Protracted still very disabled - could use support

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Hi

 

I have lost a lot of support I once had

Which is understandable the longer this goes on

Isolated still with mental and physical symptoms (housebound, cannot tolerate sitting in a car or even walking)

 

Trying to reach out to people more

but it always ends up somehow being triggering and not helping

The professionals (social workers etc) that promise to call or try to help never do

Reaching out to coaches but it doesn’t have the same effect as it used to have

 

I cannot feel hope in my body or mind

Cannot feel connection or love to anything

Have totally lost sense of self

Feeling of running on borrowed time or somehow time is running out

Extremely traumatized by the duration and intensity of this experience

 

This was supposed to turn into a success story, a story of perseverance, healing and strength

But somehow it feels like it has done the opposite for me

I do so much to try to help myself but somehow nothing seems to stick

 

My caretakers are burnt out

Feel like a burden

So much grief and guilt coming up

 

My life feels like a huge big puzzle I am not qualified to resolve and I just think I’m tired and could use support or kind words

Hello,

 

I know how it feels to lose the support you once had, due to this long process.

 

Our relatives or friends have not experienced it in their own skin, it is difficult for them to understand it even if you explain it to them 100 times.

 

Strengthen yourself and support yourself with someone who knows what you are going through, like the members of this forum.

 

You will feel love and connection again.

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Marie and Aira, thank you both so much for your kind responses. I truly truly hope I get to feel that connection one day again before I pass from this life. This world and life is just too beautiful and not to be able to feel it or sense it at any level is truly heartbreaking. I do not understand why this injury has to be so cruel.

 

I am sending you angels healing thoughts back