So this is kindling!

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Kindling - Benzodiazepine Information Coalition
https://www.benzoinfo.com/kindling/

So I guess I'm kindling? I had no idea what that really was til I read this and it stinks to know this! And then to paradoxical reaction. 

I have to get this stuff out of my system. If there's a way to get off without too much more damage please chime in.

I'm down to 3/4mg split into 4 doses, or 0.24 per dose. Actual weight of pill. Every dose is miserable. Ashton says to go slow but how do u when it's hurting your brain so bad. The longer i put it in my brain the worse damage its doubt it seems to me. 

When a doctor sees me that's all they see, jerking, spasms, distress and they don't see the person. Unless they think I'm an addict. 

Please tell me there's something I can do.  I've gotten worse the longer I taper, never stable.  I just go a couple weeks and cut because i went 2 months, didn't stabilize so I cut then. 

My brain needs time to heal! 

I took my 11am dose, nightmare, now the 5pm dose was worse which usually isn't as bad. So I'm pushing thru this but I really need a solution to this soon. Can't take anything else, I have a reaction to everything. Even supplements and vit, food. There comes a time when you have to weigh everything and take a look around. Idk, I need help to make an informed decision. 

Maybe it my new doctor but I figure he'll just want me to go to detox.

Er last night told me to get off of them when I Said i have a reaction to them and they were hurting me, I almost laughed out load! Really?

Anyway, any thought please 

Ns