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Narratives derived from personal experiences while tapering benzos.  Real life scenarios instilled with satire, humor, and a 'different and interesting way of looking at things.  

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Knackered is Hiding Out with Benzos

Knackered is Hiding Out with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  Shhhhhh… we’ve got to be quiet here.  My wife is hosting a birthday tea for a friend and I’m supposed to be wearing a cloak of invisibility.  It’s just me and the dog in the back room and we’re supposed to keep each other from interrupting the proceedings. I completed my chores this AM; that being sweeping some floors and cleaning the bathroom.  Now that I’m done and the guest is on the scene, here we are.    Being alon

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Knackered has Snaccidents with Benzos

Knackered has Snaccidents with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  While tapering Benzos can put a crimp in your dietary habits. We all enjoy windows from time to time and look for satisfying ways to fill them.  While some things: ie alcohol, recreational drugs, and caffeine can set back much of what we’ve gained, snack binging with a favorite item or two is well within our tolerance limits.     Group sponsored eating contests continue to fill the record books. History books cite the H

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Knackered Smells with Benzos

Knackered Smells with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  Our sense of smell can carry us to distant places and forgotten times.  It can instantly remind us of people we’ve known and things we’ve done, be they good or bad.  It can gross us out or give us a feeling of security and calm.  For what it’s worth, smells and odors are likely the driving forces that lead us to accept or reject a person, place or experience.    The more we use our nose, the stronger it gets.  Today, the sense

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Knackered is Overjoyed with Benzos

Knackered is Overjoyed with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  Home from a summer vacation and the excitement produced by car travel to a remote location and loss of routine, the endless joy of togetherness lives on.    The Knackered household is enmeshed with kith and kin who linger on to celebrate.  The thunder of little feet and squeal of young voices remind him of times previous when the home was abuzz with teenage music, loud exhaust pipes, and telephones ringing everywhere.

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Knackered Sorts Memory with Benzos

Knackered Sorts Memory with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  Memory is defined as the encoding, storage and retrieval in the human mind of past experiences.  Our memories influence our future behavior and imprint our perceptions, attention and learning.  There are numerous aspects of memory that deal with reasoning and recalling.  These all fall into three basic groups:  encoding, storage, and retrieval.    Memory is a topic of great concern here on BB. We all fear, to some degree

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Knackered Seeks Progress with Benzos

Knackered Seeks Progress with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  At the risk of exposing too much of my mindset or personality, I should confess that I read the “Mother Jones Daily.” Don’t get scared now, it is progressive and controversial, but it’s also free.  The whole monthly thing costs and is more than I can afford, but you can subscribe to the daily just by searching it out and pushing “yes.”    This morning’s article freaked me out.  The defeat of one candidate in a recent p

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Knackered is Homeward Bound with Benzos

Knackered is Homeward Bound with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  The traffic is moving at a snail’s pace.  The ambient temperature measures 93 degrees as waves of heat radiate off the pavement.  The Knackered vacation vehicle is heading home.    Including the ferry ride and airport stop to drop off East Coast family, we have been on the road for nearly five hours.  Knackered is a mess, having left one of his medications at home.  The result has left him in a bad wave of cessation

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Knackered’s Plot Thickens with Benzos

Knackered’s Plot Thickens     with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here. Coming to you live from vacation central, the energy level has increased dramatically as illness bares its crafty talons. It appears that Knackered himself has left a key medication behind and is feeling it badly as the week wears on.     To compound matters considerably, his young granddaughter reportedly brought some type of mystery illnes along and spent much of last night spewing the remains of her dinner about her b

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Knackered Wonders with Benzos

Knackered Wonders with               Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  It is late at night, actually early morning, and Knackered cannot sleep. He sits by the window and gazes out, wrapped in his duvet.    He gazes out at the sea beyond, but  it is much too dark to see anything.  He is much at sea himself.      He has strange, intrusive thoughts.  He still wonders how he ever got on the Oral Robert’s Prayer and Share  mailing list?  Oral wanted you to always send money.  

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Knackered Sends Greetings From His Three Hour Tour with Benzos

Knackered Sends Greetings  on His Three Hour Tour with Benzos     Hey there, Knackered here. I write today from a lovely, but isolated island. I am three days into what is our summer family vacation. For you lovely and faithful followers, you’ll recognize this as ‘ my three hour tour’. Getting here took all of Sunday. I’m still feeling the consequences of our departure.     Our entire extended nuclear family is downstairs. My grand daughter is running through the house singing, loud enoug

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Knackered Drains Energy with Benzos

Knackered Drains Energy with Benzos       Hey there, Knackered here.  Personal energy relates to those aspects of us that are subtle and non-physical.  It concerns our sense of aliveness, feelings and emotions.  Our thoughts , memories and and beliefs are all a part of it.  Even though we can’t see any of this stuff, they do exist and are part of how we perceive the world.      Our own energy can be exchanged with others in either a positive or negative sense.  We may be attracted to

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Knackered Fears Self Explosion with Benzos

Knackered Fears Self Explosion with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  This coming Thursday the US of A will celebrate its 228th anniversary of independence from Great Britain.  Due to the fact that our national anthem will be sung millions of times throughout the land and the opening words state: “Oh say can you see….the bombs bursting in air, most of the population will celebrate by blowing something up.    Every village and hamlet will have its own parade, bbq everything imaginab

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Knackered Anticipates a Three Hour Tour with Benzos

