Is this withdrawal or just my anxiety returning? Thoughts?

[[wy...]]

I woke up this morning having another bad wave. I genuinely didn't want to get out of bed, and I ended up calling into work.

 

My question is this: I am extremely irritable and angry today. I am frustrated because I can't believe taking lorazepam for roughly 8 months could be so hard on me. This is the time of year I normally love. The fall weather, Halloween, the holidays around the corner. But, I have absolutely no joy in anything right now. All I feel is frustrated, disappointed, and hopeless. Is this withdrawal?

 

I don't have any major symptoms anymore other than some light sensitivity, some cog fog still and the depression/generalized anxiety. But, I don't have panic attacks, tinnitus, brain zaps, or any of that at all anymore.

I generally just fell ill, like I don't have energy or joy for life at all anymore, and when I do try to work and do things I find myself getting frustrated with my lack of mental clarity. Even watching scary movies, or preparing for the holidays which I normally relish at this time of year, just feels like I am going through the motions now.

 

Can anyone else relate? Is this truly withdrawal?

[[JC...]]

Not sleep well could bring up bad temper ..... etc. as you  mentioned below. Take something simple - tea - and think something happy to calm down.

 

If you are Chinese, I will find a Chinese doctor and they have herb to regulate your body better.

[[wy...]]

I definitely don't sleep as well as I used to. I used to sleep SO soundly. Now, I just toss and turn all night, and I wake up feeling like hell almost daily.

 

When I do have a good night's sleep, it's a miracle.

[Guest [Tu...]]

I think it's all part of withdrawal. Remember, this isn't an illness that heals in a linear fashion. Things pop up and go away unexpectedly, often even after you've been symptom free for a while.

 

Poor sleep is one of the most common complaints I've seen here. In fact, i don't recall anyone who says their sleep has remained normal. I used to sleep very soundly for 7-8 hours. Now, the slightest noise wakes me and I consider myself lucky to get 5 hours of broken sleep each night.

 

As for the mood, well, your brain is undergoing a lot of challenges, so being moody is to be expected. Yesterday was my birthday and I was grumpy most of the day. A brief 30-minute nap in the afternoon helped me clear my thoughts a bit and my mood improved.

 

Overall, you certainly are doing better than me. Hang in there. You are healing!

 

Tucson

 

Me on Day 54 of my final c/t: 

[[li...]]

It's probably mostly withdrawal/health related.

Perhaps being on lorazepam and the withdrawal has affected your life in such a way that you feel and think this way ?

 

There may be some anxiety as well.