[WT...] Posted May 31, 2014 Share Posted May 31, 2014 3 weeks of use Klonopin.25-.5mg for sleep C/T 1mg Ativan 12 days later and 40 mg of Celexa which I nearly died Since no drugs No history of Mental health, or medications, never smoke or did drugs or drank alcohol Month 1: averaging base line -10% pure hell Hell Brain freeze type pain all over my body very severe flu like symptom sever Sinus pressure 24 hour stomach cramp sever insomnia 1 hour sleep per day lots of pain all over my body suicidal ideation severe fear like I was dying 24/7 body temp changes down to 95-96 F sat in front of heater for the entire month chills tremors Anger Crying spells burning sensation on stomach tingling and something moving under the skin by my shins area vision distortions derealization feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain clay color stools lots of gas and burps heart racing up to 120 bpm brain felt ice cold blood pressure attacks frequent urination was off the chart sore leg muscles hissing noise was so severe nausea sweating like crazy Sleep would rev me up slept 1 hours per day for the entire month spent most of the night pacing the house. Month 2 averaging base line 50% Wave and windows I thought things were getting better all the symptoms of Month 1 but to a lesser degree I though I was going to be healed by month 3, boy I was wrong MSG in yogurt had me pacing for 16 hours of hell no sleep for day and half morning wood would set me off the chart could not have sex hot shower set me off acute wave reacted to everything melatonin for sleep set me in acute 10% brain jolts reaction to antibiotic cream for 3 days of hell sleepy toxic nap made sxs twice as hard feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain Month 3 averaging base line 40% 3 types of Headaches a.Brain Freeze pain like you would eat a large scoop of ice cream b.at times I felt I was hit in the head with a 2x4 and the pain was just like a roller coaster up and down c. sinus pressure with a dull ache in the head Brain freeze pain moved down to my core stomach and spine start having spine and ribcage pain right eye pain Shaky eyes floaters hissing noise got worse severe insomnia anger and rage crying spells got worse sweating and cold brain feeling head pressure could not have sex it would rev me up prostate pain hot shower set me off right side liver pain went to ER was nothing found out I have a kidney cyst 1.3 mm in diameter (great!) Sleepy but unable to take a nap toxic naps made sxs worse feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain Month 4 Off average base line 70% Right eye pain sleeping more in most days still can not get enough sleep 4 hours max head aches brain freeze pain in the body and head anger crying spells turned the corner 10% improvement in SXS a little more tolerable things opened up slightly waves were less intense Shaving cream set me off for 24 hours hell I felt like I was in elevator I was able to nap 2 hours without feeling the toxicity feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain come and go felt like I was in laundry machine after a nap several times. Who needs to go to six flags great American just take Klonopin and wait 4 months free rides Month 5 averaging base line 70% Frustration Stomach pain Right eye pain sleeping more in most days still can not get enough sleep 4-5 hours max head aches brain freeze pain body and head anger except the fire ants attack on the stomach was gone for now deep dark depression took more naps 1-2 hours without getting revved up feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach somewhat stopped Month 6 average base line 60% Right eye pain sleeping more in most days still can not get enough sleep 4 hours max head aches brain freeze pain body and head anger same as Month 5 more head aches insomnia was back sleeping 3 hours now 5 days of bad sleep Hydrogen peroxide set me off dizzy on a small cut on my hand Acute symptoms returns from month and 2 and I get hammered for a few days a month Deep dark depression Month 7 average base line %50 lots of set backs Blood sugar dropped low few times scary! lost total hope in healing frustration right eye pain was less headache was less more anger slept more 4-5 hours some days anger and frustration was severe food sentivity Still May 25th I got slammed with a bad wave went down to 30% metally suicidal idiation and other mental crap but induced not the normal me Depression is deep dark Have no faith that I will ever heal no hope low appetite tremor Month 8 I do not know yet Month 9 Month 10 Month 