12-24 months and up support group

[[Li...]]

LadyDen,

I'm sorry to hear you're having sleep difficulties. It's definitely no fun. If I didn't have all this fear I would be able to sleep. I so want to sleep, but the fear is what wakes me up and keeps me up. I like your illustration about the sunset. So looking forward to better days. Today was another really rough one. Honestly it seems like 1 week becomes worse than the next. This last week has been pretty unbearable and today was no exception. I'm always hoping tomorrow will be better. It's hard to keep hoping, sometimes I get discouraged. But I'm trying. Hope we both pull out of this very very soon, and see a bright sparkling window. Sure would love that!

 

Lisa,

I appreciate your post. I am the same way the only thing that has gotten me through this whole thing is my faith. I pray constantly. I actually cry out at times and cry to my Heavenly Father. Of course I have to add an exception to that, my benzo buddies have given me so much encouragement. And I am very thankful for each and every one of you.

 

Sandy,

I'm sorry you're having a rough day today. I wish you well on your appointment tomorrow I'm sure it will be just fine. But it is possible that there's anxiety because of it. Please let us know how it goes.

 

Sending big hugs and love to all!

 

LiveLife

[[La...]]

Really nice post Lisa - Congrats on coming up on 2.5 years!  I feel the same as you, grateful for the good progress I've made and looking forward to being completely healed one day.

 

My worst symptoms have faded enormously, now experiencing some new sensations like needing to take deep breaths alot because I feel like I stop breathing (which isn't true at all)....I think this is what they call air hunger.  Things are shifting.  I take this as good news.

 

May we all make some shifts today!!!

Yep that’s what it is called. Isn’t it funny how at the end we get new symptoms. Or a shift in the ones we’ve had. I now have nausea with tight belly circled back. I haven’t had this since acute. Actually in acute it was mild and wasn’t paired with muscle pains/ tightness. Crazy wild process. But as you said it is a good sign to get shifts….now it needs to shift on out of here! Right?

[[La...]]

Morning hugs and love to everyone. I see we all are just making it day by day. Well that’s how we come out of this is through it! May you all have a great day. With some good turning corners and shifts and windows…..

 

:smitten: :smitten:

Right now I’m somewhere in the middle. So I’ll take that! Come on everyone….we can make it!!!

 

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Thank you LadyDen

One day at the time. One more day survived🙏

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Sandy:

 

What did the cardiologist say?  I am hoping you got some good news!!!

 

GG:  I am assuming you are doing great!!!!  Would love to get an update on you!!!

 

LiveLife:  How are you doing today?

 

Leeann:  Are you getting any sleep?

 

Doing a little better these days.  Sleeping better!  Having a little more "normalcy" during the day.  I am so hoping that these are all good signs and that this wave is finally going out to sea!!!

 

Lisa

[[Li...]]

LadyDen,

I'm happy to hear that you're not horrible. At least you're in the middle. I would take that in a minute. Hopefully it means that it's going to be moving on out soon for you.

 

Lisa,

It's good to hear that you're doing a bit better. Sounds like you are making progress I think you're almost through this.  That's great!

 

As for me, I'm still waiting to turn that corner. I'm waiting and hoping because nothing has really changed yet.

 

Big hugs, LiveLife

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Good morning, Buddies,

 

My appointment with the cardiologist went very well. The doctor changed my blood pressure medication and encouraged me to move more and drink less. I was drinking too much water thinking it was good for me. I was depleting my sodium levels.

 

I also had an amazing realization while waiting weeks for this appointment. My Benzo symptoms increased as the appointment got closer. My fear and anxiety were through the roof! As soon as I found out that my heart was ok, my symptoms magically disappeared. It really got my attention. The health anxiety is real, but I can control it.

 

Thank you all for your encouragement and prayers. At 32 months Benzo free, I’m ready to be done with this most challenging journey, but will be forever grateful for the life lessons I have learned. I don’t know what the future holds, but I trust that God will see me through it.

 

Wishing you all a great day!

 

Sandy🥰

[[La...]]

