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I hope I am not the only one but I always feel I'm going to die, always feels a seziere is coming on or I'm going to have a heart attack.  This non linear fashion of benzo recovery is absolutely scary.  The feelings that go through my brain are absolutely insane
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I hope I am not the only one but I always feel I'm going to die, always feels a seziere is coming on or I'm going to have a heart attack.  This non linear fashion of benzo recovery is absolutely scary.  The feelings that go through my brain are absolutely insane

 

I have felt this way ,almost every single mother flipping day since I jumped off benzos. Sometimes it gets to me . As long as I can tell myself it's just withdrawel I am fine. You had your heart checked and all of that so you know you aren't actually going to die. Just remind yourself that it is just your brain recovering . This is scary but there are so many people who have been through this horror show before us and eventually we will be one of those people .

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I hope I am not the only one but I always feel I'm going to die, always feels a seziere is coming on or I'm going to have a heart attack.  This non linear fashion of benzo recovery is absolutely scary.  The feelings that go through my brain are absolutely insane

 

I have felt this way ,almost every single mother flipping day since I jumped off benzos. Sometimes it gets to me . As long as I can tell myself it's just withdrawel I am fine. You had your heart checked and all of that so you know you aren't actually going to die. Just remind yourself that it is just your brain recovering . This is scary but there are so many people who have been through this horror show before us and eventually we will be one of those people .

 

Still waiting for my heart results but I get what you are saying.  It is just truly creepy.  It's amazing no matter how many times that wave feeling that goes through your head i always prepare for the worst.

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Hey,  as crazy as it may sound,  these feelings are often quite "normal"  to have during withdrawal.  Our anxiety levels are off the charts and our bodies are on high alert because their beloved benzos are no longer available to them.  During my second month off I genuinely felt as if I was nearing a heart attack,  so much so that I got a load of tests done just to be sure -  they all came back clear (...obviously)  and that's when I realized just how horrible and shockingly real post-withdrawal anxiety can feel. 

 

These thoughts of death and doom are never easy to shun off and I have to constantly remind myself that there is nothing physically wrong with me -  which is never simple because each time I think that "this is it -  this is possibly the last thing I'll ever feel". 

 

This may sound clichéd but breathing exercises and and a thorough understanding of how anxiety works on the body has definitely helped me shed some of these dreadful feelings - at four months off I feel that I am miles ahead of where I was not top long ago -  and I still have a long way to go but at least now I know for sure that things will always improve as my recovery progresses. 

 

Hope you feel better soon and remember what they say "pay attention to what you're saying in your head because you're always listening to it"  (or something similar to that :P )

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You are not alone. I have those feelings too. I'm 4 months out I feel I have improved alot but I know that its a long way ahead...but Yes, I feel i'm going to die, heart attack, etc. I got my EKG test...normal..bp, bw, CT scan al came normal...but its hard when those thoughts got into our mind...i think mindfulness meditation on youtube how to stop overthinking....it does help me,,,,

 

 

hope u feel better :thumbsup:

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O yes I have it all the time. From morning till night. I think for me the reason is DP/DR that is making me so scared. :o

 

Exactly, I agree.  The detachment of reality is rediculous/.... with anxety on top of it is brutal

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I know exactly what you are saying, I have this feeling so much and it is really scary. Shortly after my detox I was not aware of benzo WD and I went around to doctors and specialists have tests done. There was nothing wrong with me.  I have lived so long (ten months now) with this scary symptom and I hope I can wake up soon and it will be gone. I hope the same for you.
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I have felt that way all the time of my taper: 5 years long.

It stopped in month 2 after getting off anything.

 

This is definitly only fear, not "reality". After 5 years I got used to that feeling and then it left.

For me it was helpful to have sarcastic thoughts towards that feeling at the end like" okey, when I break down right here at the mall than I am the problem of other people here, - I am out then, congrats" or "okey, then let me die here, I don't care, I will continue to watch TV while dying".. and with the time, that feeling wasn't so strong as before any more. On good days at the end of the taper, I even "played" with that feeling, I learned how to create it, like to call an enemy and then I did things just to show the feeling that it wasn't important to me at all >:D

 

Its defiantly the worst feeling of WD - but it will leave you!! Sending you a hug!

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Thanks for all your replies, atleast my feelings are legit.  Super scary.  I think it is the non linear fashion of W/D.  Y ajust never know whats next.
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I hope I am not the only one but I always feel I'm going to die, always feels a seziere is coming on or I'm going to have a heart attack.  This non linear fashion of benzo recovery is absolutely scary.  The feelings that go through my brain are absolutely insane

 

You're body is working hard on regulating the battered receptors, during this time it's normal to have this insane feeling of anxiety. You're NOT dying, not even close. The body is out of sync, and emotions are all over the place, this will go away as the body heals. I had this every single day for months and months. It will completely go away with time buddy.

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