Mornings From Hell, Crying, Exhaustiion

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Oh man, I am just so exhausted. I don't know how far out I am because I kindled and had setbacks a couple years ago, but this wave I'm currently in is so bad you guys. Between everything in the news and what's going on in the world the mornings from hell are back in full force along with the weird sores in my mouth, waking up at 4am sweating from anxiety with looping panic thoughts, and I'm getting these random crying spells on and off throughout the day. Every time I think I can't cry anymore, another wave hits and completely drains me. I'm used to forcing myself out of bed when this happens, but each time it feels a little harder to do. I'm grateful for some of the more debilitating mental symptoms to be gone, but I just want to sleep until next year or something. I don't know what the point of this post is. I guess I just needed to vent because I wish so desperately that I could be healed by now because I've been in WD longer than I was on benzos and as you all know it truly feels like this will never end sometimes. There is such a sense of loneliness and helplessness that comes with this whole process.

[[bo...]]

Are you still taking Remeron?

[[al...]]

Not taking Remeron anymore. It helped with the symptoms when they were more severe and also helped with sleep during the insomnia bouts, but then it seemed to stop doing anything so I stopped taking it. I should update my signature.

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Totally normal. I am 4.5 years off and still not okay - however - most of the things you've described have lightened considerably. I'm not in the same place I was three years ago at all. Things get much easier. Also. It's a good idea not to expose yourself to the news too often. Stress triggers worsening of symptoms.

You will get better.