LadyDen’s Poetry Cafe

[[La...]]

Blue what an awesome poem!!!

I agree with Pam that the red and blue is very nice.

Yes we have to keep reminding ourselves these symptoms are not the real us. We have to disregard how we feel from day to day. You’re so right.

Thank you for sharing your talent.

[[La...]]

      A battle I can win

 

This is for now what I’m going through

There’s not much that I can do

Just wait it out even when I’m tired

Then pick up the pieces and be inspired

 

That I made it out with all of me intact

Renewed strength, as a matter of fact

I fought long yet hard with all my might

Valiantly both day and night

 

It was a battle that tossed me all around

It tried to keep me flat on the ground

I refused to just lay there as my end

For this was a battle I knew I could win

 

Father Time waved the months right on by

Sometimes I laughed and sometimes I just had to cry

As things settled down emerged was a new me

A winner….healthy, happy, with a few scars but free!

 

By LadyDen

 

To all those still in the struggle of their battle to restore their health. I send my well wishes. I’m still in this battle too but I’m definitely seeing the light at the end of this tunnel getting brighter and bigger. I’m so ready to walk on out into the sun of restored health! Keep going! Fight because this is a battle you can win….in time.

Love and hugs

[[Ha...]]

Beautiful LD!

A lovely hopeful poem to get us through another day.

Thank you.

Hardy x

[[Bl...]]

A lovely poem and sentiment, LadyDen. I'm glad you see the light at the end of the tunnel.

 

And thank you for your comments on The Conversation.

[[be...]]

      A battle I can win

 

This is for now what I’m going through

There’s not much that I can do

Just wait it out even when I’m tired

Then pick up the pieces and be inspired

 

That I made it out with all of me intact

Renewed strength, as a matter of fact

I fought long yet hard with all my might

Valiantly both day and night

 

It was a battle that tossed me all around

It tried to keep me flat on the ground

I refused to just lay there as my end

For this was a battle I knew I could win

 

Father Time waved the months right on by

Sometimes I laughed and sometimes I just had to cry

As things settled down emerged was a new me

A winner….healthy, happy, with a few scars but free!

 

By LadyDen

 

To all those still in the struggle of their battle to restore their health. I send my well wishes. I’m still in this battle too but I’m definitely seeing the light at the end of this tunnel getting brighter and bigger. I’m so ready to walk on out into the sun of restored health! Keep going! Fight because this is a battle you can win….in time.

Love and hugs

That light has been flickering for you and so happy that you are now seeing more of it. I know of your battle, but I also know your strength, to keep going one step...one moment, second, and one day at a time. :smitten:

[[La...]]

:smitten: :smitten:

 

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

 

 

A short poem for today… ( inspired by my lovely friend Begood who’s been there for me since my journey began)

 

    You Got This!

Oh yeah, my dear, things look a mess

But don’t worry and don’t stress

Yep for now, it is what it is

Steady yourself, you got this!

 

Oh no, my dear, don’t think it won’t end

You will be made whole, all will mend

You’ll walk each day in total bliss

Just keep going, you got this!

 

By LadyDen 

 

   

[[Ha...]]

Beautiful LD. Like the idea of BLISS!

Hardy x

[[be...]]

:smitten: :smitten:

 

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

 

 

A short poem for today… ( inspired by my lovely friend Begood who’s been there for me since my journey began)

 

    You Got This!

Oh yeah, my dear, things look a mess

But don’t worry and don’t stress

Yep for now, it is what it is

Steady yourself, you got this!

 

Oh no, my dear, don’t think it won’t end

You will be made whole, all will mend

You’ll walk each day in total bliss

Just keep going, you got this!

 

By LadyDen 

 

 

Thanks Lady, remember that it has been all you...always, the strong Warrior, that would not give in or up! Who pushed back, even when you could hardly raise your head. I am so happy that you now can see all the wonderful life that is ahead of you.

💖💦💦💦💖

[[Bl...]]

A Day in the Life

 

I awake with the sunlight on this fine winter day.

I see that my intrusive thoughts haven't gone away.

 

But it matters not, I won't fall prey to their allure.

