The Long Hold Support Group

[[es...]]

Checking in, as I have sobered up a bit!😂 the shine kills the virus, purely medicinal! Oh, Trishy, I am so sorry. I send my love and hope for her recovery. The burning mouth sounds familiar. I have had that a few times. It is very weird and uncomfortable. Why are there no symptoms that feel good? Ever wonder? Love to all, Espy.    Tom still home, thank God. At least, for now. E

[[Ma...]]

Checking in, as I have sobered up a bit!😂 the shine kills the virus, purely medicinal! Oh, Trishy, I am so sorry. I send my love and hope for her recovery. The burning mouth sounds familiar. I have had that a few times. It is very weird and uncomfortable. Why are there no symptoms that feel good? Ever wonder? Love to all, Espy.    Tom still home, thank God. At least, for now. E

 

Espy, I never thought of that, send me a bottle will you  :laugh:  So glad Tom is there with you  . Love you Cousin, Mary 🍾

[[es...]]

Jug in the mail,😂♥️♥️♥️♥️Espy

[[De...]]

Sorry your feeling so bf ad tt. This really is an awful time. Maybe you need a good cry and let  things out. I've had those days too. Remember, this to shall pass! Lybdd

 

 

Thx espy, it feels a little better today. I hope it lasts! Party on!! Lol

[[Ma...]]

Jug in the mail,😂♥️♥️♥️♥️Espy

 

I will be looking for it  :laugh:

[[NJ...]]

Morning everyone,

Having a really hard, hard day today. The tears are flowing. It's actually been a hard week. My sister has been in the hospital with pulmonary edema. She has severe emphysema. She went to the hospital bc she fell over her vacuum and fractured a rib. Then she developed all these other complications, you all know about my well water ordeal. The funny thing is even though all this is very upsetting the fact is I started to feel shitty over the weekend, mentally, none of what's happened has helped but it's not the cause of this little bit of depression going on. I needed to just unload what I was feeling. I was going to cut tonight but I'm re thinking that. Oh and I have some sort of insect bite on my forehead near my hair line and a red line that travels from it to my eyebrow. Who the hell knows what that's from 🤷‍♀️ spider bite, to bite who knows.. but I'm so weepy today. I can't hold it all together anymore. I tried so hard this week. I've lost all ambition, all motivation, no energy, no drive for anything.

If you read this thanks for taking the time, if not that's ok too bc we all are dealing with so much right now.

Take care everyone and please don't let my post pull you down, I know it's pretty negative. I will pull out of this.

Be well everyone. Peace and health 🙏♥️

Trishy ♥️

 

Trishy,

 

I had a week where I felt like you did. My son isn't doing well again, this is the pattern we keep doing over and over with us weaning him off the steroid, he gets to a certain point where it is bad and we can't get him off, and it is so dangerous for him to be on these long term, it has been 14 months and even 14 weeks is a long time. I was a mess, trying to hold it together Friday and this weekend. I am also trying to find him a new doctor which is not easy. His current doctor just doesn't seem like he can get this done and doesn't seem up on all the latest tests. My son is losing weight again, can't eat, this has been going on now for 21 months and I am so damned tired and overwhelmed. I am also tapering mirtazapine, I have now cut 10 percent, really other than headaches no ill effects but wonder if that is contributing to my weepiness. I just need off that ... it is messing with my weight and blood chemistry. I am going really slow, that 10 percent is over a month's time.

 

Please check in with a doctor about your spider bite if it isn't better. I hope your sister is doing better.

 

Val, good to hear from you. And thank you Stut for including me always in your greeting. I know where I live we are still in lockdown and this is getting really hard but I fear what will happen when we open up. My mom in the nursing home is so depressed and sounds like she is fading a little more every day.

 

Stay well everyone.

[[Ma...]]

NJ, I feel so bad for you, you are going through so much.  I wish I had some good advice or suggestions, I just don't.  I know your son feeling bad and loosing weight again is scaring you to death and your Mom in a nursing home  .  I can't imagine.  Sending you lots of love and hope finding a better Dr.  Please stay safe and take good care of yourself too.  Love you, Mary 💜💜💜

[[va...]]

Hi everyone, I don't have the energy to catch up so please excuse me for it. I like to pop in and see you people are still alive and kicking though. NJ Strength you chose your nick very well. I believe your son will get through this illness and will get better. I'm praying for him though I'm not sure about my faith but still. Slowly with the remeron please 🙏.