Morning hugs! How are you, Dear Yearlings doing? I hope you all slept well. As for me I’m in rougher dread this morning. I slept pretty well. It’s funny how if I sleep well then I wake up in a rougher wave. You’d think it would be the opposite seeing that sleep is the body’s restoration. Or maybe it’s just a coincidence…who knows.

 

Anyway….Sandy I’m thrilled that cardiologist went well. I’m not surprised that you got a good report. I felt that you were having benzo symptoms popping up or something minor. You know I have told people about drinking too much water. It does wash the salt in the blood which is extremely important for heart and blood pressure regulation. Believe it or not a person can die from drinking too much water. The phrase “too much of a good thing” is true. Hydration while going through this is ideal but everyone needs to be careful not to overdo it. I’m so happy to hear all is well. I’m sure you’ll continue to feel much better and at this far out make big strides to go on to heal. Love and hugs

 

Live I really hope we both turn that corner very soon too. I’m rapid cycling through symptoms in my waves. It’s definitely not fun. Any relief I get I’m grateful for. This is just so ridiculous in our minds because it doesn’t make sense. I’m ok with that because as long as it’s serving the purpose of healing me. I’m feeling the same as you…tired of it all. We all are. I really hope you feel better today. You’ve been in the trenches for way too long. I want you to know that I think of you and everyone daily even in my own struggles. I also cry out to God because sometimes that’s all we can do. Captain Jack Sparrow and Davy Jones need to leave me alone. I’m so ready to have a normal life again.  We learn so much from this as Sandy said, so much that our new lives after this is just that….newly lived with all we’ve learned and very cautious. I read the success stories and all I can think of is I can’t wait for that healing to happen to me. Love and hugs

 

Lisa how wonderful to read that you’re doing better. Thank God! Wouldn’t it be a blessing to just remain like that? And we all will experience the permanent window. As far out as most of us are, it has got to be soon. You know what? I’m crazy enough to wait and see. I’m thinking in my mind…ok this will heal, then let’s see! While I’m watching and waiting I’m doing all I can to distract. As Live said, I’m in God’s grace and mercy. Love and hugs

 

JB42 yes indeed. Today is the tomorrow that was worried about yesterday….and you survived! Here’s the rule…

You feel like dying with all these waves and symptoms but you have to wait until tomorrow. Everyday repeat it!    How are you doing, friend?

 

Helen I’m thinking of you! I know you’re taking a break to get over your cold virus. I hope you are snuggled up on the couch feeling better. Miss you posting! Love and hugs

 

Pashu how are you doing? You’re missing around here. Hope you’re alright dear. Love and hugs

 

Deanna how’s the air hunger? Is it better? Sending you love and hugs

 

Leann hope you’re doing well. Has things settled down yet since your car rides? Love and hugs

 

GG where are you dear? Are you still doing good? How’s the garden? Love and hugs

 

Who’d I miss? Not intentionally.

Just in case….I love you all. Happy healing vibes to you all.

Where’s the window fairy?

 

[[Ga...]]

Sandy, this is such wonderful news!  Now you can continue on your path to recovery knowing that your recent health scare can be put to rest.  Interesting about the symptoms letting up when your cardiologist reassured you that your heart is fine.  I had a long meeting with my internist yesterday centered around my continuing battle with  reoccurring UTI issues, and the topic came up as to why I felt amazingly well in the hospital.  Of course the antibiotic given by IV along with needed fluids helped with the infection, but the doctor agreed that my mental health was much better as I felt safe and cared for.  The fear of something awful happening to me was gone and I was able to get up each morning, tidy my hospital room, put on makeup, and take three daily walks around the hospital floor.  I ate well with no GI issues, had no headaches, and walked out after a three day stay feeling very well. 

 

The point here is that my doctor thinks I continue to have these UTI’s because I focus on them and what they could do to me.  He admits that my infections are real, but just like our windows and waves, my immune system goes in and out based on my reaction to illness.  He wants me to focus more on the proven fact that test after test show me to be healthy, but with a somewhat fragile immune system that bounces back and forth largely based on my mental attitude!!!  I will see a urologist tomorrow who will probe into the physical reasons why I continue to have the UTI’s.  I am very hopeful that this health concern will be addressed and I will be able to move forward with my recovery.

