please no more, i need to see the light, 40 days out still getting worse

[[Jo...]]

the body pain, i can't take it. its in my arms, legs, chest, back. its like a constant wave of pain, a burning ache that doesn't stop. like razors rubbing on my bones/nerves.

 

I don't know how to stop it, it makes me want to scream and tense up.

 

i also am so disconneted from reality, none of this feel real, the world seems fake, i seem fake, there is no meaning to life, this is a dream, none of it matters. i forget who my family is, i forget who i am, who i was, there is a constant buzzing cloud inside my brain, an intense pressure, it feels like the blood isn't going to my brain.

 

please, how can this be benzos. i only used 8 pills over 2 weeks, it's been 40 days and i'm only getting worse.

[[lo...]]

there might be some meds which can help you. gabapentin or CBD. if its only body pain.

since you have been short on it. physical sx are easier to manage

[[Jo...]]

theres a large mental aspect of it, i feel like i've lost my mind. the world doesn't seem real, i dont seem real, i dont see the point in life because it's all just like a dream, i'm so disconnected from the reality around me.

 

my doc prescribed me gabapentin today, i gonna fill it and just keep it close incase of emergency or if i cant take it anymore.

 

nothing will help the mental issues though i'm assuming, i'm so fuckin gone mentally.

[[lo...]]

gabapentin is pretty safe, it is not a benzo. but its not a magic pill. it takes like 10% away, and sometimes that helps, but if you in hell that doesn't do much altough it might help with sleep a bit.

I see you used benzo in the past, if things become absolute hell reinstating is an option, altough not advisable, it is an option, followed by a slow taper

[[fi...]]

I hope your symptoms improve soon, Jonny. I tried crossing over to Valium but my body could not take it.  It actually caused Cervical Dystonia (the very reason I was put on Klonopin to begin with).