[Es...] Posted August 28, 2023 Share Posted August 28, 2023 Jimi Hendrix "Burning Of The Midnight Lamp" The morning is dead And the day is too There's nothing left here to meet me But the velvet moon All my loneliness I have felt today It's a little more than enough To make a man throw himself away And I continue to burn the midnight lamp Alone Now the smiling portrait of you Is still hangin' on my frowning wall But it really doesn't, it really doesn't bother me Too much at all It's just the ever falling dust That makes it so hard for me to see That forgotten earring layin' on the floor Facing coldly towards the door And I continue Tomburn the midnight lamp, all alone Whoa, Lord [Guitar solo] Yeah, yeah Lonely, lonely, lonely Loneliness is such a drag So here I sit and pace That same old fireplace Gets ready for the same old explosion Goin' through my mind And soon enough, time will tell About the circus and the wishing well And someone who will buy and sell for me Someone who will toll my bell And I continue to burn the same old lamp, alone Yeah Lightnin', can you hear me callin' you? So lonely Gonna blow my mind Yeah, yeah Lonely, lonely My, my Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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[Es...] Posted August 28, 2023 Share Posted August 28, 2023 On 27/04/2023 at 01:36, [[J...] said: Evanescence “going under” I hope this isn’t too dark. Analyzing and accepting your dark side (which Jung calls the Shadow) in a constructive way is one of the most important steps in the integration of personality❤️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Es...] Posted August 29, 2023 Share Posted August 29, 2023 I caught you knockin' at my cellar doorI love you, baby, can I have some more?Ooh, ooh, the damage doneI hit the city and I lost my bandI watched the needle take another manGone, gone, the damage doneI sing the song because I love the manI know that some of you don't understandMilk-blood to keep from running outI've seen the needle and the damage doneA little part of it in everyoneBut every junkie's like a settin' sun Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Es...] Posted August 29, 2023 Share Posted August 29, 2023 Roger Waters says it's not about drugs. It's really open to interpretation. David Gilmour's solo is one of my favorites, I love it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Es...] Posted August 29, 2023 Share Posted August 29, 2023 For all the adherents of dissolving BZD in vodka as a method of liquid taper. Sorry, I'm strongly against. Too many of my Friends, recovering alcoholics, got themselves killed by booze. Often combined with the BZD and opiates. However, the verse "I get knocked out, but I get up again, you're never going to keep me down" applies directly to the Benzo Monster. I love this song, it's kind of funny, despite all the booze. Reminds me of my uni days, before I met Husband and started hanging around with AA folk. From Songfacts: "To piss" has a different meaning in the UK than in the US - "Pissing the night away" would translate to "Drinking (alcoholic beverages) all night." To be pissed in England is to be drunk, to be pissed in the US is to be angry. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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[Es...] Posted August 30, 2023 Share Posted August 30, 2023 [Jules in the background:]This song was in my head, now it's in my mindCall it, reach it, get some words and get some timingThough I realize, I cannot emphasizeI'll stick around, but just a promise, nothing bindingHowever can't you see, that you're so desperatelyA standing joker like a vocal one-linerInstead of sing-along, this song is monotoneI gotta get some soul, gotta get some feeling.... My name is Paula!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ab...] Posted August 30, 2023 Share Posted August 30, 2023 Last Exit For The Lost - by Fields of the Nephilim 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Lo...] Posted August 31, 2023 Share Posted August 31, 2023 "Despite all my rage, I'm still just a rat in the cage" 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Es...] Posted September 1, 2023 Share Posted September 1, 2023 On 31/08/2023 at 13:28, [[L...] said: "Despite all my rage, I'm still just a rat in the cage" Love The Smashing Pumkins. Billy Corgan is an excellent composer, songwriter and guitar player. James Iha is a great guitar player. D'Arcy on bass just made them complete. Lyrics for not so "perfect" English speakers: "Bullet With Butterfly Wings" (1995) The world is a vampire, sent to drain Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames And what do I get, for my pain? Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game Even though I know - I suppose I'll show All my cool and cold - like old Job Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal But can you fake it, for just one more show? And what do you want? I want to change And what have you got, when you feel the same? Even though I know - I suppose I'll show All my cool and cold - like old JobDespite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Tell me I'm the only one Tell me there's no other one Jesus was the only son, yeah Tell me I'm the chosen one Jesus was the only son for youDespite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Tell me I'm the only one Tell me there's no other one Jesus was the only son for you And I still believe that I cannot be saved And I still believe that I cannot be saved And I still believe that I cannot be saved And I still believe that I cannot be saved Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal But can you fake it, for just one more show? And what do you want? I want to change And what have you got, when you feel the same? Even though I know - I suppose I'll show All my cool and cold - like old Job Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Tell me I'm the only one Tell me there's no other one Jesus was the only son, yeah Tell me I'm the chosen one Jesus was the only son for you Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage And someone will say what is lost can never be saved Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage Tell me I'm the only one Tell me there's no other one Jesus was the only son for you And I still believe that I cannot be saved And I still believe that I cannot be saved And I still believe that I cannot be saved And I still believe that I cannot be saved Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Es...] Posted September 1, 2023 Share Posted September 1, 2023 Another one from The Smashing Pumkins that I like a lot. "And we don't know just where our bones will restTo dust I guessForgotten and absorbed into the earth below" - Billy Corgan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Es...] Posted September 2, 2023 Share Posted September 2, 2023 "This song was allegedly inspired by a letter Michael Stipe wrote, but never sent, to his troubled friend River Phoenix. The actor died of drug-induced heart failure in 1993, at age 23." [source: "Songfacts"] "E-Bow The Letter" (feat. Patti Smith) - 1996 A'look up, what do you see? All of you and all of me Fluorescent and starry Some of them, they surprise The bus ride, I went to write this, 4.00 AM, this letter Fields of poppies, little pearls All the boys and all the girls sweet-toothed Each and every one a little scary I said your name I wore it like a badge of teenage film stars Hash bars, cherry mash and tinfoil tiaras Dreaming of Maria Callas Whoever she is This fame thing, I don't get it I wrap my hand in plastic to try to look through it Maybelline eyes and girl-as-boy moves Can take you far This star thing, I don't get it I'll take you over, there I'll take you over, there Aluminum, tastes like fear Adrenaline, it pulls us near I'll take you over Tastes like fear I'll take you over Will you live to 83? Will you ever welcome me? Will you show me something that nobody else has seen? Smoke it, we'll drink Here comes the flood Anything to thin the blood These corrosives do their magic slowly and sweet Phone, eat it, drink Just another chink Cuts and dents, they catch the light Aluminum, the weakest link I don't want to disappoint you I'm not here to anoint you I would lick your feet But is that the sickest move? I wear my own crown and sadness and sorrow And who'd have thought tomorrow could be so strange? My loss, and here we go again I'll take you over, there I'll take you over, there Aluminum, tastes like fear Adrenaline, it pulls us near I'll take you over It tastes like fear, there I'll take you over A'look up, what do you see? All of you and all of me, fluorescent and starry Some of them, they surprise I can't look it in the eyes Seconal, Spanish fly, absinthe, kerosene Cherry-flavored neck and collar I can smell the sorrow on your breath The sweat, the victory and sorrow The smell of fear, I got it I'll take you over, there I'll take you over, there Aluminum, tastes like fear Adrenaline, it pulls us near I'll take you over It tastes like fear, there I'll take you over Pulls us near, yeah, yeah Tastes like fear... Over, over, over, over Over there Yeah, look over I'll take you there, oh, yeah I'll take you there Oh, over I'll take you there Over, let me I'll take you there... There, baby, yeah Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Be...] Posted September 2, 2023 Author Share Posted September 2, 2023 If tinnitus was a song, it might sound like this... Hocus Pocus - Focus These Dutch Prog-rockers had a minor hit with this nonsensical fact-paced, rock anthem. Thijs van Leer did some crazy vocals here. When tinnitus would hit me at night when it's quiet, I'd think of this song. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Es...] Posted September 2, 2023 Share Posted September 2, 2023 21 minutes ago, [[B...] said: If tinnitus was a song, it might sound like this... Hocus Pocus - Focus These Dutch Prog-rockers had a minor hit with this nonsensical fact-paced, rock anthem. Thijs van Leer did some crazy vocals here. When tinnitus would hit me at night when it's quiet, I'd think of this song. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Be...] Posted September 2, 2023 Author Share Posted September 2, 2023 On 27/08/2023 at 19:51, [[N...] said: Even though I tapered I ended up with some of what's described in this. Cold Turkey describes a bit of my experience with a really intense acute w/d after jumping from 2.75 mg. of diazepam using NAD+ as an assist. I had a taste of what those going through an actual c/t go through. But that is what NAD+ does. The people who go through an actual c/t are some of the strongest. I only endured a fraction of what they go through, and it was very intense at first. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Be...] Posted September 2, 2023 Author Share Posted September 2, 2023 I have really been digging Avi Kaplan (formerly of Petatonix). The best decision he ever made was to leave them and start a solo career doing his original music. This song is where I am now, almost 5 moths since jumping, and almost 4 months post-acute. I am more than half-way there, if I follow the same trajectory previous NAD+ users experienced. I am making strides, turning more corners. I do feel that a change is most definitely on the rise. When those waves hit, high tide or low tide, I'm riding them as I head down the river. Avi Kaplan - Change on the Rise (Official Music Video Without the light Oh the darkness comes Hold through the night The shadows will run Fend off the enemy Sing out the jubilee With all the fire we can breathe We’re singing all day and you can’t tame it High tide or low tide you know Night time or morning time We’re going strong Headed up down the river oh Lord I feel the reveling I feel a change on the rise What good’s a man Who’s lost his soul Can’t take a stand When his flame’s gone cold Fend off the enemy Sing out the jubilee With all the fire we can breathe We’re singing all day and you can’t tame it High tide or low tide you know Night time or morning time We’re going strong Headed up down the river oh Lord I feel the reveling I feel a change on the rise 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Be...] Posted September 2, 2023 Author Share Posted September 2, 2023 I listed to a lot of Avi Kaplan on Youtube while tapering off diazepam. I really felt like I was weighed down by chains. I truly felt hopeless then, like this nightmare would never end. I finally decided I wouldn't take it anymore, so I jumped with help from NAD+. I struggled with my decision, questioned if I made a mistake. Thought about the bright future that lay ahead, but was losing my belief. I decided I wasn't going to take it anymore, I fought my way through, I did not reinstate. I'm not going to be weighed down by the chains I'd been tethered to. It's time to break free from those chains. I will. All of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing downAll of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing downMy mind's a hazeWith all this painAnd I can't change a thingLost in this mazeI can't find a wayI can't break my spirit freeAll of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing downAll of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing downYeah I drift awayTo a brighter placeThat I close my eyes to seeAnd then somedayI think that things will changeBut I'm losing my beliefAll of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing downAll of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing downI'm down on my kneesI need some reliefSome quiet and peaceI've been here beforeTethered and tornI won't take anymoreAll of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing downAll of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing downAll of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing downAll of these chainsWeighing down on meWeighing down Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Be...] Posted September 2, 2023 Author Share Posted September 2, 2023 Sometimes you need something that's an anthem, a rallying cry if you will, Who better than this campy Twisted Sister classic. My life, my song, I'm not going to take it anymore. Bye benzos. Twisted Sister - We're Not Gonna Take It We're not gonna take it No, we ain't gonna take it We're not gonna take it anymore We've got the right to choose, and There ain't no way we'll lose it This is our life, this is our song We'll fight the powers that be, just Don't pick on our destiny, 'cause You don't know us, you don't belong We're not gonna take it No, we ain't gonna take it We're not gonna take it anymore Oh, you're so condescending Your call is never ending We don't want nothin', not a thing from you Your life is trite and jaded Boring and confiscated If that's your best, your best won't do Woah-oh-oh Woah-oh-oh We're right (yeah) We're free (yeah) We'll fight (yeah) You'll see (yeah) Whoa-whoa, we're not gonna take it No, we ain't gonna take it We're not gonna take it anymore We're not gonna take it No, we ain't gonna take it We're not gonna take it anymore No way! Woah-oh-oh Woah-oh-oh We're right (yeah) We're free (yeah) We'll fight (yeah) You'll see (yeah) We're not gonna take it No, we ain't gonna take it We're not gonna take it anymore We're not gonna take it (no!) No, we ain't gonna take it We're not gonna take it anymore (just you try and make us) We're not gonna take it (come on!) No, we ain't gonna take it (you're all worthless and weak) We're not gonna take it anymore (now drop and give me 20 We're not gonna take it (a pledge pin) No, we ain't gonna take it (on your uniform) We're not gonna take it anymore Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Guest [...] Posted September 3, 2023 Share Posted September 3, 2023 Becky had this song and I love it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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