 

Oh, and I forgot to mention that I fell down two steps at a friends house last Friday evening, while trying to navigate from a multi-tiered patio onto a floating pontoon.  Was able to take a lovely rode around the lake, but by Saturday morning I ended up in the ER’s trauma unit (because I am on a blood thinner) where they X-Rayed every part of my body, along with a brain MRI to make sure there was no brain bleed.  The good news is that I only badly fractured my right ankle and am now wearing a structured ankle boot and will continue to do so until I can put weight on the right foot.  My doctor said that the trauma of the fall probably put me back into a more severe fight/flight response pattern and thus the UTI returned. 

 

I have been instructed by the doctor to drink plenty of water, stay on a good probiotic, take vitamin c, and focus more on the positives of my health and stay away from negative thinking!  The infectious disease specialist agreed with all the above, and saw no need to test me for Lyme.  He was very tuned into benzos and admitted that he no longer prescribes Ativan as a sleep aid for his hospitalized patients.  He agreed that I have been battling to get back into homeostasis over the past three years, and that I would get there.

 

I am so fortunate to have really understanding doctors who support me and agree that Valium or any other benzo should never be given for more than a couple of weeks.  Some doctors are beginning to understand the damage that can be done by this class of drugs and are putting down their prescription pads!

 

Hugs to all.  I will be taking a break from BBs for a while, but will be thinking of all of you and will pray that your healing will continue and bring you back to the happiness of living a normal and healthy life!!!!

 

Love, GG

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Good morning, Buddies,

 

My appointment with the cardiologist went very well. The doctor changed my blood pressure medication and encouraged me to move more and drink less. I was drinking too much water thinking it was good for me. I was depleting my sodium levels.

 

I also had an amazing realization while waiting weeks for this appointment. My Benzo symptoms increased as the appointment got closer. My fear and anxiety were through the roof! As soon as I found out that my heart was ok, my symptoms magically disappeared. It really got my attention. The health anxiety is real, but I can control it.

 

Thank you all for your encouragement and prayers. At 32 months Benzo free, I’m ready to be done with this most challenging journey, but will be forever grateful for the life lessons I have learned. I don’t know what the future holds, but I trust that God will see me through it.

 

Wishing you all a great day!

 

Sandy🥰

 

Sandy,

 

I'm so glad you are relieved and can move on now. Phew!  I'll just tell you that I have had the same problem with "over hydrating".  Multiple times in the past my blood work showed low sodium and once it was WAY too low and I was told to go a whole weekend without drinking water and to only drink things like Pedialyte. It was disgusting because I love water but in 3 days my sodium count went from "may need to be hospitalized" to NORMAL.  I just had my annual check up and my sodium level was at the very bottom of the normal range so I constantly have to remind myself to eat salt and not chug down too much H20! 

 

Enjoy your new found peace of mind.

 

Helen

[[La...]]

Sandy, this is such wonderful news!  Now you can continue on your path to recovery knowing that your recent health scare can be put to rest.  Interesting about the symptoms letting up when your cardiologist reassured you that your heart is fine.  I had a long meeting with my internist yesterday centered around my continuing battle with  reoccurring UTI issues, and the topic came up as to why I felt amazingly well in the hospital.  Of course the antibiotic given by IV along with needed fluids helped with the infection, but the doctor agreed that my mental health was much better as I felt safe and cared for.  The fear of something awful happening to me was gone and I was able to get up each morning, tidy my hospital room, put on makeup, and take three daily walks around the hospital floor.  I ate well with no GI issues, had no headaches, and walked out after a three day stay feeling very well. 

 

The point here is that my doctor thinks I continue to have these UTI’s because I focus on them and what they could do to me.  He admits that my infections are real, but just like our windows and waves, my immune system goes in and out based on my reaction to illness.  He wants me to focus more on the proven fact that test after test show me to be healthy, but with a somewhat fragile immune system that bounces back and forth largely based on my mental attitude!!!  I will see a urologist tomorrow who will probe into the physical reasons why I continue to have the UTI’s.  I am very hopeful that this health concern will be addressed and I will be able to move forward with my recovery.