11 Month 12 Month 13 Month 14 Month 15 Month 16 Month 17 Month 18 Month 19 Month 20 Month 21 Month 22 Month 23 Month 24 Month 25 Month 26 Month 27 Month 28 Month 29 Month 30 Month 31 Month 32 Month 33 Month 34 Month 35 Month 36 may be less or could be worse do not know this is shit is perm could go longer not sure White coat assholes put me in this mess and they do not even recognize this No Help No support I almost lost my job of 15 years who knows I may still ITS SUMMER CAN NOT HAVE A Freaking ICE CREAM BECAUSE IT MIGHT SEND ME TO WAVE GREAT LIFE its so amazing that how fast your life can go from 100 to 0 White coats tried to prescribe more meds Lexapro, Amitriptyline, Ativan, Xanax, Seroquel, Ambien, Welbutrine, lunesta, I am glad I did not take anymore why did I stop K first it did not help me sleep but made things worse rebound insomnia I started seeing spots, I started having jolts in my head heart rate was bouncing between from 140 back to 45. I felt like my heart was going to stop most of the times it was beating so slow 40-45 beats it woke me up all the time 7 ER trips. Spent near $5000 out of pocket to find out what's wrong with me insurance bill was $40000 with two hospital stays for nothing waste of my life WHY??? why me I did 4 tours overseas I served this country and I get a brain damage "THANKS FOR YOUR SERVICE Soldier" Rambo got a better treatment when he came back from Vietnam Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Mo...] Posted May 31, 2014 Share Posted May 31, 2014 W, its shocking what you are going through, just after short term use. i think Klonopin is the biggest beast among all Benzos. i am so angry as well, will never trust a white coat clown again. keep the face ,don't loose hope, we are all unique , so many have recovered and so many have not. who knows ? your recovery might happen soon, i hope it does mate. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ci...] Posted May 31, 2014 Share Posted May 31, 2014 Wow, I can identify with so much of what u said. I CT ambien 9 weeks ago after 2 years at 10mg. I stopped ct because ambiem was the cause of my excruitiating back pain, numbness in limbs and burning. I even had my gallbladder out but the pain got worse. After multiple med tests, MRIs, CT Scans, everything negative, I discovered it was ambien use. Which my PCP prescribed for 2 years at 10mg. I had $10,000 out of pocket medical expenses. My doctors do not believe ambien is the cause of my problems, think I am a psych case, never had anxiety or panic until WDs from ambien. My physical WDs are burning sensations, vibrations, nerve pain, muscle pain, sore back and spine, numbness. I had a great job too for 13 years, on disability now, and have to go to a doctor monthly for my disability approval.....he thinks i am crazy. Will probably lose my job. i thought I would be ok , after 2 weeks and then after 1 month and then 2 months, but now I just don't know! I wish i was as strong as you, I am about to cave thinking maybe valium can get me thru this? ..............I am praying for you, cindy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[am...] Posted May 31, 2014 Share Posted May 31, 2014 WTFK7 - thank you for your service to our country. Get better bud. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[ca...] Posted June 5, 2014 Share Posted June 5, 2014 Hey WTF, I am so sorry this is happening to you. Please try to stay away from the doctors and let your brain heal. It will heal completely, but is going to take time...I wish I knew how much time..I don't. Hang tough soldier...You can and will do this. I promise. Just remember you are healing. I wish I could reach through this computer and help you. Much love and healing, Causing Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[WT...] Posted June 6, 2014 Author Share Posted June 6, 2014 Hey WTF, I am so sorry this is happening to you. Please try to stay away from the doctors and let your brain heal. It will heal completely, but is going to take time...I wish I knew how much time..I don't. Hang tough soldier...You can and will do this. I promise. Just remember you are healing. thanks for your kind words I gave up on this even God Gave up on me 3 weeks of use I should have been healed by now but I guess not I have to accept that this is permanent and I have to live like this for the rest of my life I just do not know how but I guess I figure it out. I wish I could reach through this computer and help you. Much love and healing, Causing Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[WT...] Posted June 