly. I don't have completely non-benzo-wise health care professionals but they are somewhat skeptical and lack experience with the severity of my situation

 

How and ever I enjoy reading about all those professionals who understand and acknowledge

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A good thread and it's "good" to hear that others get this looping, panic-stricken feeling. I'm still on the benzo as you can see and trying to taper slowly off by cutting pills but need to wait at this level a while because other meds are also wreaking havoc on me. The wild panic attacks that hit me this week were unexpected - maybe due to prozac increase and ativan decrease. I've felt really kind of crazy - not depressed (which I also feel), but crazy, weird. Is that normal in this process? I am so worried that i WON"T heal. Reassure me again please someone!

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Hi NYC4......sorry you are feeling bed......I am not familiar with the meds you are on.....aside from that, what you are feeling sounds completely normal for where you are at in your taper.....hang in there, you will be okay, it is just so hard sometimes to believe when we feel we have no control over our bodies and minds.....keep reading around the boards and you will see how similar your s/x are to so many other bbs....

 

Take care...m....

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Anyone have any new stories of reassurance for those suffering.... :smitten:m....

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Hi Minnie and BB friends,

I am going through therapy at the moment and have a psychiatrist for medication. Both specialists are helpful and I am happy with my progress with their help and my own and BB here. All in all, I feel I am doing well. I have lost two anti depressants (remeron and valdoxan) and pain medication (lyrica) and am tapering my valium (down 9 mg since 1 July). I am tired, very busy with life and will hold my taper this month, just take it easy before I cut again. I am living life as usual, no changes really and feel fine for the most part. I don't like the symptoms or withdrawals but try to just move on through them. I distract myself with gardening, art, family, voluntary work and walk and good food. I take supplements - Omocar 1mg omegas, vitamin D3 5,000 U, magnesium and zinc, vitamin B complex - they really help!

 

When I am unwell, I isolate for a day, rest, go to bed if necessary. I listen to my body, do relaxation/meditation every night to help with sleep. I count my blessings every day, am grateful for what I have, try not to dwell on the benzo thinking/negativity. I see good things in all that I feel and experience, the good and the bad and I have a few difficult situations to sort.... one at a time, they are manageable. I am getting there........

 

Hope you are doing okay too Minnie. Much love 

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Hello All! This is a wonderful idea for a thread & thanks for starting it.

 

I went yesterday to pick up my script for my Klonopin at Walmart.  They always just hand it to me with no counseling from a

Pharmacist but this time I asked if I may talk to him.  He came out & I told him I am tapering off K & wondered if they sold K

in liquid form, he looked it up & said no but there is a compounding pharmacy down the street & they might do it. 

 

He was very curious about my tapering, he was very impressed how low I had come down to & asked me point blank if I had

reached the point of feeling like I was in hell yet? I was shocked! He actually knew about tapering, I have yet to talk to a professional

that actually knew anything about withdrawl symptoms.  He said WOW! your script says take 0.5 3 times a day & you are down to

2 doses now morning dose is .250 & evening dose is .375.  He said that is awesome & that from his experience he has never met someone that didn't go back on because of the symptoms.  He told me I should be commended & to keep up the great job & I that

I will be off in no time & he said to take my time......the slow ones win this race & he also said to please keep in touch with him &

let him know how I am doing during my taper. 

 

I felt so wonderful after talking to him, to actually talk to a person face to face that understood what I am going thru & acknowledges

what we are all going thru.  It was very relieving to me & I couldn't stop smiling & my heart felt light all evening.

 

It was very validating & something I really needed to hear.

 

Hoping you all have a symptom free day, we will win this race!!!! Don't give up, don't never give up!!!!

 

Ninj

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Thanks for sharing that Ninj. I love it!!!

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Hello All! This is a wonderful idea for a thread & thanks for starting it.

 

I went yesterday to pick up my script for my Klonopin at Walmart.  They always just hand it to me with no counseling from a

Pharmacist but this time I asked if I may talk to him.  He came out & I told him I am tapering off K & wondered if they sold K

in liquid form, he looked it up & said no but there is a compounding pharmacy down the street & they might do it. 

 

He was very curious about my tapering, he was very impressed how low I had come down to & asked me point blank if I had

reached the point of feeling like I was in hell yet? I was shocked! He actually knew about tapering, I have yet to talk to a professional

that actually knew anything about withdrawl symptoms.  He said WOW! your script says take 0.5 3 times a day & you are down to

2 doses now morning dose is .250 & evening dose is .375.  He said that is awesome & that from his experience he has never met someone that didn't go back on because of the symptoms.  He told me I should be commended & to keep up the great job & I that

I will be off in no time & he said to take my time......the slow ones win this race & he also said to please keep in touch with him &

let him know how I am doing during my taper. 

 

I felt so wonderful after talking to him, to actually talk to a person face to face that understood what I am going thru & acknowledges

what we are all going thru.  It was very relieving to me & I couldn't stop smiling & my heart felt light all evening.

 

It was very validating & something I really needed to hear.

 

Hoping you all have a symptom free day, we will win this race!!!! Don't give up, don't never give up!!!!

 

Ninj

 

 

Wow Ninj! This was great to read! WE ARE AWESOME! Even though I'm not feeling awesome today!

 

Thanks so much! This brought tears to my eyes!

