Can’t trust feelings or judgement

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I cannot trust my mind or feelings. My emotions are all warped and tell me all sorts of lies about the world as does my mind. I will get a horrible feeling and my mind will flash up a memory of when I felt like that before and tell me I’ll feel like that forever once offf benzos. If I look closer at the memory I don’t think I actually did feel like that at all! It’s just my mind trying to trick me into staying on benzos. I catastrophise about the past and the future. My social anxiety is worse than it’s ever been and I become convinced I’ll never be comfortable with people ever again. Anyone else get this stuff?

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4 minutes ago, [[T...] said:

I cannot trust my mind or feelings. My emotions are all warped and tell me all sorts of lies about the world as does my mind. I will get a horrible feeling and my mind will flash up a memory of when I felt like that before and tell me I’ll feel like that forever once offf benzos. If I look closer at the memory I don’t think I actually did feel like that at all! It’s just my mind trying to trick me into staying on benzos. I catastrophise about the past and the future. My social anxiety is worse than it’s ever been and I become convinced I’ll never be comfortable with people ever again. Anyone else get this stuff?

@[Th...]I completely understand what you're saying about catastrophizing and social anxiety. Sometimes, I don't even trust myself with the words I speak and find myself apologizing for things I didn’t really mean. It's not that they are hurtful, but my emotions sometimes take control, and I speak from a place of emotion rather than reality. I'm making a conscious effort, little by little, to stay present in my own life and tackle these issues because living this way isn’t sustainable, and we only have one chance at life. I acknowledge that this is something I’m dealing with, that it's temporary, and that I will eventually heal. It's a work in progress and I have to accept that because if I don't, I'm fighting it and that doesn't help get us to where we need to go with what we are dealing with.