Twitch from Memphis

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Hello everyone

 

I thank you ahead of time for your support and stories.  Just reading about your trials and tribulations helps Thanks

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Hi, Twitch,

 

Glad to have you here at BenzoBuddies!

 

I see from your sig line that you are not too far along into a c/t. How are you doing?

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Nice to meet you.You'll get the support that you need.

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Hi Twitch,

 

Welcome to BenzoBuddies.

 

How's it going?

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Today was pretty decent.  I was able to work and not freak out.  I have been forcing myself to work through most of this, unless I was bawling and clawing the carpet.  My heart constantly is thundering in my chest but not as bad as it was.  I guess Im healing?  Im on 10 mg Lexapro and today is my 11th day on it  I know it is just masking the WD symptoms but hopefully my brain is able to heal in the process.  The scariest part of all of this is when I didnt know what was going on with me.  I thought I had a stroke or heart problems or both.  The info I have gathered here had been priceless.  I wish I had known what was going on I would have attempted a taper but I feel I missed that window as some symptoms got worse some better I was afraid to reinstate.  Now here I am and thank all of you for the golden info and support you have all given.  No one else understand what Im going through and I see how they couldnt if they havent been there twitching like me.

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Hi Twitch and welcome

 

Just to let you know I was 100% convinced I had a brain tumor!  We know what your up against here.

 

Cheers

 

Lori

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I totally thought I had a stroke.  I would be upset when the results would come back and they would say everythings normal your fine, Its just in your head.  Here take some Xanax, go on a vacation or something else insulting.  My cardiologist replied to me, after I my heart tests came back normal and I explained i suspected I was in Xanax withdrawl, "Maybe, but I am not a psycologist and you will have to get info from them, Have a good day".  He then proceded to escort me to the door and I was in the hall.  I was In a mother of a panic attack. the whole ordeal especially our closing conversation had ramped me up to near fainting, I could barely see, heart pounding breathing fast and shallow.  I was in the hallway and had no idea where I was and how to get out, Oh God!  It took about 20 min of roaming first the halls then the parking lot to find my truck.  I sat there in disbelief and anger at myself and what I had done to myself.  after a while I cleared enough to get home.  This sickness sucks.  You know it.  From my reading you guys have had similar occurances.

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I felt really confused whilst on benzos, and the confusion just became worse during the withdrawal. It will pass, it is just part of the process for some us. Try to put out of your mind the behaviour of the doctor, and instead concentrate on the fact that your test results indicate no serious medical problem. Of course I'm not meaning to belittle what you are experiencing right now, but it will pass.

 

Take care, Twitch.

 

Colin.

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Hi Twitch

 

I have sat in emergency rooms for more hours than I care to admit.  Someone finally clued in though but then they gave me a male psychiatrist, without going into details, this was the wrong thing to do.  So I calmly told the guy anything I could to get out of the room with him after which I proceeded to my car and drove around completely out of it until I ran out of gas. 

 

And I did go on vacation!  A cruise which was my very first vacation outside of Canada and which I spent the entire thing in my cabin because I was so damn wigged out.  I would only venture out of my cabin for a few hours at a time.  Complete waste of money!!

 

I finally did get to see a female psychiatrist, but only after my hubby took me to emerg and made them!  It is so hard that in our time of most need we have to fight to get help!

 

Hope things are better today for you.

 

Lori

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Thank you guys for your support.  Today is a real foggy day.  In my head and outside.  There is a haze hanging in the air.  At first I thoughtit was just me until I heard the weatherman on the radio say that a forest fire in Georgia had caused the smoke to drift over to Memphis.  I was at a relief thinking "Man this is gonna be a weird synptom, eveything looks/feels foggy".