Poem

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Too many whens & too many whys

Nobody's special, nobody's gifted

I'm just me, warped & twisted

Sleeping awake & choking on a dream

Listening loudly to a silent scream

Call my mind, the number's unlisted

Lost  so warped & twisted

On my knees, alive but dead

Look at the invisible blood I've bled

I'm not gone, my mind has drifted

Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted

Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow

Today's just yesterday's tomorrow

The sun died out, the ashes sifted

I'm here, warped & twisted

 

 

[[Co...]]

Hello AprilAnn,

 

You've been a member for a few weeks now, and the above is your first post. I was just wondering how you are doing and if you'd like to post a bit about yourself.

 

Colin.

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My doctor is helping me tapering off xanax. I don't feel like interacting. I just would like to read  here and maybe write some poems to comfort.  If that's okay.

[[Co...]]

Hi April,

 

Yes, of course, that's absolutely fine. Please do continue to post poems or anything else that helps you.

 

Take care.

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Stupid little pills, given to the masses

Why'd we trust those stupid little asses

Pills that alter minds, and cause a loss of heart

Mothers little helpers, can tear your world apart

 

Perception becomes distortion, reality obscure

Close your mind, it's all just fine, the means outweigh the cure

When you gaze into the mirror, who is it, you reflect

Mothers little helper, a way of sheer neglect.

 

You feeling jittery, increase your dose

yet not to much, you'll be comatose

Yes, less is more, and more is less

Mothers little helpers, do not confess

 

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Hi Aprilann

 

I realize that your poem is not supposed to be funny but God did I laugh at the stupid little asses line!

 

Thank you so much for writing the truth in an amazing way!

 

Lori

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Tapering down 

sleep is a struggle

Yet stronger in other ways

Being free will be worth

the trouble

closer and closer each day

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I've always been to soft, let people take and take

Don't know how to be hard, besides it's just to late

I met a guy who gives, who never hesitates

Wrapped safely in his arms, no chill can penetrate

 

He helped me through the worst, from darkness into light

Brings me hope, I'm not alone, prepares me to take flight

Boundaries disrespected, used and falsely blamed

I've learned that abusers disrespect, and then they call you names

 

Little pills that tell big lies, only to betray you in the end

Turn your head, and walk away, they never were your friend.

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Hello,

 

I have never gotten into reading poetry but like reading what you've wrote. 

 

I'm glad it's therapeutic for you, and Welcome.

 

Maggie

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some awesome poetry.

 

 

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Sleepless nights and endless tremor

Foggy thoughts you can't remember

Mindless chatter and untold dangers

Strange attachments to faceless strangers

 

Anxious nervous, strung out, wired

Disconnected, wasted, tired

Fear, apprehension, panic, tension

Freaking out deserves a mention

 

Cutting, dusting, milk titration

Jumping, dropping, discontinuation 

Half life, tolerance, inter dose withdrawals

Payback is hell, climbing up the wall.

 

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He held me hostage by drug disinhibition

Forged the friendship by manipulation

His story in pieces, his world obscure

Should have listened to Jesse, should

have taken the cure

 

How would I have known, I'd go out of my way

To find myself lost in a maze of his say

His abandonment issues, my disrespected borders

How could I find peace with all that disorder

 

He left me his anger, his rage, and his blame

Yet, light chases darkness, forgiveness the same

Where time has no minutes, and silence no name.

 

[[si...]]

april - your poetry kicks butt and i mean that in a good way - keep posting please.

[[ap...]]

 

 

Whats with these shadows

Upon my wall,

The fear of night

When darkness calls

 

The restless hours

Awake, but dreaming,

My mind is tired

Exhausted, screaming

 

I fall to pieces

All to easy,

I'm sort of  floating

It's just so creepy

 

Why does my room

Look strange and different,

Familiar faces

Cold and distance

 

Chemical compounds

Biological calamity,

Starving receptors

Drug induced insanity

 

Irrational fears

Unnecessary pain,

Waterless tears

A paper doll in the rain.

 

[[si...]]

very beautiful - although painful - i don't think that there is anyone here who could not understand and relate.

 

thank you april.