I see them as they are, just a nuisance, to be sure.

 

Like a tornado, the chaos swirls around and through my world.

A force unto itself, I can't restrain what's been unfurled.

 

Distorted memories and images that whirl through my brain.

To spend energy exploring them would be an effort in vain.

 

Most mornings I wake up, convinced my skin has caught on fire.

I remind myself my nerves have gone completely haywire!

 

Yesterday I was bed bound, yet today, it's constant pacing.

Each day, its own brand of misery, at times, it's enslaving.

 

It's just screwed up brain chemistry, these symptoms come and go.

They mean nothing, they're irrelevant, as I have come to know.

 

I can't control their presence and thus I am resigned.

So I allow and accept them and pay them no mind.

 

Some days are better than others, as I have come to learn.

I have stopped questioning why, it's no longer of concern.

 

I know I'm getting better, and my well-being is assured.

Someday I'll be delivered from this theater of the absurd!

 

For now, this is my life, all the thoughts and the pain I'm feeling.

I embrace my recovery, with its non-linear healing.

 

It's my perspective and my attitude that gets me through the daily grind.

I get up and play the hand I'm dealt.  A day in the life for those with BIND.

 

By Blue Lion

[[Be...]]

Blue Lion, that's a very nice poem.  You write poetry very well.

[[Bl...]]

Thank you, Beck's.

[[La...]]

Very lovely, Blue!

You should publish your work. 

 

 

[[Bl...]]

Good to see you back, LadyDen.

Thank you for your kind comments!

[[La...]]

          Not An Option

 

Don’t you give up

It’s not hopeless

You’re still in the fight

Give it your best

Throwing in the towel

Is not an option

 

Pick yourself up

Get off the floor

You’re still standing

Take flight and soar

Laying in defeat

Is not an option

 

Gather your strength

Today has been rough

You’re just as good

And your good is enough

Doubting your new life ahead

Is not an option

 

Tell yourself this..

Daily….

Loudly…

Boldly….

I am a warrior! It’s already done!

Time will tell the truth! I will continue on!

This has taken so much from me but taking my faith in my healing…

IS NOT AN OPTION!

 

By Lady Den

[[Bl...]]

Glitches and Glimpses

 

Your recovery has given birth to a new phrase.

Glitches and Glimpses describe your brain's wacky ways.

A phrase that suggests your everchanging feelings.

The roller coaster ride of non-linear healing.

 

Just as God's grace delivers you a Glimpse of relief.

Here comes the Glitch, a whoosh of terror and misbelief.

Those cringe-worthy thoughts you can't shake from your mind.

Due to a heightened state, your nerves so maligned.

 

The Glitch turns your past into ersatz thoughts.

Sorting truth from fiction becomes a Gordian knot.

Fortunately, you recognize what's going on.

The surreal nature of your memories redrawn.

 

Understanding the absurdity of this recurring symptom,

helps you to move through it and not fall prey as its victim.

Memories from the past need not concern you.

Especially when altered, all twisted and askew.

 

Ah but those Glimpses, when the veil of darkness lifts.

Those stretches of time become the most precious of gifts.

A reminder of the abundance up ahead that awaits you.

Bolstering your resilience, helping you to push through.

 

Glimpses are opportunities to retrain your brain.

How the mind can function when not under strain.

All those GABA receptors currently under repair;

for a snippet of time, they're no longer impaired.

 

The ability to engage with life, ever so brief.

Gives witness to your healing, and some needed relief.

Hold on to the Glimpse for as long as you can.

It fills the well of hope in your recovery plan.

 

So, it's Glitches and Glimpses; what a zany existence.

Yet it's totally survivable with determined persistence.

And dogged persistence my friend, you have in spades.

And the day will come when all this craziness fades!

 

By Blue Lion

[[Be...]]

Blue Lion, you do write good poetry.

[[be...]]

Blue Lion, thanks for your prose,both you and Ladyden, should publish your words, they are touching and I know that many would find comfort in both of your words.

[[Bl...]]

Thank you Becks and begood.  Your appreciation means a lot!

[[Bl...]]