6, 2014 Author Share Posted June 6, 2014 3 weeks of use Klonopin.25-.5mg for sleep C/T 1mg Ativan 12 days later and 40 mg of Celexa which I nearly died Since no drugs No history of Mental health, or medications, never smoke or did drugs or drank alcohol Month 1: averaging base line -10% pure hell Hell Brain freeze type pain all over my body very severe flu like symptom sever Sinus pressure 24 hour stomach cramp sever insomnia 1 hour sleep per day lots of pain all over my body suicidal ideation severe fear like I was dying 24/7 body temp changes down to 95-96 F sat in front of heater for the entire month chills tremors Anger Crying spells burning sensation on stomach tingling and something moving under the skin by my shins area vision distortions derealization feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain clay color stools lots of gas and burps heart racing up to 120 bpm brain felt ice cold blood pressure attacks frequent urination was off the chart sore leg muscles hissing noise was so severe nausea sweating like crazy Sleep would rev me up slept 1 hours per day for the entire month spent most of the night pacing the house. Month 2 averaging base line 50% Wave and windows I thought things were getting better all the symptoms of Month 1 but to a lesser degree I though I was going to be healed by month 3, boy I was wrong MSG in yogurt had me pacing for 16 hours of hell no sleep for day and half morning wood would set me off the chart could not have sex hot shower set me off acute wave reacted to everything melatonin for sleep set me in acute 10% brain jolts reaction to antibiotic cream for 3 days of hell sleepy toxic nap made sxs twice as hard feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain Month 3 averaging base line 40% 3 types of Headaches a.Brain Freeze pain like you would eat a large scoop of ice cream b.at times I felt I was hit in the head with a 2x4 and the pain was just like a roller coaster up and down c. sinus pressure with a dull ache in the head Brain freeze pain moved down to my core stomach and spine start having spine and ribcage pain right eye pain Shaky eyes floaters hissing noise got worse severe insomnia anger and rage crying spells got worse sweating and cold brain feeling head pressure could not have sex it would rev me up prostate pain hot shower set me off right side liver pain went to ER was nothing found out I have a kidney cyst 1.3 mm in diameter (great!) Sleepy but unable to take a nap toxic naps made sxs worse feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain Month 4 Off average base line 70% Right eye pain sleeping more in most days still can not get enough sleep 4 hours max head aches brain freeze pain in the body and head anger crying spells turned the corner 10% improvement in SXS a little more tolerable things opened up slightly waves were less intense Shaving cream set me off for 24 hours hell I felt like I was in elevator I was able to nap 2 hours without feeling the toxicity feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain come and go felt like I was in laundry machine after a nap several times. Who needs to go to six flags great American just take Klonopin and wait 4 months free rides Month 5 averaging base line 70% Frustration Stomach pain Right eye pain sleeping more in most days still can not get enough sleep 4-5 hours max head aches brain freeze pain body and head anger except the fire ants attack on the stomach was gone for now deep dark depression took more naps 1-2 hours without getting revved up feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach somewhat stopped Month 6 average base line 60% Right eye pain sleeping more in most days still can not get enough sleep 4 hours max head aches brain freeze pain body and head anger same as Month 5 more head aches insomnia was back sleeping 3 hours now 5 days of bad sleep Hydrogen peroxide set me off dizzy on a small cut on my hand Acute symptoms returns from month and 2 and I get hammered for a few days a month Deep dark depression Month 7 average base line %50 lots of set backs Blood sugar dropped low few times scary! lost total hope in healing frustration right eye pain was less headache was less more anger slept more 4-5 hours some days anger and frustration was severe food sentivity Still May 25th I got slammed with a bad wave went down to 30% metally suicidal idiation and other mental crap but induced not the normal me Depression is deep dark Have no faith that I will ever heal no hope low appetite tremor body vibration during sleep still have vision distortion feeling