Vent here

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[shadow=brown,left] Life is like photography: You need negatives to develop[/shadow]

I thought I'd start a thread where people can come and let it all out - yell and scream and curse and swear. We need a place where we feel free to express our negativity. Sometimes you need a lovely dinner, and sometimes you need an ugly crapper. If you feel the need to chirp about positivity, this is the wrong place for you. This is the anti-positive thread. I don't actually need to vent right now, but maybe later. You can go ahead and vent if you want. At least I'll read it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Edited September 4, 2023 by [Pa...]
Merging snafu, sorry redevan

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I am really sick and tired of this thing that makes me want to die when I've got everything to live for. I am sobbing and so utterly fed up. And it's not going to go anytime soon either. I doubt my capacity to deal with it for much longer although I love my family so much. I am really scared.

Thank you Evan for putting this up.

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I HATE KLONOPIN..............AND................******* SCALES

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I HATE 'VALIUM", and I want my Life back, so tired having to wonder what else it is going to throw in my path to try to trip me, and how it tries to

seduce me with its BENZO LIE"S. 

[[Ja...]]

I'm so sick of this whole situation Get up take pill rinse repeat

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I hate living in my bathroom!

[[Ja...]]

Benzogirl. I reside in my closet. Lol

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Benzogirl. I reside in my closet. Lol

 

LMAO! You could not fit in mine, as it has yellow tape across from the poooolice that says, "danger zone." 

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Thank you Evan for this thread. I shall now proceed to yell and rant

 

This poison has stolen from me, my job, my home, my financial security, my independence, my health, my brain, my sanity, my relationships with family and friends.

                    I  HATE THIS EFFING DRUG

 

Whew, feel a little better.

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I am so tired of thinking about Xanax and doing the math for my next cut....Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr  :idiot:

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I am really  :tickedoff:today, I have friends here that today they woke up hoping for the best and lo and behold the Benzo Beast again rears his ugly

head, but because they do not give up easily they continue to fight these thoughts,that constantly loop in our Mind,and the different physical aliments

that this horrible thing called benzo's keeps throwing in our path. I have two friends here that have been off of benzo's, but yet they still continue to

try to railroad all they do, but Benzo's these are mighty fine people and they will overcome your seductions to continue to try to control every little aspect

of their life. You are on notice to get the HELL out of our lives and no matter what we will win, remember that we will be HEALED, it may take longer than

we would hope, but by Damn, it will happen.   

[[Ja...]]

Begood. Preach it sister!!!  In fact. Benzos got to hell and stay there where you belong. You will NOT take us down

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I am seriously f**king fed up of this BS.

 

I want to go to the beach.

 

I want to eat chocolate.

 

I want to have energy and enjoy the sunshine.

 

I want to enjoy music and TV again.

 

I want to be NORMAL.

 

I am TIRED of this crap now, I am so, so tired of this and life is passing me by now.

 

There is so much I want to DO and SEE and TASTE and FEEL.

 

What IS this BS journey we are on???

 

This is just so f**king f**cked up and cruel.

 

Spend f**king years tapering and then more f**king years waiting to have a functioning brain again...

 

When the f**k is this sh*t going to end?

 

 

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I am SICK of the word benzo.

 

I am SICK of my dose jars.

 

I am SICK of my syringes and measuring and counting...

 

point this and point that... numbers, numbers, percentages.

 

Waves.

 

Anxiety.

 

Symptoms.

 

IF THERE IS A GOD, *PLEASE* HELP US ALL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

There HAS to be a point to all of this but sometimes I really do wonder if this is worth it.

 

 

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Oscar. Thank you for the rant. I have nothing to add except I too am sooooo sick of it to. Rinse, repeat

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This thread is awesome.  Oh wait, that was positive.  Time for the NEGATIVITY AND RAGE!

 

I hate the entire mental health system and I think every psychiatrist should be put in the worst prisons in the country and given a cocktail of no less than 12 of their own POISON psych drugs repeatedly for several months.  Then they should be dropped cold turkey off the high doses of their cocktails of psych drugs so they go insane from withdrawal and then they can get deported to wherever ISIS is hanging out.  Or maybe even have them shipped on a boat over to North Korea where they can chill with the awesomely "sane" supreme leader KIM JONG UN.

 

These filthy shrinks stole my life from me as a teenager up until now in my 30s.  Prozac chemically castrated me as a child.  Nobody believed that PSSD was real until 8 years after I initially reported it.  Why is this not considered a SEX CRIME AGAINST A CHILD or even just MALPRACTICE?

 

I just read some newscaster got $55,000,000 for her "pain and suffering" because some perv was videotaping her nude and sending the video around the internet or something like that.  Yeah, that's wrong to do and all but c'mon...$55,000,000?  If she deserves that kind of money, then EVERYONE HERE deserves a hell of lot more money than that.  I think that personally after almost 20 years of the abuse and brain damage these stupid asshole shrinks gave to me, I deserve to own every single pharmaceutical company that makes psychiatric drugs plus at least $1 trillion in damages.

 

I demand that we all get trillions of dollars so we can get the best damn care possible and can heal the best we can from all of this psych med nonsense.  I can go on and on about this but I'll end my rant with this.  Most of all FUCK YOU INSOMNIA, you are the only reason I can't get off these damn meds a second time around to even give my brain a chance to heal!

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This thread is awesome.  Oh wait, that was positive.  Time for the NEGATIVITY AND RAGE!