Hope

 

Though the darkness often consumes us

  Still the sun shines bright each day

Piercing the shroud of illness

  Lighting the path along our way

 

Its promise is eternal

  For it never fails to rise

As we're ensconced in the infernal

  It lifts are eyes unto the skies

 

It is there that we find hope

  Among the heavens and the clouds

The strength to help us cope

  A gift our creator has endowed

 

Eventually we recover

  With our health restored anew

Our best self, we'll then discover

  Our faith in God hath seen us through

 

By Blue Lion

 

[[La...]]

Thank you. Blue and Begood. And thank you Becks for reading and comments.

Love and hugs to you all.

 

        While Waiting

 

We are like a child waiting for Christmas morn

Anticipating hearing our gifts getting ripped and torn

We are like a bird staring at its next meal

Swooping down in time to get its fill

We are like water rushing down flowing and adrift

To go over the edge of a waterfall cliff

We are like a lighted candle dancing in a sway

Flickering as it’s wax drips away

We are as leaves suspended in the winds that blow

Destined eventually to the ground below

We are like an expectant mother tired and worn

Anticipating to behold the face of her newborn

So…..we just wait!

But while waiting for all things to become normal again

A defeatist attitude we must refrain

All will be alright, renewed and good

If we wait with patience as we should.

While waiting take this time to look deep inside

Make some goals, have some plans for when healing arrive

Set your heart on the upcoming long awaited fate

Of a recovered new you, definitely worth the wait

 

By Lady Den

 

Wow, do I have some nice things planned! 

[[Bl...]]

Dear God...

 

Dear God, there are thousands of folks who truly don't feel well.

They followed their doctor's orders and ended up in Benzo Hell!

 

Careers, marriages, relationships, suddenly all shattered.

Leaving innocent people devastated, feeling forlorn and battered.

 

All because of a misunderstood affliction.

Symptoms so bizarre, you'd swear it's science fiction.

 

Their recovery and healing, can literally take years.

Throughout which they're saddled with high anxiety and fears.

 

Physicians and psychologists have little to offer those with this curse.

In fact their therapeutic approach, often just makes matters worse.

 

Lord, that you'd allow all this, is to me so very puzzling.

Forgive my doubts, as I witness all their anguish and suffering.

 

So I come to you today with the most faithful of intentions.

For this appears to be a case for divine intervention.

 

If only for a short time could you send down a little relief.

To provide a little hope and re-invigorate their belief.

 

I make this request Lord, with the utmost humility and discretion.

On behalf of thousands I offer you this prayer of intercession.

 

So, Dear God, in all your glory, your splendor, and your brilliance.

Provide them with the fortitude to build up their resilience.

 

Prepare their mind and bodies to weather this storm they face.

And allow some peace and comfort through your amazing grace.

 

By Blue Lion

[[La...]]

Dear God...

 

Dear God, there are thousands of folks who truly don't feel well.

They followed their doctor's orders and ended up in Benzo Hell!

 

Careers, marriages, relationships, suddenly all shattered.

Leaving innocent people devastated, feeling forlorn and battered.

 

All because of a misunderstood affliction.

Symptoms so bizarre, you'd swear it's science fiction.

 

Their recovery and healing, can literally take years.

Throughout which they're saddled with high anxiety and fears.

 

Physicians and psychologists have little to offer those with this curse.

In fact their therapeutic approach, often just makes matters worse.

 

Lord, that you'd allow all this, is to me so very puzzling.

Forgive my doubts, as I witness all their anguish and suffering.

 

So I come to you today with the most faithful of intentions.

For this appears to be a case for divine intervention.

 

If only for a short time could you send down a little relief.

To provide a little hope and re-invigorate their belief.

 

I make this request Lord, with the utmost humility and discretion.

On behalf of thousands I offer you this prayer of intercession.

 

So, Dear God, in all your glory, your splendor, and your brilliance.

Provide them with the fortitude to build up their resilience.

 

Prepare their mind and bodies to weather this storm they face.

And allow some peace and comfort through your amazing grace.

 

By Blue Lion

OhBlue this made me cry!

It’s soooooooooo lovely! Thank you for this!

I LOVE this one! I can’t pick a certain part because the whole thing is great.