like I am going to faint yeah after 7 months off not surprise at all I thing I am getting worse instead of getting better Month 8 I do not know yet Month 9 Month 10 Month 11 Month 12 Month 13 Month 14 Month 15 Month 16 Month 17 Month 18 Month 19 Month 20 Month 21 Month 22 Month 23 Month 24 Month 25 Month 26 Month 27 Month 28 Month 29 Month 30 Month 31 Month 32 Month 33 Month 34 Month 35 Month 36 may be less or could be worse do not know this is shit is perm could go longer not sure White coat assholes put me in this mess and they do not even recognize this No Help No support I almost lost my job of 15 years who knows I may still ITS SUMMER CAN NOT HAVE A Freaking ICE CREAM BECAUSE IT MIGHT SEND ME TO WAVE GREAT LIFE its so amazing that how fast your life can go from 100 to 0 White coats tried to prescribe more meds Lexapro, Amitriptyline, Ativan, Xanax, Seroquel, Ambien, Welbutrine, lunesta, I am glad I did not take anymore why did I stop K first it did not help me sleep but made things worse rebound insomnia I started seeing spots, I started having jolts in my head heart rate was bouncing between from 140 back to 45. I felt like my heart was going to stop most of the times it was beating so slow 40-45 beats it woke me up all the time 7 ER trips. Spent near $5000 out of pocket to find out what's wrong with me insurance bill was $40000 with two hospital stays for nothing waste of my life WHY??? why me I did 4 tours overseas I served this country and I get a brain damage "THANKS FOR YOUR SERVICE Soldier" Rambo got a better treatment when he came back from Vietnam Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[WT...] Posted June 14, 2014 Author Share Posted June 14, 2014 3 weeks of use Klonopin.25-.5mg for sleep C/T 1mg Ativan 12 days later and 40 mg of Celexa which I nearly died Since no drugs No history of Mental health, or medications, never smoke or did drugs or drank alcohol Month 1: averaging base line -10% pure hell Hell Brain freeze type pain all over my body very severe flu like symptom sever Sinus pressure 24 hour stomach cramp sever insomnia 1 hour sleep per day lots of pain all over my body suicidal ideation severe fear like I was dying 24/7 body temp changes down to 95-96 F sat in front of heater for the entire month chills tremors Anger Crying spells burning sensation on stomach tingling and something moving under the skin by my shins area vision distortions derealization feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain clay color stools lots of gas and burps heart racing up to 120 bpm brain felt ice cold blood pressure attacks frequent urination was off the chart sore leg muscles hissing noise was so severe nausea sweating like crazy Sleep would rev me up slept 1 hours per day for the entire month spent most of the night pacing the house. Month 2 averaging base line 50% Wave and windows I thought things were getting better all the symptoms of Month 1 but to a lesser degree I though I was going to be healed by month 3, boy I was wrong MSG in yogurt had me pacing for 16 hours of hell no sleep for day and half morning wood would set me off the chart could not have sex hot shower set me off acute wave reacted to everything melatonin for sleep set me in acute 10% brain jolts reaction to antibiotic cream for 3 days of hell sleepy toxic nap made sxs twice as hard feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain Month 3 averaging base line 40% 3 types of Headaches a.Brain Freeze pain like you would eat a large scoop of ice cream b.at times I felt I was hit in the head with a 2x4 and the pain was just like a roller coaster up and down c. sinus pressure with a dull ache in the head Brain freeze pain moved down to my core stomach and spine start having spine and ribcage pain right eye pain Shaky eyes floaters hissing noise got worse severe insomnia anger and rage crying spells got worse sweating and cold brain feeling head pressure could not have sex it would rev me up prostate pain hot shower set me off right side liver pain went to ER was nothing found out I have a kidney cyst 1.3 mm in diameter (great!) Sleepy but unable to take a nap toxic naps made sxs worse feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain Month 4 Off average base line 70% Right eye pain sleeping more in most days still can not get enough sleep 4 hours max head aches brain freeze pain in the body and head anger crying spells turned the corner 10% improvement in SXS a little more tolerable things opened up slightly waves were less intense Shaving cream set me off for 24 hours hell I felt like I was