Finding hope at lower doses. Doom and gloom is not inevitable.

[[Ma...]]

I see lots of posts about people having struggles at lower doses, and I know that is all very valid.  However, as I look back on my taper so far, I started last July at 1.0 mg Clonazepam which I’d been on for almost 9 years.  I’ve had two really rough patches so far: 1.  my initial cut which was too big (1.0–>.75) and 2. trying a liquid taper last fall that was also too fast, leading me to updose back to 0.5 and hold for 2 months.  I’ve now gone slowly back down to .35 the last couple months and while I’ve had some bad days, I can honestly say I’m doing better on my taper now than I was when I started this process.  To me, this means healing is starting to take place.  MOST days I can get up, go to the gym, accomplish things, be out in public, etc. I know there will be rough times ahead, possibly worse than anything I’ve experienced to this point, but I need to hold onto this moment and remember it when those days come.  I/we are all getting better even when it doesn’t feel that way.  Maybe someone struggling right now needed to hear this so I just wanted to share.  

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[[dj...]]

That’s good news!

[[Kr...]]

@[Ma...] that’s very good. What age group are you? I guess I’m asking because it does factor into how our bodies respond to this process.

[[Ma...]]

49 minutes ago, [[K...] said:

What age group are you?

I’m 50 years old.   Got put on benzos when I was 40. 

[[bu...]]

so happy for you, how slow have you been going now? i am doing milk taper and i take 1ml a day out but now i have found even that too fast and have to go even slower : 0

[[Ma...]]

3 hours ago, [[b...] said:

so happy for you, how slow have you been going now? i am doing milk taper and i take 1ml a day out but now i have found even that too fast and have to go even slower : 0

I’m trying to cut something every 10 days or so but playing it by ear based on how I feel.  I’m generally aiming for 5-7% every 10-14 days.  I’ve taken smaller cuts and waited longer though.  Since February 1 I’ve gone from .5 to .35 which for me anyway seems like a reasonable pace.  

[[bu...]]

3 hours ago, [[M...] said:

I’m trying to cut something every 10 days or so but playing it by ear based on how I feel.  I’m generally aiming for 5-7% every 10-14 days.  I’ve taken smaller cuts and waited longer though.  Since February 1 I’ve gone from .5 to .35 which for me anyway seems like a reasonable pace.  

are you doing anything to help you, like brain retraining or therapy ect?

[[Ma...]]

Therapy, gym, trying to keep busy, anything that’ll distract me from this.