[[be...]]

Dear God...

 

Dear God, there are thousands of folks who truly don't feel well.

They followed their doctor's orders and ended up in Benzo Hell!

 

Careers, marriages, relationships, suddenly all shattered.

Leaving innocent people devastated, feeling forlorn and battered.

 

All because of a misunderstood affliction.

Symptoms so bizarre, you'd swear it's science fiction.

 

Their recovery and healing, can literally take years.

Throughout which they're saddled with high anxiety and fears.

 

Physicians and psychologists have little to offer those with this curse.

In fact their therapeutic approach, often just makes matters worse.

 

Lord, that you'd allow all this, is to me so very puzzling.

Forgive my doubts, as I witness all their anguish and suffering.

 

So I come to you today with the most faithful of intentions.

For this appears to be a case for divine intervention.

 

If only for a short time could you send down a little relief.

To provide a little hope and re-invigorate their belief.

 

I make this request Lord, with the utmost humility and discretion.

On behalf of thousands I offer you this prayer of intercession.

 

So, Dear God, in all your glory, your splendor, and your brilliance.

Provide them with the fortitude to build up their resilience.

 

Prepare their mind and bodies to weather this storm they face.

And allow some peace and comfort through your amazing grace.

 

By Blue Lion

OhBlue this made me cry!

It’s soooooooooo lovely! Thank you for this!

I LOVE this one! I can’t pick a certain part because the whole thing is great.

:thumbsup:

[[Bl...]]

A Heroine's Journey

 

By conventional standards she had a lovely life.

She was blessed in so many ways.

A career and family, little to no strife.

So abundant, until that fateful day.

 

And thus, our Heroine's Journey began.

Into a maddening and tumultuous world.

A deterioration of her health, totally unplanned.

As her initiation immediately unfurled.

 

A recipient of an ill-fated prescription,

our heroine took it exactly as prescribed.

She encountered a neuro-toxic reaction.

And found herself on a most horrific of rides.

 

She never asked to be put on this path.

It was thrust upon her by circumstance.

She's embraced her journey and its accordant wrath.

A victim of unfortunate happenstance.

 

Numerous clinicians were baffled by her condition.

Their reaction was one of disbelief.

The solution they offered was more prescriptions.

But ultimately, they provided no relief.

 

She was left to figure things out on her own.

And in time she determined what had happened.

She soon learned that she wasn't alone.

As countless others had had their lives shattered.

 

Benzodiazepine Induced Neurological Dysfunction;

that is her actual diagnosis.

Crippling symptoms inhibiting her every function.

Mirroring a patient with multiple psychoses.

 

Within her brain, a neurochemical fury

of monumental proportion.

Resulting from a bizarre iatrogenic injury.

Every thought surrendered to distortion.

 

Strangely immersed in her own nine rings of hell,

Her world was suddenly surreal.

She found herself in a virtual prison cell.

Not knowing when or how she would heal.

 

A reality both morbid and mysterious.

A daily struggle just to remain whole.

She refers to this most hellacious experience,

as her own "Dark Night of the Soul."

 

With hope and faith, she has leaned on her Creator.

As she endeavored to get through each day.

And now an arduous five long years later.

She has learned so much along the way.

 

She no longer sees herself in a daily fight.

This is not a war to be won.

Only time can bring an end to this wearisome plight.

And allowance for what can’t be undone.

 

No longer can she trust her once treasured institutions.

Having failed her in her hour of need.

Feelings of betrayal, leaving her disillusioned.

Detached and disconnected, indeed.

 

Our heroine has now seen behind the curtain.

Expectations no longer mean anything.

Of only the present moment, can she ever be certain.

And she's learned, acceptance means everything.

 

One day she'll return home, healed and intact.

Of this, let there be no debate.

She's gained a new appreciation for life, that's a fact.

Forever changed for having accepted her fate.

 

Nobody knows when this saga will end.

Until then I pray, "Lord have mercy."

So, goes the tale of my dearest of friends.

Truly a Heroine's Journey!

 

By Blue Lion

 

[[Be...]]

Blue Lion, you do write some very good poetry.