 

I hate the entire mental health system and I think every psychiatrist should be put in the worst prisons in the country and given a cocktail of no less than 12 of their own POISON psych drugs repeatedly for several months.  Then they should be dropped cold turkey off the high doses of their cocktails of psych drugs so they go insane from withdrawal and then they can get deported to wherever ISIS is hanging out.  Or maybe even have them shipped on a boat over to North Korea where they can chill with the awesomely "sane" supreme leader KIM JONG UN.

 

These filthy shrinks stole my life from me as a teenager up until now in my 30s.  Prozac chemically castrated me as a child.  Nobody believed that PSSD was real until 8 years after I initially reported it.  Why is this not considered a SEX CRIME AGAINST A CHILD or even just MALPRACTICE?

 

I just read some newscaster got $55,000,000 for her "pain and suffering" because some perv was videotaping her nude and sending the video around the internet or something like that.  Yeah, that's wrong to do and all but c'mon...$55,000,000?  If she deserves that kind of money, then EVERYONE HERE deserves a hell of lot more money than that.  I think that personally after almost 20 years of the abuse and brain damage these stupid asshole shrinks gave to me, I deserve to own every single pharmaceutical company that makes psychiatric drugs plus at least $1 trillion in damages.

 

I demand that we all get trillions of dollars so we can get the best damn care possible and can heal the best we can from all of this psych med nonsense.  I can go on and on about this but I'll end my rant with this.  Most of all FUCK YOU INSOMNIA, you are the only reason I can't get off these damn meds a second time around to even give my brain a chance to heal!

 

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I am sick of being invisibly sick.

 

I want a white Benzo cane.

 

I want people to give me time to cross the street, to bag my groceries, or how about this—bag the groceries for me! What—are checkers' arms broken these days?

 

How about a little civility out there in the world, huh?

 

To friends and acquaintances: If I say I have chronic health issues, it's because it's the easiest, most uncomplicated answer I can give as to why I haven't been around, involved, etc. So then please, don't ask me to explain myself. If I do, don't cut me short but take seriously what I have to say. I am not an anomaly; more people like me suffer day in and day out. And don't, for the love of Pete, don't be chipper with me.

 

I just want to be seen as a whole person, not a symptom, when a see a specialist. Specialize in seeing ME, and help champion my health! I hate my HMO.

 

Oh yeah, can I be well already?!

[[be...]]

I am sick of being invisibly sick.

 

I want a white Benzo cane.

 

I want people to give me time to cross the street, to bag my groceries, or how about this—bag the groceries for me! What—are checkers' arms broken these days?

 

How about a little civility out there in the world, huh?

 

To friends and acquaintances: If I say I have chronic health issues, it's because it's the easiest, most uncomplicated answer I can give as to why I haven't been around, involved, etc. So then please, don't ask me to explain myself. If I do, don't cut me short but take seriously what I have to say. I am not an anomaly; more people like me suffer day in and day out. And don't, for the love of Pete, don't be chipper with me.

 

I just want to be seen as a whole person, not a symptom, when a see a specialist. Specialize in seeing ME, and help champion my health! I hate my HMO.

 

Oh yeah, can I be well already?!

 

OK Bennie: I'll make sure to be rude to you. ;)

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I don't know why this evil pill rears its head when you think everything is getting better, I know my Journey has not been bad as so many here, that

are struggling or still struggling many years after taking the last benzo, why are you so relentless, and need so much from me, you have worn me out,

I am so fatigued that a small gust of wind would blow me, over, and you keep looping bad thoughts in my mind, look you pitiful little nothing pill, I

want you to get out of my life, I am almost too tired to fight you today, and just to think yesterday I was  doing really good, I refuse to let you take

away everything from me, I am not the Woman I was before, but I will fight you and just leave us all alone, you have made Millions of dollars on our

suffering. just leave already. In fact right now I am so tired that I can not even think of going to the other room to rest, it is just easier to sit here and

type. I am so through with you Benzo's. You almost have me believing that nobody cares about me, but I know that is not true, but let it go and just

jump in the pit of hell where you came from, sick to my stomach with you.!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[[Be...]]

I am sick of being invisibly sick.

 

I want a white Benzo cane.

 

I want people to give me time to cross the street, to bag my groceries, or how about this—bag the groceries for me! What—are checkers' arms broken these days?

 

How about a little civility out there in the world, huh?

 

To friends and acquaintances: If I say I have chronic health issues, it's because it's the easiest, most uncomplicated answer I can give as to why I haven't been around, involved, etc. So then please, don't ask me to explain myself. If I do, don't cut me short but take seriously what I have to say. I am not an anomaly; more people like me suffer day in and day out. And don't, for the love of Pete, don't be chipper with me.

 

I just want to be seen as a whole person, not a symptom, when a see a specialist. Specialize in seeing ME, and help champion my health! I hate my HMO.

 

Oh yeah, can I be well already?!

 

OK Bennie: I'll make sure to be rude to you. ;)

Yeah, Bets. be sure to kick me in the shins. But beware my cane. 

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Oh yeah, begood....bring it on!

[[Ja...]]

You have all spoken for me. All I have to add is rinse, repeat...

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Well said, Benniejets!

[[Be...]]

How can a small, sterile, lifeless pill do so much damage to the human body?!!!  How?  This is criminal that these pills are legal.  I agree with LifeInChaos.  These Big Pharma murderers need to go to jail.