You all know how it feels

[[in...]]

I'm in a wave at 8 months out. This wave isn't nearly as bad as I'm used to but I just don't feel grateful or motivated to take care of myself like I did the past few months. If anything, I'm feeling the best I've felt this whole time but I just don't want to do anything. I wish I could disappear until this is over. All I've done this week is go to work and come home, listen to the radio and lay on the floor until I go to bed. I feel like someone has dimmed my brain. I'm hungry all the time and eating poorly. I'm having low self esteem and feel like I don't have a good enough excuse to be acting like this. I feel like a loser. I don't know what to do anymore. it feels too hard to be proactive.

[[fe...]]

I'm sorry u feel this way. I've been unemployed for years because of benzos. U should be proud that u are working, and free of benzos.

I felt a lot of relief at 11-12 mos out..

[[Ch...]]

This sounds very familiar...and it will pass.  In the meantime you might jumpstart getting out of it by getting up tomorrow morning and making yourself have a good breakfast...eating poorly will exacerbate depression and blahs.  Call a friend, even if you don't want to, or go for a walk.  Sounds trite, but it works. 

[[Ia...]]

Get up off the floor and think about what it felt like when you were in the acute stage