Fewer gaba receptors / low GABA to begin with

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I had some messages of people who were scared of my posts , 

I have severe muscle issues

i am weak my body feels as it is injected with lead and some moments I have episodes where it feels like literally all my nerves turn into cement , and after that in stone. 
my tightening if muscles goes together with HUGE muscle swelling, I went from petit girl to bulldozer style 

 

BUT:

 

I have had isssues with low gaba forever, I had 60x antibiotics in my life , I have deficiencies , and I had thyroid issues.

i believe my history is what made me very much at risk for becoming So sick from benzo that people cannot even imagine in their worst nightmare . 
There are a few who are like me too. 
i am sure we all have history of auto immune antibiotics and probably neurodiverse brains. 
 

but , without that horrible z drug I would now live my life. It is all because of this poison , for sure but if you were 100% normal before you won’t get this bad I think, 

you will have chance of getting very bad but not like this I think