What are you doing right now?

[[ba...]]

its 630am i started cookin around 545 to boil corn cobs im going to bake brownies soon so they can be ready for dad to take to work ill make some pasta too for him he has to work today even though he was a E5 sergeant in the Army in the past . i think ill barbecue later today my boyfriend's mom gave us some money to buy some meat to cook i'll let him decide what he wants it would be nice if it was some sirloin steaks 

[[Te...]]

HUH??? Me??? Well, i'm a wondering...that's all...just a wondering...

tex

[[sn...]]

Me too Tex.  Oh...Just waiting for Tex to make the coffee.

[[Te...]]

Me too Tex.  Oh...Just waiting for Tex to make the coffee.

 

THANKS! Snowy...NOW I know what I'm wondering...(do I tell snowy, again, how to push the silver button thingie to get coffee, or do I have to serve him??? He didn't tip last time...hmmmmmm...)

[[sn...]]

Now if I could just figure out how to "hotwire" that coffee pot. Does that coffee pot have one of those chips in it, so you can just push the button without a key? Just wondering

[[sn...]]

Oh, and hotwiring Tex's coffee pot, at the moment.

[[Te...]]

No chip...i just use a screwdriver and a hammer...the button actually doesn't do anything...it's kinda like one of those big, fake "PROPERTY PROTECTED BY XYZEUS SECURITY SERVICES" signs...for show and to deter honest folks from straying...thieves just take the machine AND the sign...

[[sn...]]

No chip...i just use a screwdriver and a hammer...the button actually doesn't do anything...it's kinda like one of those big, fake "PROPERTY PROTECTED BY XYZEUS SECURITY SERVICES" signs...for show and to deter honest folks from straying...thieves just take the machine AND the sign...

There's a heck of alotta truth to that Tex.

[[cr...]]

Tomorrow is my 1 year. I've made a lot of relative progress but I feel I'm nowhere near where I expected myself to be. Some s/x vanished, some diminished, others have gotten worse.

Contemplating what is the right thing to consume, do, think about on a daily basis. Overwhelmed with the amount of options on how to continue with w/d. Regimental life seems like the right way to go.

 

Peace.

[[ba...]]

i did alot today i started cookin beans in crockpot at 1am before bed  i used them to cook a nice breakfast refried beans & bacon in a taco then i exercised ran for 30 minutes at 645am  ! right now i just finished washing 2 vehicles my pickup and my parents lincoln navigator phew im tired its hot outside + theres some mosquitos im fixin to hop in the shower then im having a nappy, goodnight

[[va...]]

i have a buch of books on spirituality, grief recovery, forgiveness etc that i took from local library

 

but i can't read it, i just keep reading BB posts....

damn this zombie life

[[ba...]]

wow i slept really good earlier i took a shower this early afternoon i put my hiar in a ponytail after i dried it partially then i went to bed i slept 5 hours . its 11:15pm now i think ill wash some dishes and sweep / mop i need to clean the stove too ill do that after the dishes

 

[[Mo...]]

Tomorrow is my 1 year. I've made a lot of relative progress but I feel I'm nowhere near where I expected myself to be. Some s/x vanished, some diminished, others have gotten worse.

Contemplating what is the right thing to consume, do, think about on a daily basis. Overwhelmed with the amount of options on how to continue with w/d. Regimental life seems like the right way to go.

 

Peace.

 

Congratulation, stay strong please.....wd can be no walk in the

park, like a cat and mouse game. way to go till you get there.....

[[va...]]

trying to make through tonight with this song

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gzDeYqPg5A

 

[[va...]]

OMG i entered into my roberto cavilli jeans

that i got when i was 19

 

its xxs or 32-34 european size

 

 

i will  abuse them now 

 

 

 

v

 

p.s. Oky I'm out to the city its sunny and I'm having an easier day

so i will pretend that i am in the window

 

 

 

 

[[va...]]

I think today was my EASIEST DAY ever

I'm actually smiling while i am typing it!!!!!!!!

my brother today was like:

did you drink today , you are so happy and crazy?!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[[Mo...]]

I think today was my EASIEST DAY ever

I'm actually smiling while i am typing it!!!!!!!!

my brother today was like:

did you drink today , you are so happy and crazy?!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I'm smiling E, good to see your happy post.

[[va...]]

I think today was my EASIEST DAY ever

I'm actually smiling while i am typing it!!!!!!!!

my brother today was like:

did you drink today , you are so happy and crazy?!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I'm smiling E, good to see your happy post.

 

thanks M

I'm still smiling as well

 

 

you know in my taper i wasn't THIS connected to this world......

i could only dream about Days like today

 

and defo i could have easily /Smelled / my husband's deceit

 

 

 

 

never mind, God knows better who belongs in  my life....

[[va...]]

i do not wanna fall asleep and lose my easier day :idiot: :idiot:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

on a day like today i feel that ONE day there can be a HUGE MIRACLE

collapsing onto me and i know that i will find myself crying like Baby from all this happiness...

[[ba...]]

hi  vasilisa, im so happy you had a good day today , last night i slept 8 hours nonstop , its been 3 months or more since i slept this much strangely i went to my family's ranch yesterday and i was sleeping on a futon bed

[[be...]]

Obsessively watching Discovery ID... and getting more paranoid that someone is gonna kill me hahaha... wishing I was motivated to do something and wondering why I've been sleeping 12 hours a night for the past couple of weeks???

[[va...]]

okey guys, my comp is dying ...its 1:00 am

i think i will call a night ...

Fridays are my fav days

 

so...lets try to make it till 8th june

 

v

[[va...]]

its 2 am

i will try to pass out...

and then try to survive tomorrow day

[[va...]]

so if people never recover from benzo (polydrugging) wd

they should stick to the protracted board or

what?

[[Mo...]]

so if people never recover from benzo (polydrugging) wd

they should stick to the protracted board or

what?

 

Why never recover ? long term cold turkey, poly drugging too.. have a big chance ending up

as Protracted, like myself.  Can take some years to recover , but from what

I've seen it does happen.....

Hey E, stay positive...those bad vibes shouldn't be on your menu....

they taste awful.

 

I don't stick to the Protracted board, I'm all over the place.....

 

Last station will be the success story section.....

I'm sure I will see you there one day...hopefully soon, right ?