Brain doesn’t work

[[Za...]]

Did somebody have this feeling like brain doesn’t work at all? I have anxiety disorder and I am in a state of high anxiety since March. Some days I feel like under anesthetics, totally disconnected, feeling intoxicated as if I should fall asleep in any moment. I am not drowsy though. The world is distant and my brain doesn’t want to think at all. I don’t feel my emotions, I feel empty, I just watch the world but I am not part of ot. Is this derealization?

Is this some defence mechanism? It is scary. It could also be because my doctor upped my trazodone dose for sleep.

[[Za...]]

I think now it is sleep deprivation, I sleep only every other night, 3 hours, then 6, then 3, then 7… for months. Anybody experienced this?

[[Co...]]

I sleep only very light 3-4 hours for a year now.

[[Za...]]

How do you cope, Coco? You don’t have such problems? Do you have anxiety? My anxiety worsens everything.

[[Co...]]

I honestly don't know how I still exist. I have been living in my room for 8 months. I have a black brain. Like physically I feel the dead neurons. I am grateful I stopped vomiting every day though. Cause that and sleep together was not survivable.

 

I never had anxiety before in my life but I have now yes. I haven't had a moment of being relaxed and pain free since I started taking this in October. Very sad but it made me sick immediately and I got destroyed on day 5. I should have stopped day 1 but this works so long I barely realized.

[[Za...]]

I also feel the dead brain. I hope it will come back. But what scares me is the long way to go yet.

[[Co...]]

Yes it all scares me. I genuinely just sought therapy and what was happening to me and it was cortisone. What mismanagement.