Khlonopin usage(.5mg) 3 years. 3 a week until a month ago to .5 every day.

[[Yo...]]

Ive never made a post like this before in my life, so I apologize in advanced if this may seem all over the place.

 

I got on khlonopin about 3 years ago for situational anxiety because of a few major incidents in life that really shook my reality. It allowed me to feel not so tense in social situations. It allowed me to have free flowing thoughts with others effortlessly. I got 30 .5mg every month and took 3 a week. Recently it became 1 every day. I'm not sure if it's stress, lack of sleep, lack of socializing. I can feel the shifts in my mentality and my body. I know its not good and its a slippery slope, but this has helped me though at times.

 

Currently I wait to take the pill like clock work. I wait for a certain time of the day, to "feel normal" so I can interact with people. I feel like a prisoner to myself sometimes. I want to travel and not have to worry about me thinking about my next dose and a withdrawl. I should only use it like i had been before in dire situations. CBD and CBN helps me, but at large doses. It just can get pretty expensive. Microdosing psilocybin has also helped to an extent. That has helped the most, but once I take that next klonopin, it feels like it wasn't worth it or something? I know psilocybin makes new serotonin pathways in the brain, but khonopin may kill what it may have repaired?

 

Anyways, im not sure if I'm allowed to mention that kind of stuff, but its a summary of what I'm going through alone.

 

I moved out to the mountains, not knowing anyone so I don't have much social support with knowledge to help guide me through this rough patch.

 

Any advice would be much appreciated.

[[Br...]]

Hello Yogabbagabba28 and Welcome to BenzoBuddies!  We're glad you joined us!

 

I'm sorry you're dealing with a rough patch.  You've come to the right place for good information as well as support from others who know what this process is like.  What you find here can help you figure out what you want your next steps to be. 

 

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