in elevator I was able to nap 2 hours without feeling the toxicity feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach on top of cramping pain come and go felt like I was in laundry machine after a nap several times. Who needs to go to six flags great American just take Klonopin and wait 4 months free rides Month 5 averaging base line 70% Frustration Stomach pain Right eye pain sleeping more in most days still can not get enough sleep 4-5 hours max head aches brain freeze pain body and head anger except the fire ants attack on the stomach was gone for now deep dark depression took more naps 1-2 hours without getting revved up feelings like fire ants were munching on my stomach somewhat stopped Month 6 average base line 60% Right eye pain sleeping more in most days still can not get enough sleep 4 hours max head aches brain freeze pain body and head anger same as Month 5 more head aches insomnia was back sleeping 3 hours now 5 days of bad sleep Hydrogen peroxide set me off dizzy on a small cut on my hand Acute symptoms returns from month and 2 and I get hammered for a few days a month Deep dark depression Month 7 average base line %50 lots of set backs Blood sugar dropped low few times scary! lost total hope in healing frustration right eye pain was less headache was less more anger slept more 4-5 hours some days anger and frustration was severe food sentivity Still May 25th I got slammed with a bad wave went down to 30% metally suicidal idiation and other mental crap but induced not the normal me Depression is deep dark Have no faith that I will ever heal no hope low appetite tremor Month 8 its been 218 days so far 60 % Base line the headache is back right eye pain is back Clicking noises in my brain I feel like my brain is moving in my skull try to jump out of this misery Still have acute symptoms like hopelessness, fear, extreme food sensitivity so far 6 days into my month 8 and I am not feeling any better than month 4 Any idea how to cope with this for the rest of life? Month 9 Month 10 Month 11 Month 12 Month 13 Month 14 Month 15 Month 16 Month 17 Month 18 Month 19 Month 20 Month 21 Month 22 Month 23 Month 24 Month 25 Month 26 Month 27 Month 28 Month 29 Month 30 Month 31 Month 32 Month 33 Month 34 Month 35 Month 36 may be less or could be worse do not know this is shit is perm could go longer not sure White coat assholes put me in this mess and they do not even recognize this No Help No support I almost lost my job of 15 years who knows I may still ITS SUMMER CAN NOT HAVE A Freaking ICE CREAM BECAUSE IT MIGHT SEND ME TO WAVE GREAT LIFE its so amazing that how fast your life can go from 100 to 0 White coats tried to prescribe more meds Lexapro, Amitriptyline, Ativan, Xanax, Seroquel, Ambien, Welbutrine, lunesta, I am glad I did not take anymore why did I stop K first it did not help me sleep but made things worse rebound insomnia I started seeing spots, I started having jolts in my head heart rate was bouncing between from 140 back to 45. I felt like my heart was going to stop most of the times it was beating so slow 40-45 beats it woke me up all the time 7 ER trips. Spent near $5000 out of pocket to find out what's wrong with me insurance bill was $40000 with two hospital stays for nothing waste of my life WHY??? why me I did 4 tours overseas I served this country and I get a brain damage "THANKS FOR YOUR SERVICE Soldier" Rambo got a better treatment when he came back from Vietnam Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[mc...] Posted June 14, 2014 Share Posted June 14, 2014 Woofs comes to mind he's had it very bad. I have learned that as bad as it is it can always be worse. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[WT...] Posted June 15, 2014 Author Share Posted June 15, 2014 Woofs comes to mind he's had it very bad. I have learned that as bad as it is it can always be worse. I do not even think woofs had it this bad Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Wo...] Posted June 15, 2014 Share Posted June 15, 2014 I can assure you Woofs had and still has it this bad!!!! I've gone through all your symptoms and I can relate to everyone and some more not listed. Even though I have so many I only ever talk about the ones that disturb me the most and that's DP DR, but the one that hit home is the morning wood and sex. They both send me to hell, had sex Friday night as I have a fiancée who I love and adore and to me still is the hottest thing on 2 legs and I don't want to loose her but after I was in hell, spent the night been electrocuted, stung with bees, heart