Ouch. Rescue dose.

[[mi...]]

As many of you know I have tapered down to zero Valium nine days ago.

Today the pain simply got too bad.

 

I took a rescue dose of 15mg Oxazepam.

 

I chose this instead of Valium since it has a short half life and no metabolism being left behind.

 

I will try and continue my zero Benzo tomorrow, but am scared I have ruined a lot.

 

I guess this pain will come back with a vengeance, but at least I have a little relief so maybe I can endure more tomorrow. 

 

Please cheere me up and don't be to hard on me, I know I've been stupid (again)

[[of...]]

I'm sorry your in pain! I hope you feel better!

[[Da...]]

Hi miriedl, that is definitely not the end of the world. It already happened so don't beat yourself up over it.

[[mi...]]

Not a good day today either so i jumped right in to the mud a second day in a row.

 

I have not been sleeping at all tonight as the needles and hurt kept me awake all night.

 

I felt myself sliding into areas where i haven't been for years and were i don't want to go again.

I have had some very bad experiences in a clinic, and these seem to pop up in my mind to scare me when i get tired.

 

Hoping for a good nights sleep tonight, and i'll see if i continue my taper tomorrow.

 

Michael

[[ne...]]

Rooting for you!

[[Ch...]]

I am sorry for your suffering, just know you are not alone and you will recover.  Some days I still search hard for even the smallest indicator of progress.