Never a window in this 14 month long setback

[[Ne...]]

I'm 9 years post benzo and this is my 6th hellish setback.  I still shake my head and can't believe this.  Can't feel joy or pleasure, constant queasiness, have to force feed - just the thought of food makes me sick, intermittent crying jags, intrusive thoughts, severe depression, never, never feel like myself, severe weakness and mild body pain and sensitive to sound/temperature etc.  I have read a lot of you are in such pain and that breaks my heart.  With all my symptoms, I don't know how I would survive if I was in extensive pain.

Is anyone recovering fine where it comes to joy and pleasure and being able to eat but have other severe symptoms?

[[Be...]]

Neverme, did you lose your appetite?  I did.

[[Ne...]]

Yes, Becks...you and I are on the same page where we have to force feed everyday.  I'm so curious if this is common for those of us protracted.  Just the smell of food makes me sick to my stomach.  Every time I have a setback it is the same and when I heal in between my setbacks, I totally enjoy eating again.