 

Oh, and I forgot to mention that I fell down two steps at a friends house last Friday evening, while trying to navigate from a multi-tiered patio onto a floating pontoon.  Was able to take a lovely rode around the lake, but by Saturday morning I ended up in the ER’s trauma unit (because I am on a blood thinner) where they X-Rayed every part of my body, along with a brain MRI to make sure there was no brain bleed.  The good news is that I only badly fractured my right ankle and am now wearing a structured ankle boot and will continue to do so until I can put weight on the right foot.  My doctor said that the trauma of the fall probably put me back into a more severe fight/flight response pattern and thus the UTI returned. 

 

I have been instructed by the doctor to drink plenty of water, stay on a good probiotic, take vitamin c, and focus more on the positives of my health and stay away from negative thinking!  The infectious disease specialist agreed with all the above, and saw no need to test me for Lyme.  He was very tuned into benzos and admitted that he no longer prescribes Ativan as a sleep aid for his hospitalized patients.  He agreed that I have been battling to get back into homeostasis over the past three years, and that I would get there.

 

I am so fortunate to have really understanding doctors who support me and agree that Valium or any other benzo should never be given for more than a couple of weeks.  Some doctors are beginning to understand the damage that can be done by this class of drugs and are putting down their prescription pads!

 

Hugs to all.  I will be taking a break from BBs for a while, but will be thinking of all of you and will pray that your healing will continue and bring you back to the happiness of living a normal and healthy life!!!!

 

Love, GG

Wow GG! I’m sorry you have a fracture. I don’t blame you for taking some time off here to heal. You have a great attitude about it. I’m wishing you a speedy recovery. 🙏❤️🌹🙏🌹❤️🤝

I’ll be waiting with bells on when you return. Love you bunches!

[[He...]]

Sandy, this is such wonderful news!  Now you can continue on your path to recovery knowing that your recent health scare can be put to rest.  Interesting about the symptoms letting up when your cardiologist reassured you that your heart is fine.  I had a long meeting with my internist yesterday centered around my continuing battle with  reoccurring UTI issues, and the topic came up as to why I felt amazingly well in the hospital.  Of course the antibiotic given by IV along with needed fluids helped with the infection, but the doctor agreed that my mental health was much better as I felt safe and cared for.  The fear of something awful happening to me was gone and I was able to get up each morning, tidy my hospital room, put on makeup, and take three daily walks around the hospital floor.  I ate well with no GI issues, had no headaches, and walked out after a three day stay feeling very well. 

 

The point here is that my doctor thinks I continue to have these UTI’s because I focus on them and what they could do to me.  He admits that my infections are real, but just like our windows and waves, my immune system goes in and out based on my reaction to illness.  He wants me to focus more on the proven fact that test after test show me to be healthy, but with a somewhat fragile immune system that bounces back and forth largely based on my mental attitude!!!  I will see a urologist tomorrow who will probe into the physical reasons why I continue to have the UTI’s.  I am very hopeful that this health concern will be addressed and I will be able to move forward with my recovery.

 

Oh, and I forgot to mention that I fell down two steps at a friends house last Friday evening, while trying to navigate from a multi-tiered patio onto a floating pontoon.  Was able to take a lovely rode around the lake, but by Saturday morning I ended up in the ER’s trauma unit (because I am on a blood thinner) where they X-Rayed every part of my body, along with a brain MRI to make sure there was no brain bleed.  The good news is that I only badly fractured my right ankle and am now wearing a structured ankle boot and will continue to do so until I can put weight on the right foot.  My doctor said that the trauma of the fall probably put me back into a more severe fight/flight response pattern and thus the UTI returned. 

 

I have been instructed by the doctor to drink plenty of water, stay on a good probiotic, take vitamin c, and focus more on the positives of my health and stay away from negative thinking!  The infectious disease specialist agreed with all the above, and saw no need to test me for Lyme.  He was very tuned into benzos and admitted that he no longer prescribes Ativan as a sleep aid for his hospitalized patients.  He agreed that I have been battling to get back into homeostasis over the past three years, and that I would get there.

 

I am so fortunate to have really understanding doctors who support me and agree that Valium or any other benzo should never be given for more than a couple of weeks.  Some doctors are beginning to understand the damage that can be done by this class of drugs and are putting down their prescription pads!