[[va...]]

Hello 🍒 Mary!

How are you living girl? Is your back behaving today? I saw the bar in Wisconsin.. they're all asking for it in my opinion.

 

They were also showing the same thing here in Texas in Houston.    I just don't get it.  I hope they don't kill anyone they live with, people drinking too much loose all discipline.  Back about average.  Walked almost a mile and did some cleaning and wiping.  Busy day for me lately  . 

🍒 Mary 

 

No wonder they're all getting drunk. Can't blame them. I for sure would be doing the same if this darn benzo hadn't ruined me to ever drink alcohol again. 🤦🏼‍♀️

[[va...]]

Trishy I'm sorry about your sister. Hope she recovers soon. I'm going through exactly the same emotional state you're going through, minus the spider bite. I think in my case it's a mix of the situation (which is bad enough to be depressed for years), plus withdrawal. Cutting in this condition is a bad idea. I'd give it time to stabilize a bit 😘

[[Kg...]]

Morning everyone,

Having a really hard, hard day today. The tears are flowing. It's actually been a hard week. My sister has been in the hospital with pulmonary edema. She has severe emphysema. She went to the hospital bc she fell over her vacuum and fractured a rib. Then she developed all these other complications, you all know about my well water ordeal. The funny thing is even though all this is very upsetting the fact is I started to feel shitty over the weekend, mentally, none of what's happened has helped but it's not the cause of this little bit of depression going on. I needed to just unload what I was feeling. I was going to cut tonight but I'm re thinking that. Oh and I have some sort of insect bite on my forehead near my hair line and a red line that travels from it to my eyebrow. Who the hell knows what that's from 🤷‍♀️ spider bite, to bite who knows.. but I'm so weepy today. I can't hold it all together anymore. I tried so hard this week. I've lost all ambition, all motivation, no energy, no drive for anything.

If you read this thanks for taking the time, if not that's ok too bc we all are dealing with so much right now.

Take care everyone and please don't let my post pull you down, I know it's pretty negative. I will pull out of this.

Be well everyone. Peace and health 🙏♥️

Trishy ♥️

 

Trishy,

 

I had a week where I felt like you did. My son isn't doing well again, this is the pattern we keep doing over and over with us weaning him off the steroid, he gets to a certain point where it is bad and we can't get him off, and it is so dangerous for him to be on these long term, it has been 14 months and even 14 weeks is a long time. I was a mess, trying to hold it together Friday and this weekend. I am also trying to find him a new doctor which is not easy. His current doctor just doesn't seem like he can get this done and doesn't seem up on all the latest tests. My son is losing weight again, can't eat, this has been going on now for 21 months and I am so damned tired and overwhelmed. I am also tapering mirtazapine, I have now cut 10 percent, really other than headaches no ill effects but wonder if that is contributing to my weepiness. I just need off that ... it is messing with my weight and blood chemistry. I am going really slow, that 10 percent is over a month's time.

 

Please check in with a doctor about your spider bite if it isn't better. I hope your sister is doing better.

 

Val, good to hear from you. And thank you Stut for including me always in your greeting. I know where I live we are still in lockdown and this is getting really hard but I fear what will happen when we open up. My mom in the nursing home is so depressed and sounds like she is fading a little more every day.

 

Stay well everyone.

 

 

NJ Just a recommendation if you have tried all the large university centers in the city, then I would try NIH https://clinicalstudies.info.nih.gov/indexpage.aspx.    Sorry to hear about your continued stress.  We are living in very trying times right now.

[[Th...]]

Just curious  I have always been bad the week of my period but is it normal to mostly be worse the week after. I get like one week break IF I have a period every month usually it’s every two months now.

[[Wa...]]

Just curious  I have always been bad the week of my period but is it normal to mostly be worse the week after. I get like one week break IF I have a period every month usually it’s every two months now.

 

Mine is usually worse the week after.

[[St...]]

Good morning LHSG hoping everyone has a better day.

