6 weeks post drop Feeling numb Scrupulosity OCD

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Hi All, 

 

I joined about a year ago and I haven't really been active in a while. I did a slow taper of Valium with my psychiatrist until 5/22/24 when I finally jumped. I was 30mg of Valium daily for 18 years. I had severe DTs and physical withdrawal symptoms for the first 2-3 weeks with a nice level week of feeling almost normal. Then the last 2.5 weeks have been atrocious mentally. I've never had rumination so severe, or the thoughts I'm experiencing, it's been constant. Every day, I just started taking natural supplements to see if they will assist. I also feel as if my emotions are backwards. Things I should feel happy about I feel almost jealous or discontent about, I should feel sad but I almost feel excited. Anyone else struggle with this? If so how long did it last for you? Any help is appreciated. Thanks!