Fear!!!

[[Li...]]

Thank you! I have seen this thread before I think Pamster showed it to me. It's very good.

 

LiveLife

[[Jo...]]

It lasted about a year for me but unfortunately now I care very little about everything.

[[Be...]]

Recently the chemical anxiety has been replaced by this chemical fear. It comes on anytime of day or night. After I fall asleep at night about an hour goes by and I wake up in a terrible panicky fear. I have to calm myself down and fall back to sleep but then I wake up again and it's fear. It can do this three times a night. Then it gets close to morning and I'm sleeping and fear wakes me up again. Anyone else deal with this kind of fear? It's just too much! I also still have side pain, don't know how much more I can take. This is so depressing . Not sure if it's chemical depression or just depression from the situation but at times it feels like chemical depression too. Still no real windows happening. Except at about 10 p.m. at night it can settle down for a couple of hours and then the fear sets in. Help! I'm 15 1/2 months out now. I'm wondering if this could be the last big thing that needs to heal before I recover.

 

LiveLife

 

I have it and comes on and off . It's mainly due to chemicals I guess but it's very horrible to experience. I am sure it will go with more time as your brain will heal more and more.

[[Ku...]]

        Many on this thread have such great expressions. 

        Keep the faith that things will get BETTER that this is temporary. Muster up

        Strength to get through, I know you will.  My friend

 

                Great big huggs.  Kudos2 

[[Li...]]

Thank you all for your replies and encouragement it means so much to me going through this. Hugs and love to all!

 

LiveLife

[[Ni...]]

Liveliness, so sorry for your suffering. I am exactly the same. I get a couple hours in the evening but other than that its Fear. I also have dpdr. 🙏 it gets better for us. Im 4.5 months off.

[[...]]

Hey Livelife.  How are you doing today?

[[Be...]]

Hi live life... How are you doing today?

[[Hi...]]

I lived that fear experience for a couple of months. It passes. It really does. Just please tell yourself that this is evidence that you are healing. It might sound ridiculous but it is true. I had such extreme terror all the time (except a few hours in the afternoon) and I would fall asleep and jerk awake with terror. I literally did not sleep except these little micro sleeps that made me jerk awake in panic.

 

This has passed for me for the most part but I still have chemical fear or panic surge over me .... just less and less intense. Mostly intrusive thoughts about how active and well I used to be and the thoughts taunt me about how bad I am now and how I will never get better. I say this - anything that makes you feel bad and scared, just chalk it up to the BW experience. It is all a lie.

 

I might search a few posts that helped me and see if I can attach them. but to answer your question, I had this extreme fear and panic and it slowly subsided in intensity. SLOWLy. Most terrifying time of my entire life.

 

I lived this exact same thing.  It gets less and less but takes soooo long

 

Hingie

[[Be...]]

Yep. Sometimes the fear was so so bad it was sheer illogical terror - it was horrific. Hang in there - it gets better.

[[Be...]]

Recently the chemical anxiety has been replaced by this chemical fear. It comes on anytime of day or night. After I fall asleep at night about an hour goes by and I wake up in a terrible panicky fear. I have to calm myself down and fall back to sleep but then I wake up again and it's fear. It can do this three times a night. Then it gets close to morning and I'm sleeping and fear wakes me up again. Anyone else deal with this kind of fear? It's just too much! I also still have side pain, don't know how much more I can take. This is so depressing . Not sure if it's chemical depression or just depression from the situation but at times it feels like chemical depression too. Still no real windows happening. Except at about 10 p.m. at night it can settle down for a couple of hours and then the fear sets in. Help! I'm 15 1/2 months out now. I'm wondering if this could be the last big thing that needs to heal before I recover.

 

LiveLife

Hi livelife

 

I can totally relate to you as I also suffered from same and its horrible waking up again and again with fear and sweating. It's been hard time for me but trust me with time it will lessen. You will get there soon. Please stay strong. 

[[Li...]]

Thank you everyone for your replies. I appreciate it. But yes I am still struggling with this through the night. It also comes on during the day at times but the night can be the worst it's terrifying! Hopefully this will get better soon. Love and hugs to all!

 

LiveLife

[[Be...]]

Thank you everyone for your replies. I appreciate it. But yes I am still struggling with this through the night. It also comes on during the day at times but the night can be the worst it's terrifying! Hopefully this will get better soon. Love and hugs to all!

 

LiveLife

I am sure you will get better soon... Just take one day at a time.