I haven't caught up and l will when l have some time.Very short-staffed at work so l have to work all week.l hope Trish your sister is feeling better?Try to hang on honey everyone is feeling down at this time.Not much to feel positive about at this time.Time will tell.Try not to listen too much to the news honey.love you my lST X

Morning NJ l hope you find a specialist this is not a good situation to be in.l would have thought your son's treatment would be further forward by now.As for your mother sadly this is happening everywhere.l know you have a lot to deal with honey.lt is so unfair but sadly life isn't fair.You will get through this honey.Love to you.X

Morning Val how are you surviving? Are you able to get out a little more?l know you are tapering never easy but if you are vigilant you can do it.love you.X

Lady Mary how's you are you feeling any better?I haven't caught up so l will try to in the near future.Stay well my lovely and remember to look after my boys.love you my lady Mary HenX

Morning Suzy Final Bill Miyu Nova Esperanza GP Meems Olive Troch Valley Free MM Intend Gilly and everyone here sending you my love.X

[[va...]]

Morning Stutt!! Thanks for remembering us. I'm sorry you're so overworked. I hope the UK gets better in a couple weeks. You're going through the worst now 😢. I'm OK. Depressed, anxious etc but not much I can do about it. I hope your daughter is feeling OK as her exams didn't go so well. I hope she'll be able to make up for it in the next opportunity. My daughter is studying hard for her online final exams but she's only 14 so of course it's easier. Online exams are difficult, she has to send pictures of each exercise and then do the next... It's more stressful. They do it like that so that they don't cheat and of course they have to but really, it's difficult. Take care Stutt. You've really chosen a great time to go back to work haven't you? Send our love to daisy and muffins. Now you have an angel called Sox looking after you.

[[Ma...]]

Morning Stutt!! Thanks for remembering us. I'm sorry you're so overworked. I hope the UK gets better in a couple weeks. You're going through the worst now 😢. I'm OK. Depressed, anxious etc but not much I can do about it. I hope your daughter is feeling OK as her exams didn't go so well. I hope she'll be able to make up for it in the next opportunity. My daughter is studying hard for her online final exams but she's only 14 so of course it's easier. Online exams are difficult, she has to send pictures of each exercise and then do the next... It's more stressful. They do it like that so that they don't cheat and of course they have to but really, it's difficult. Take care Stutt. You've really chosen a great time to go back to work haven't you? Send our love to daisy and muffins. Now you have an angel called Sox looking after you.

 

Good post Vali  :thumbsup:

[[va...]]

Mary how's your back and your anxiety? Is it letting up a little now that you're longer into the last cut? Are you still as worried about your husband?

[[tr...]]

funny how we are all different. Mine is literally the week of. I have to plan around it bc that week is a complete write off.

But I might be weird in saying at least I can know and plan for it, unlike when waves come out of nowhere:)

 

I'm only 45, but am looking forward to the future when menopause is over and hormones have settled to a constant state lol

[[Ma...]]

Mary how's your back and your anxiety? Is it letting up a little now that you're longer into the last cut? Are you still as worried about your husband?

 

My back is some better some days  .  My anxiety is worse some days, I let the virus news get to me.

I worry about Tim a lot, but I guess I have accepted that is our new normal.  We cut his hair because he really wouldn't be in a barber shop for anything.  I know he's careful as he can be, so I just have to let it go as much as I can.  I quiz him when he comes on    These are just hard times Vali.  I am so proud of you for handling it all as well as you do.  The virus has effected your life in so many ways.  Tim and I talking about landlords and tenants last night.  Our city is having tenets to apply for help, if they meet requirements then money is given to landlords.  So that is good for all that meet the requirements, but I know most places aren't doing that.  It just becomes a terrible situation for both, unless the tenets are taking advantage of this time.    Its hard to believe this just started in March.

Of course, for our Presidents it started in Dec or Jan  :tickedoff:  they made a choice not to do anything  >

How are your wd symptoms doing?  I know your anxiety has to be sky high  .  Is your daughter holding up okay?  Is this scaring her?  I am glad you have each other.  Love you girlfriend, Mary

🙋🏼🙋🏼. 🌈🤗🤗. 🌈😘😘.  ❣️❤️💕

[[va...]]

Hi Mary. I'm so glad you and Tim have each other too. I hope he'll be OK. Skipping the barber is a good idea. I've done my own hair dye. What an awful result! But my wallet has suffered less, that's for sure. My daughter is not scared. I've raised her with unconditional love so she has a feeling that she'll always be safe. I was raised with abuse and neglect so I'm always anxious. It's mathematical. So she keeps telling me that she has a feeling everything will be OK in the end. I sleep every night with 8 our thomas hall affirmations on YouTube. They're miraculous. We're getting fat. All day at home and anxiety leads me to eat. Today I bought two yummy typical very piggy things that are typical here for breakfast, when I should be eating only lettuce to lose the weight I've gained. My tenant is a b... But she already was before this CovID thing, so this is just a better reason for her to not pay. I've had tenants for fifteen years and never did I have such a bad bad person. We could have problems but we reached agreements. With this one it's impossible. I hope when all this is better after a few months I can kick her out. But it might take quite an effort with our communist friendly government.

