[...] Posted April 11, 2015 Share Posted April 11, 2015 I still had a ways to go at 5 months. You'll get there! Hey Bad! Thanks. Did you go through a period of just feeling 'blah'? I'm at month 5 and 6 days now, but the past 3 weeks have been , what I call, 50/50 days. Not really bad, but not good either. I used to have a weekly pattern of 2 bad days, 2 good, 3 semi bad/semi good. But lately, past 3 weeks EVERYDAY is 'semi-bad' with no 'good' days like I used to have. But the 'bad' days are not as 'bad' as they used to be months ago, still I don't get a break from them. It's wall to wall, back to back days of 'blah'. I'd almost rather be slammed hard one day and then get a break the next, like I used to have. Now it's just one long running 'blah' day after day. Did this happen to you? Thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [ba...] Posted April 12, 2015 Share Posted April 12, 2015 What you call blah, I think is what I called zombie. I was like that for a few months (months 4-6). It got better only very slowly until month 7. Then I improved a lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Sa...] Posted April 16, 2015 Share Posted April 16, 2015 Bad, you were my inspiration during all of the w/d that I went through. ope you're well. Glad all seems like they're going well with you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [ba...] Posted April 16, 2015 Share Posted April 16, 2015 Bad, you were my inspiration during all of the w/d that I went through. ope you're well. Glad all seems like they're going well with you. Wow! Thanks! I'm really glad that you're doing well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Sl...] Posted April 16, 2015 Share Posted April 16, 2015 What you call blah, I think is what I called zombie. I was like that for a few months (months 4-6). It got better only very slowly until month 7. Then I improved a lot. Thanks for the clarification on the dullnes (zombir-blah) walked thru it all of month-4 in month five now and still in it. Similar to JACD except for occasional brief intense wave-window interruptions. Mostly just zombie mode with the dullness slowly lifting. Just keep walking thru it... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[...] Posted April 27, 2015 Share Posted April 27, 2015 What you call blah, I think is what I called zombie. I was like that for a few months (months 4-6). It got better only very slowly until month 7. Then I improved a lot. Thanks Bad! Yeah, the "Zombie Blahs" we could say! Yes, I'm 5 months and 3 weeks. I had been feeling really bad the beginning of this month. A 8/9 day long wave. Sucked. Worst since my acute started in Feb. Feb was worse, but it was still bad. But then about 10 days ago. It stopped. And I felt pretty good. The one big issue I've had since 'feeling good' was that my sleep pattern is WAY off. Like everyday. Started sleeping at 12pm! Then 2pm. Then 4pm, and then 6pm! Crasy. So, I'd sleep at like, 4pm and wake up at 11pm?? Then be up all night . It was so weird. So sick of being sick, depressed, and I walked outside but my nerves flaired up bad and had to cut it short. I just feel like I'm on 10 cups of coffee all day. Sucks. That AND I feel tired and spacey. I hope month 6 is better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [ba...] Posted April 27, 2015 Share Posted April 27, 2015 Yeah, my sleep isn't quite right, but it's OK. I currently get 5-6 (sometimes 7) hours of sleep per day, but 1-2 hours of it is often now an afternoon or evening nap. I never used to take naps. But I'll take what I can get. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Al...] Posted April 27, 2015 Share Posted April 27, 2015 Badsocref-I took Valium at 3:00 AM only if I could not fall back to sleep. I'm almost 17 weeks off and despite still waking up once or twice during the night I can now fall back to sleep ASAP and without any Valium. My PDOC recommended Meditation Oasis "Relax Into Guided Meditation". You can download it for free on your iphone under Podcast. This meditation has saved me at 3:00 AM. Instead of popping a Valium I now listen to my mediation and I am out cold. If I only knew about it years ago........ Fran Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [ba...] Posted April 27, 2015 Share Posted April 27, 2015 I popped 'k' or 'a' instead of valium, but my experience was much the same. If I'd known about other options (and what benzos were doing to me), I'd have never started them. Oh well - I'm glad that part of my life is over.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Al...] Posted April 27, 2015 Share Posted April 27, 2015 I read all of your threads backwards over the weekend. We have a lot of similarities and not to jinx myself (knock on wood) but I am healing very nicely. I'm sleeping 5 solid hours straight without taking V (what a big accomplishment). I always wake up once to go to the bathroom but now I can fall back to sleep ASAP, and if I can't I use my Mediation Oasis. I'm getting 7-8 hours of sleep a night and I'm dreaming again:) There is no point looking back for we can only look forward. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [ba...] Posted April 27, 2015 Share Posted April 27, 2015 I read all of your threads backwards over the weekend. We have a lot of similarities and not to jinx myself (knock on wood) but I am healing very nicely. I'm sleeping 5 solid hours straight without taking V (what a big accomplishment). I always wake up once to go to the bathroom but now I can fall back to sleep ASAP, and if I can't I use my Mediation Oasis. I'm getting 7-8 hours of sleep a night and I'm dreaming again:) There is no point looking back for we can only look forward. I'm really glad that you're healing is going well. I think that there are many of us here who used benzos as a sleeping aid (for relatively minor late-night anxiety), and will have roughly similar healing prognoses and time lines. Remember to continue to use those relaxation techniques after you heal. I strayed away from doing relaxation stuff for a while, then realized (last week), that I was carrying around some tension. I did some relaxation 'exercises' and it really helped. Need to stay vigilant with this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Al...] Posted April 27, 2015 Share Posted April 27, 2015 Thank you for the meditation info. Currently I sleep with my Iphone under my pillow so it's there if I need it during the night. When I was having anxiety in the beginning of my recovery I used to listen to 3-4 meditations per day and I could not believe how much it helped with my anxiety. I was just looking back at my journal. I stopped Valium 12-31-14. I went into acute w/d on 1-14 which lasted for 6 days but not all day just a couple of hours each day. Then I had a two week window and I remember thinking I was cured haha. I concur with you that if you take a benzo just for sleep perhaps you do have an easier recovery. All of my s/x's were manageable and I never stayed in bed one day. I just kept exercising and moving. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[mi...] Posted June 30, 2015 Share Posted June 30, 2015 What's this talk about if you took benzos specify for sleep you might have an easier time getting off. I never had anxiety or any other issues. This just gives me some hope that my taper, ( or cold turkey, as I might lose my doctor, my fourth because they are impatient with my taper attempts and afraid of all the new laws here in New York) might go better. I don't need them for sleep, I stopped drinking beer and only get up a few times in the night. I want off so bad. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[...] Posted July 3, 2015 Share Posted July 3, 2015 Congrats. I am half way through my taper. I was wondering if your tinnitus decreased? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [ba...] Posted July 3, 2015 Share Posted July 3, 2015 It's not an issue. There's still some tinnitus there, but I don't usually notice it unless I think about it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Di...] Posted July 12, 2015 Share Posted July 12, 2015 Hi badsocref, I just read your success story. So happy that you are off the crazy benzos. I also wanted to say that I find your posts to be helpful, as I'm sure others do. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [ba...] Posted July 13, 2015 Share Posted July 13, 2015 Thanks! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[an...] Posted February 7, 2016 Share Posted February 7, 2016 Your story helped me as I'm at month 1 off a similar dose of Ativan. Thank you so much for being brave and getting through it so you could show others, like me, there is a light at the end of this tunnel. I appreciate you and am so happy you feel good! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [LA...] Posted June 6, 2016 Share Posted June 6, 2016 I'm a few days away from one month off lorazepam and am perusing success stories...thank you for sharing your story! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Cl...] Posted June 12, 2016 Share Posted June 12, 2016 Hi Badsocref, Thank you for your posts to me, they were all very helpful! Your success story still inspires me. As you, I also started to feel 90% healed at 9 months out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Vm...] Posted August 25, 2016 Share Posted August 25, 2016 Congratulations badsocref! You truly are an inspiration for all of us and I really appreciate all of the help you have given me as well as advice, confidence and hope. You are truly one of the most valued members (to me) on benzobuddies! Thank you for sharing your story with us and thank you for all of your help. I wish nothing but the best to you! You are an awesome person!!! Thanks again Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Tr...] Posted September 22, 2016 Share Posted September 22, 2016 Great story. Congratulations. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [...] Posted January 4, 2017 Share Posted January 4, 2017 How is your tinnitus now...I have it bad, and am in fear coming off Ativan and gabapentin. Neither seem to"help" it, sometimes just make it worse after I dose. I go to my doctor on Jan. 12 for a course of action. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest [ba...] Posted January 4, 2017 Share Posted January 4, 2017 It's been the same for quite some time. It's there, but I don't usually notice it unless it's called to my attention. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Ar...] Posted January 9, 2017 Share Posted January 9, 2017 Your success gave me hope for today. Thanks for sharing. Wishing you joy, peace and love for your life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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