 

Hugs to all.  I will be taking a break from BBs for a while, but will be thinking of all of you and will pray that your healing will continue and bring you back to the happiness of living a normal and healthy life!!!!

 

Love, GG

 

We love you GG and trust that you taking a break is a good choice.  Take good care.  XOXO

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Sandy:

 

So happy about your good report from the doctor! Now you can get back to living your life!!!  I do believe our CNS remains fragile for a while and the anxiety spirals out of control when there is a perceived threat!!! We can control that to a certain extent, but until we are completely well, it will be something we have to fight against!  I bet in a year from now you will have a much easier time shutting those negative thoughts down.  I read somewhere someone referred to them as "sticky".  I love that description!  Because of the fragility of our nervous system those negative thoughts are sticky and we can't quite get them unstuck!!! 

 

You have brighter days ahead!!!! 

 

Lisa

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Thank you all for your positive responses. GG, I’m sorry to hear about your ankle. I totally understand taking some time off. I plan to do so as well. I love what you said about our mental state and our physical health. Lisa, the word “sticky” is a good description. LadyDen and Helen, I always value why you have to say. You are so right about drinking too much water, LadyDen.

 

Hugs and healing thoughts to all,

 

Sandy

[[le...]]

How is everyone doing? Still struggling bit here, how long do your waves normally last? Sleep not great haven’t managed to stop unisom yet. Just still feel quite jittery really wish this anxiety would give me some days off.Not sure what triggered it maybe overdoing things. Only took 1 melatonin so can’t imagine was that.. Miss being able sit and chill out in garden. Gone from heatwave to autumn overnight. All this week had lot electric storms and constant rain. Least no lugging watering cans.

Really wish I could hop on a plane and escape the UK for couple weeks, escape the media frenzy that will not doubt ensue about the royals over next few weeks. Finding it quite stressful bombarded by it all day on TV and the radio. Hope everyone is OK, I’m sort middling at moment, yesterday was like monsoon weather so stuck indoors most day☹️

[[La...]]

Hugs Leann. Yes I’m sure the royal family media coverage along with funeral coverage will cause much stress there. My condolences to the royal family on the Queen’s passing. May everyone be comforted and conduct themselves in a respectful manner towards the family. She was the Queen but firstly she’s a mother, grandmother and great grandmother. A death is hard on a family especially losing a matriarch. I really hope people will respect and support  the family as they grieve and lay to rest their family member.

The weather here is cooler. Still hot but cooler. 😂 It’s starting to show signs of Autumn ( fall). I’ve been watching the leaves turn yellowish and falling slowly. Hoping to be over this slam of waves so I can enjoy walking outside.  Strangely we haven’t had much hurricanes this year.

Wishing you a good day

Hugs 🤗

[[le...]]

I feel for her family obviously, and have nothing but respect for how she dedicated her life to carrying out her duties, but never felt she tried to connect with the man in the street the way Diana did, she was always a bit aloof, the way she was brought up I guess.  It’s the way media go into total overdrive, almost creating the mass hysteria in some people. Hopefully things will calm down soon and normal life will resume.

Definitely had enough rain to fill the resovoir’s now. Glad it’s cooler but don’t like the monsoon type weather. Do you normally get hurricane’s must be scary. I just wish I’d feel like I’m making bit more progress , as improvement never seems to last. Anyway hopefully some “normal” tv on tonight. Hope your wave soon eases xx

[[La...]]

Yes we usually get hurricanes especially in the south and on the east coast USA. Last year there was sooooooo many but this year almost none! It’s very alarmingly strange. Maybe they’ll show up late this year. Not that anyone wants a hurricane but that drastic decline compared to last year’s record numbers is not good!

[[Pa...]]

Morning hugs! How are you, Dear Yearlings doing? I hope you all slept well. As for me I’m in rougher dread this morning. I slept pretty well. It’s funny how if I sleep well then I wake up in a rougher wave. You’d think it would be the opposite seeing that sleep is the body’s restoration. Or maybe it’s just a coincidence…who knows.