[[Ma...]]

Stut, just incase you come on, know I love you and am thinking about you.  Please don't work too much, you need to take care of yourself.  Hope your daughter and the lad are happy . Did she struggle with all her tests or just that one?  Pet the babies for me, and say hi to Trevor  :laugh:  Love you my Queen, your Lady Mary 🙋🏼🙋🏼. 🐕🐶🐾🐾. 🌈🤗🤗. 😘😘😘😘.      🐥🐥🐥🐥

[[St...]]

Stut, just incase you come on, know I love you and am thinking about you.  Please don't work too much, you need to take care of yourself.  Hope your daughter and the lad are happy . Did she struggle with all her tests or just that one?  Pet the babies for me, and say hi to Trevor  :laugh:  Love you my Queen, your Lady Mary 🙋🏼🙋🏼. 🐕🐶🐾🐾. 🌈🤗🤗. 😘😘😘😘.      🐥🐥🐥🐥

Morning Lady Mary well hen how are you?l am delighted you are posting more the place isn't the same without you 💖.My daughter passed the exam she did terribly in 😵. Honestly she would put your head away 😉.She is onto her third exam on Thursday so woohoo 🎊🎉. That's it for another few months.Trev still here hopefully he will be going back home in the next two or three weeks we will see how this easing of restrictions go.The puppies are good and hopefully l will be able to see my family in a few weeks.

. Honestly works good and the days are flying past so l will be doing it for a while longer.

  You look after yourself my lovely and try not to worry too much.l know it's hard not to at this time however worrying never changed anything.Give my boys a big hug from me and train that dog 😡. That will give you something to do 😜. love you my lady Mary HenX

[[St...]]

Good morning LHSG hoping everyone has a better day.

Morning Val l know how hard it is to do exams on line it is horrible and very stressful.l think the kids are definitely feeling the stress of it all.l know you are raising your daughter in a totally different way to your own upbringing however l will say this my daughter never showed signs of mental illness she was very grounded and confident.Now that all changed when something happened that devastated my whole family and almost tore us apart.I never saw a child change so quickly and dramatically.l sometimes wonder about nature and nurture and l believe anxiety etc can be genetic.Just my thoughts honey from my own experience.Anyway l hope you have a better day honey.Remember let things settle down a little before you cut again.love you.X

Morning Trish where are you honey.l know it is never good when you withdraw.Stay strong twiny.love you my lST X

Morning Suzy what are you at?l hope you are ok my love? love you.X

Olive,NJ, Troch Valley Free Meems Esperanza GP Intend Gilly MM Nova Miyu Bill and everyone here sending you my love.X

[[De...]]

Hi Stut,

I am so happy your daughter passed her exam!! I knew she would. It must be a hard on the kids having school online. I sometimes think anxiety is genetic. I was always quiet shy and then came the anxiety. Actually, I bet more people have anxiety than we think. Glad work is keeping you busy. I'm ok. Just my mouth has been bugging me. I cant figure it out, if i cant figure something out i go crazy. Just cant let things go. My thyroid was elevated more than ever. It's never been off so much. I'm thinking the stress of covid might have done it. Everything burns my mouth if i drink anything my teeth feel coated.It's weird. I used the thrush med and omg, nasty! I take omeprazole thinking its acid. I chipped my tooth from playing around with my teeth. I hope my teeth dont fall out. I take good care of them. Anyway, now my car won't start. That happened Sunday. Since then i feel dead and lifeless. At least i could go walking and to the store here and there. Safely. I walked around my neighborhood yesterday. Today ,ike the walking dead. Boy, I'm cheery! Lol. Barely cleaned. Tired of the maid duties. Jim is going to fix the car. He looks stressed. Well I think some things opened today. Not sure what. Ok. I'm rambling. Please stay safe!!! Love you Suzy

[[De...]]

Hi everyone else!

 

I cant keep up, I'm to depressed! Lol. Hang in there. Keep safe! Someday things will be ok again. Love dd

 

Tt,

Feel like you did last week, the tears dont come out. I wish they would. Hope you feel better. Ly dd