Knackered Anticipates a Three Hour Tour with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  ‘Gilligan’s Island’ was a popular sitcom that started in 1964 and ran for 98 episodes until 1967.  I’m sure that it still exists in syndication somewhere on Earth TV.  The show, of course portrays the comedic struggles of a cast off group of vacationers who are stranded on an unnamed island somewhere in the Pacific.  The venture started out as the infamous ‘Three Hour Tour’ that left them shipwrecked and stran

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Knackered Seeks Niceness with Benzos

Knackered Seeks Niceness with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  ‘Niceness’ is a word that’s seldom used in contemporary conversation.  It does, however, show up in the dictionary: niceness- the quality of being nice, pleasantness.  Ex.  ‘Her sheer niceness won her many friends.’  It can be a noun, adjective, or even an adverb.  There appear to be many synonyms used in its place, but I would suspect that the real reason it’s seldom used is that it doesn’t happen much anymore.    An

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Knackered Gains Squirrel Strength with Benzos

Knackered Gains Squirrel Strength with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  Domain:  Eukaryota, Kingdom:  Animalia, Phylum:  Chorodata,  Class:  Mammalia,  Order:  Rodentia, Suborder:  Sciuromorpha, Family:  Sciurdae, Plain language:  The Squirrel.  Our municipal area has thousands of the little critters.  We are also one of the “tree cities” in the country which makes our environment all the more welcoming as an ideal habitat.    While making pest control agencies million dollar ente

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Knackered Sorts the Spin with Benzos

Knackered Sorts the ‘Spin’ with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  My early years taught me that “The truth will set us free”:  John 8:31-59. Truth is defined as the quality or state of being in accordance with fact or reality.  And, it’s supposed to be objective and independent of personal beliefs or opinions. It’s definitely a pro social behavior that is considered a positive personality aspect by psychologists most of the time.  When all this was explained to me for the first time, it

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Knackered's Stuck in the Middle with Benzos

Knackered’s Stuck in the Middle with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  In 1989, Mick Jagger and Keith Richards pounded out the hit song, “Rock and a Hard Place” as part of a new album called “Steel Wheels.” Country singer, Billy Zimmerman, did his own version with different lyrics twenty years later.  Old time rockers will remember the lyrics from the Stones the best: “We’re stuck between a rock and a hard place/ Between a rock and a hard place/ You’d better stop (and) put on a kind fac

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Knackered Meets Toxic People with Benzos

Knackered Meets Toxic People with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  Contemporary science has confirmed the fact that everything is energy.  In fact, we ourselves are simply condensed energy vibrating at a slow speed.  True, we have evolved to the point where we have a brain, nervous system and the stuff that makes a human being, but that doesn’t change the fact that we don’t really have a real boundary that separates us from everything else.    It’s said that our ‘energy vibration’

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Knackered Has Patterns with Benzos

Knackered has Patterns with Benzos      Hey there, Knackered here.  “To every thing there is a season, and a time for every purpose under the heaven”.  Many of you may remember those words from a song that was written first by Pete Seeger in 1959.  The ‘Limeliters’ later picked it up and recycled it for their folk album a few months later.  It was all driven home for keeps by the folk rock group, ‘The Byrds’, in their rock revision in 1965.  While they made it a musical hit that year, th

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Knackered Sorts Suffering with Benzos

Knackered Sorts Suffering with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  Those of us who have signed on as members of the BB support group belong to a sub culture of humanity that no one would volunteer to be a member of.  There are perks, of course:  chatting, supporting and gaining as much or more from those we interact with has to come right up there at the top. We have a front row seat into articles, u tube vignettes, and research that can help us navigate a path through our experience of w

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Knackered Questions Power with Benzos

Knackered Questions Power with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  “Power is defined by psychologists as having two separate aspects.  First, a powerful person is one that has control over their own and other’s resources.  Second, someone can be said to be powerful when she/he has the capacity to influence someone else, and stay uninfluenced by others.  One can exert influence based on expertise, charisma, or by simply being able to grant someone favor.”  (Benjamin Voyer- London School of

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Knackered Reflects on Pride with Benzos

Knackered Reflects on PRIDE with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  If you’ve had wellness of body and mind recently, you may have ventured out and noticed rainbow flags in the air.  The month of June is universally celebrated as PRIDE month.  The flag represents visibility and hope for the LGBTQ+ community.  While it was created in 1978, the current flag is actually a modification of the original. Each of the colors represents a different meaning. Red=Life.  Orange=Healing Yellow= Sunli

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Knackered Sorts Nutrition with Benzos

Knackered Sorts Nutrition with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  When I think back on all the crap I ate growing up, It’s a wonder I survived at all (apologies to Paul Simon). .As the story was told, my father came back from four years of serving as a medic for the navy in the South Pacific.  During that time, the only food he consumed came from cans.  My mother, a farm girl, had consumed tainted meat and wound up with food poisoning at some point.  She was afraid of food that didn’t co

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Knackered Has Frustration with Benzos

Knackered has Frustration with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  Frustration is defined as an emotional response to some type of opposition.  Apparently, there are two types: internal and external.  The internal messes with us when our personal goals are thwarted.  I would imagine there’s a lot of that going on around here right now.  I know, that for me, it’s been pretty much everything that’s happened after my last psych provider appointment.  The visit itself was wonderful.  The NP I

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Knackered Sorts Consciousness with Benzos

Knackered Sorts Consciousness with Benzos    Hey there, Knackered here.  Our dog always wants to go outside and sit by the gate in anticipation of arrivals.  It could be one of us or a guest who’s coming by.  The interesting thing is that it happens up to 30 minutes prior to anyone actually showing up.  Often we forget all about what’s going to happen and will put him out just because he asks.  But, sure enough, though we have put things out of our minds, it’s somehow in the forefront of hi

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