 

Anyway….Sandy I’m thrilled that cardiologist went well. I’m not surprised that you got a good report. I felt that you were having benzo symptoms popping up or something minor. You know I have told people about drinking too much water. It does wash the salt in the blood which is extremely important for heart and blood pressure regulation. Believe it or not a person can die from drinking too much water. The phrase “too much of a good thing” is true. Hydration while going through this is ideal but everyone needs to be careful not to overdo it. I’m so happy to hear all is well. I’m sure you’ll continue to feel much better and at this far out make big strides to go on to heal. Love and hugs

 

Live I really hope we both turn that corner very soon too. I’m rapid cycling through symptoms in my waves. It’s definitely not fun. Any relief I get I’m grateful for. This is just so ridiculous in our minds because it doesn’t make sense. I’m ok with that because as long as it’s serving the purpose of healing me. I’m feeling the same as you…tired of it all. We all are. I really hope you feel better today. You’ve been in the trenches for way too long. I want you to know that I think of you and everyone daily even in my own struggles. I also cry out to God because sometimes that’s all we can do. Captain Jack Sparrow and Davy Jones need to leave me alone. I’m so ready to have a normal life again.  We learn so much from this as Sandy said, so much that our new lives after this is just that….newly lived with all we’ve learned and very cautious. I read the success stories and all I can think of is I can’t wait for that healing to happen to me. Love and hugs

 

Lisa how wonderful to read that you’re doing better. Thank God! Wouldn’t it be a blessing to just remain like that? And we all will experience the permanent window. As far out as most of us are, it has got to be soon. You know what? I’m crazy enough to wait and see. I’m thinking in my mind…ok this will heal, then let’s see! While I’m watching and waiting I’m doing all I can to distract. As Live said, I’m in God’s grace and mercy. Love and hugs

 

JB42 yes indeed. Today is the tomorrow that was worried about yesterday….and you survived! Here’s the rule…

You feel like dying with all these waves and symptoms but you have to wait until tomorrow. Everyday repeat it!    How are you doing, friend?

 

Helen I’m thinking of you! I know you’re taking a break to get over your cold virus. I hope you are snuggled up on the couch feeling better. Miss you posting! Love and hugs

 

Pashu how are you doing? You’re missing around here. Hope you’re alright dear. Love and hugs

 

Deanna how’s the air hunger? Is it better? Sending you love and hugs

 

Leann hope you’re doing well. Has things settled down yet since your car rides? Love and hugs

 

GG where are you dear? Are you still doing good? How’s the garden? Love and hugs

 

Who’d I miss? Not intentionally.

Just in case….I love you all. Happy healing vibes to you all.

Where’s the window fairy?

Just in a lot of pain and juggling every single thing life is throwing at me. Thanks for the love.

[[La...]]

Morning hugs! How are you, Dear Yearlings doing? I hope you all slept well. As for me I’m in rougher dread this morning. I slept pretty well. It’s funny how if I sleep well then I wake up in a rougher wave. You’d think it would be the opposite seeing that sleep is the body’s restoration. Or maybe it’s just a coincidence…who knows.

 

Anyway….Sandy I’m thrilled that cardiologist went well. I’m not surprised that you got a good report. I felt that you were having benzo symptoms popping up or something minor. You know I have told people about drinking too much water. It does wash the salt in the blood which is extremely important for heart and blood pressure regulation. Believe it or not a person can die from drinking too much water. The phrase “too much of a good thing” is true. Hydration while going through this is ideal but everyone needs to be careful not to overdo it. I’m so happy to hear all is well. I’m sure you’ll continue to feel much better and at this far out make big strides to go on to heal. Love and hugs

 

Live I really hope we both turn that corner very soon too. I’m rapid cycling through symptoms in my waves. It’s definitely not fun. Any relief I get I’m grateful for. This is just so ridiculous in our minds because it doesn’t make sense. I’m ok with that because as long as it’s serving the purpose of healing me. I’m feeling the same as you…tired of it all. We all are. I really hope you feel better today. You’ve been in the trenches for way too long. I want you to know that I think of you and everyone daily even in my own struggles. I also cry out to God because sometimes that’s all we can do. Captain Jack Sparrow and Davy Jones need to leave me alone. I’m so ready to have a normal life again.  We learn so much from this as Sandy said, so much that our new lives after this is just that….newly lived with all we’ve learned and very cautious. I read the success stories and all I can think of is I can’t wait for that healing to happen to me. Love and hugs