 

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Thankyou Ninj for posting that info.....

 

I know my pharmacist is the only one I spoke to that knew about w/d.......amazing....and sad...

 

... :smitten:m....

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I think reassurance in what we are doing & going thru is HUGE! 

 

Everyone has different reasons for getting on whatever they got on & hopefully have learned the tools to deal with the anxiety or depression

medicine free.  I have only been on K for 2 years & 2 years ago I had a stressful situation come up that my brain couldn't deal with at the time & I needed help.  I have been a happy healthy person for 46 years & out of nowhere it hit me, but this whole ordeal has changed me forever in how I think about life & compassion I have for people in similar situations.  There has to be a reason for all this hell that we have gone thru, maybe it is to help others in need.

 

This is an awesome thread!!!!

 

Ninj

 

 

 

 

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I believe life is about learning lessons we need to learn .......if we do not learn something from this there may be no hope

 

I have learned to not stress over much of anything.....

 

I have learned I need to be more patient.....

 

And for sure, like you said Ninj, more compassion.....

 

Take care... :smitten:m....

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I think reassurance in what we are doing & going thru is HUGE! 

 

Everyone has different reasons for getting on whatever they got on & hopefully have learned the tools to deal with the anxiety or depression

medicine free.  I have only been on K for 2 years & 2 years ago I had a stressful situation come up that my brain couldn't deal with at the time & I needed help.  I have been a happy healthy person for 46 years & out of nowhere it hit me, but this whole ordeal has changed me forever in how I think about life & compassion I have for people in similar situations.  There has to be a reason for all this hell that we have gone thru, maybe it is to help others in need.

 

This is an awesome thread!!!!

 

Ninj

 

Same thing happened to me, Ninj. I was good for 44 yrs, then bam, something came up that broke my brain. I then got cbt, medication, stayed on klonopin for 5 1/2 yrs. I learned alot, I changed. I always had anxiety lurking in the background. I do so many things differently now, in my life. I feel that the brain heals and changes quite well, as recent research has shown.  Yaaay for plasticity 

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Thank you all for this thread!

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mutu "Fall seven times, stand up eight." 

 

Never, never think that your brain has been damaged by benzos-beyond repair. Always keep thinking of your brain as changing, healing, rebooting! Our bodies are amazing and can and do repair, heal. 

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I think reassurance in what we are doing & going thru is HUGE! 

 

Everyone has different reasons for getting on whatever they got on & hopefully have learned the tools to deal with the anxiety or depression

medicine free.  I have only been on K for 2 years & 2 years ago I had a stressful situation come up that my brain couldn't deal with at the time & I needed help.  I have been a happy healthy person for 46 years & out of nowhere it hit me, but this whole ordeal has changed me forever in how I think about life & compassion I have for people in similar situations.  There has to be a reason for all this hell that we have gone thru, maybe it is to help others in need.

 

This is an awesome thread!!!!

 

Ninj

 

Same thing happened to me, Ninj. I was good for 44 yrs, then bam, something came up that broke my brain. I then got cbt, medication, stayed on klonopin for 5 1/2 yrs. I learned alot, I changed. I always had anxiety lurking in the background. I do so many things differently now, in my life. I feel that the brain heals and changes quite well, as recent research has shown.  Yaaay for plasticity 

 

Ingrid,

 

I like that  "broke my brain"  That's exactly how I felt when it was happening & going to doctor after doctor & having test after test done.  Brain MRI's, Spinal Taps, blood test after blood test & nothing showed up that would have explained why I was in complete darkness.

 

We will get better! Hang in there!!

 

Ninj

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Ninj I had so many tests too. I had tons of xrays, cat scans, heart tests, brain mri...even had a Cardiac catheterization. I kept running to the ER. All I had was extreme anxiety, that turned into psychotic depression. I have worried so much about all the radiation I was exposed to. I finally had to put all that behind me and move forward. I will never let that happen to me again. Ive gotten so much stronger as a person after all of this. I was so helpless then, child like. My mother had to come and take care of me. It was humiliating. Never again. Im the Phoenix rising from the ashes...we all are. 

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Hi Ingrid...long time no hear   Glad to see your taper is going down   I was doing well avoiding the dr.s and ER but I had a visit last week to the ER.  Terrible arm and chest pain at the airport.  The paramedics scared me with horror stories of people 46 dropping dead on the plane.  Told me my EKG was abnormal.  Off to ER in ambulance.  My EKG has a "normal" abnormality.  ugh!  The good thing is I have the peace of mind that any chest pain is NOT a heart attack.  This stuff sucks

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Ingrid,

 

HaHa good stuff, I even had a echo-cardiogram where you lay on the bed & peddle.  The nurse there was getting mad because it took me so long to get my heart beat up to 140.  I ride mountain bikes all the time & she was yelling at me FASTER! FASTER! She said we don't get your kind of person here, we get overweight people who'd heart beat is at 140 in a matter of seconds, not 5 minutes. 

 

I have come to the conclusion, that if I have something wrong & it's terminal then oh well.......I tried to find what was wrong & now I just chalk everything up to the tapering.  I don't get stressed

like used & go crazy with trying to find whats wrong everytime I don't feel right.  It gives me a better peace of mind, well as peaceful as my mind can get while tapering 

 

Ninj