palps, severe burning in my limbs, prostate and bladder pain, agitation, feeling like I need to get out of my own skin, disorientation, sweats and my favourite severe head pressure and feeling like I'm lying on a Rocky boat, puked 3 times through the night the anxiety was so bad and my fiancée slept through the lot, when she woke in the morning she was none the wiser of what I had gone through just so we could have sex. I never got out of bed yesterday and I'm still reved up since, if I told anyone normal this they would think I was insane... Last week I had a wet dream and woke up as you do with raging wood and I got a similar after effect but not as intense as Friday night, even sometimes we will have lots of foreplay and I won't follow through if you know what I mean but still what should be pleasure revs me up, I get a similar reaction sometimes after lifting weights indoors, still can't face gym at 19 months off and I lived in gym before this shit happened me.. 2 weeks of Lorazepam for headaches ruined my life and I feel so bad 19 months later I cannot see any way back to who I was, it's stolen my life, used to love a beer with my mates on the weekend, now not 1 beer in 23 months !!! So buddy believe me you have just written my symptom list by writing your own.. My sincere sympathies Woofs Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Wo...] Posted June 15, 2014 Share Posted June 15, 2014 Woofs comes to mind he's had it very bad. I have learned that as bad as it is it can always be worse. Thank you bud Like you I'm now doing this 19 months and I'm still trapped in hell.. Satan likes torturing me and it feels like I'm going to be stuck with him forever!!! I was able to do more my first year off and had a little hope, now I've got none... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[Sa...] Posted June 15, 2014 Share Posted June 15, 2014 Wow! Just a 3 week use, but you said Ativan you also used. Hmmmm. It seems it's getting better each month so far for me. Hope next month you're 95% healed. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
[am...] Posted June 16, 2014 Share Posted June 16, 2014 I can assure you Woofs had and still has it this bad!!!! I've gone through all your symptoms and I can relate to everyone and some more not listed. Even though I have so many I only ever talk about the ones that disturb me the most and that's DP DR, but the one that hit home is the morning wood and sex. They both send me to hell, had sex Friday night as I have a fiancée who I love and adore and to me still is the hottest thing on 2 legs and I don't want to loose her but after I was in hell, spent the night been electrocuted, stung with bees, heart palps, severe burning in my limbs, prostate and bladder pain, agitation, feeling like I need to get out of my own skin, disorientation, sweats and my favourite severe head pressure and feeling like I'm lying on a Rocky boat, puked 3 times through the night the anxiety was so bad and my fiancée slept through the lot, when she woke in the morning she was none the wiser of what I had gone through just so we could have sex. I never got out of bed yesterday and I'm still reved up since, if I told anyone normal this they would think I was insane... Last week I had a wet dream and woke up as you do with raging wood and I got a similar after effect but not as intense as Friday night, even sometimes we will have lots of foreplay and I won't follow through if you know what I mean but still what should be pleasure revs me up, I get a similar reaction sometimes after lifting weights indoors, still can't face gym at 19 months off and I lived in gym before this shit happened me.. 2 weeks of Lorazepam for headaches ruined my life and I feel so bad 19 months later I cannot see any way back to who I was, it's stolen my life, used to love a beer with my mates on the weekend, now not 1 beer in 23 months !!! So buddy believe me you have just written my symptom list by writing your own.. My sincere sympathies Woofs That totally blows Woofs. Knowing how sick I was in the throws of withdrawal it really rocks me to my core to read how sick you still are. I am getting better at 6 months off, but I know I probably have another 6 months to go before I am fully healed. I am really looking forward to reading your future posts about when you start getting windows Bud and it IS going to happen. It does for everyone. Hang in there Woofs, your time is coming and you are way overdue...... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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