 

Lisa how wonderful to read that you’re doing better. Thank God! Wouldn’t it be a blessing to just remain like that? And we all will experience the permanent window. As far out as most of us are, it has got to be soon. You know what? I’m crazy enough to wait and see. I’m thinking in my mind…ok this will heal, then let’s see! While I’m watching and waiting I’m doing all I can to distract. As Live said, I’m in God’s grace and mercy. Love and hugs

 

JB42 yes indeed. Today is the tomorrow that was worried about yesterday….and you survived! Here’s the rule…

You feel like dying with all these waves and symptoms but you have to wait until tomorrow. Everyday repeat it!    How are you doing, friend?

 

Helen I’m thinking of you! I know you’re taking a break to get over your cold virus. I hope you are snuggled up on the couch feeling better. Miss you posting! Love and hugs

 

Pashu how are you doing? You’re missing around here. Hope you’re alright dear. Love and hugs

 

Deanna how’s the air hunger? Is it better? Sending you love and hugs

 

Leann hope you’re doing well. Has things settled down yet since your car rides? Love and hugs

 

GG where are you dear? Are you still doing good? How’s the garden? Love and hugs

 

Who’d I miss? Not intentionally.

Just in case….I love you all. Happy healing vibes to you all.

Where’s the window fairy?

Just in a lot of pain and juggling every single thing life is throwing at me. Thanks for the love.

Pashu you’re very welcome. I pray your pain lessens today so you can enjoy a much needed break. Life doesn’t stop because we are healing….there were times I wish it would have chilled out on throwing me so many curve balls. 

Sending you love and hugs ❤️🤗

[[Li...]]

Hello to all my beautiful buddies,

 

LadyDen,

I'm sorry to hear that you're in a wave as well. Hope it's getting lighter for you.

 

On Thursday evening I had a bit of a window which made me so happy. But, then it came time for bed and everything came roaring back. I think it's a good sign I'm getting mini windows here and there. I have been getting some breaks from the fear and so hoping that each and every time is the last time it will ever rear its ugly head. So I am trying to stay as positive as possible

 

To all my buddies I hope you're having a better day than I am.

 

Hugs, LiveLife

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Glad you are feeling bit  better Live. How is everyone doing, just like to hear everyone’s news, how you are all doing, just  need a break from constantly being bombarded with stuff about the Queen over here 24/7. Just want to read about proper news. Weather changed here feels more like autumn, Sunny today but more storms forecast. I’m still struggling bit, still getting frustrated with not being able to plan much. Hope your waves are easing Lady Den. Looking forward to life going back to normal over here, as normal as can be for me . Just finding it impossible to really distract at moment, definitely sensory overload from media at moment😱😱

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Hope everyone is having a decent weekend! 

 

LiveLife:  So happy to hear about your window.  I do think that is a good sign.  I pray you will get a big window soon!!!

 

Leeann;  I am sure the media coverage is non-stop.  You might have to disconnect from t.v., radio, internet if it gets to be too much!  You sound like you are doing a bit better overall.  Keep going!  One day at a time!!

 

Thinking of everyone else!

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Was thinking might not watch the news for next week. They keep publishing photos of royals looking at flowers people have left trying to catch them crying. Just wish they would leave them all alone, just give lower key coverage until the funeral. Sorry I’ll stop ranting. Think coz  my nervous system damaged it’s getting to me so much. 🥹🥹🥹

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Hello to everyone,

I did have a bit of a break but that seems to be in the past. Things are raging with this intense fear today.  I honestly didn't think it could get any worse but it did. Hoping it will lighten up as the day goes on. Maybe this is the worst of the worst before it gets better. I try so hard to stay positive, need this to take a leave for good. I'm barely hanging on!!!

 

Lisa,

Thank you so much. I sure hope I get a big window soon, too.

 

LadyDen,

I hope your wave has settled down for you.

 

Sending healing hugs and much love to all!

 

LiveLife