Dystonia so severe internal pressure

[[Ma...]]

Weak body like as if everything is injected with lead

spasms

balloonimg : every body part of me feels like a hollow thing fillled with pressure.

 

desire to beat my head against the wall from insanity. So much pain. 
zereo improvement

kindling with zopiclone, paradoxal reaction. 
 

Feel like giving up this started 2 years ago after cold turkey, I am now 13 months off zero improvements with the physical torture 

[[Wi...]]

I am so sorry! I wish we all didn't have to suffer. And I hope some relief will go our way soon. 

[[Ma...]]

Ty I know u are in hell too…

 

I pray this ends soon…

akathasia is also quite bad here for weeks it’s there on and off and past days much more help😭

Jumping out of my skin want to rip my heart out it is terrible .

[[Wi...]]

So sorry I know it’s terrible! I just want us to start healing. I don’t even dream about being 100% fine but about starting to improve. How does it manifest to you? 

[[Ma...]]

Of I heal 50% I am able to maybe walk to a grocery store. That would be enough for me. As long as I am out of this hell. Can’t walk sit or stand due to my dystonic horrible muscles turning into stone. If the intensity leaves up to 50% I could at least go walking again some days … plus weakness which is so severe I lay down 90% of the day. 
i think atm I have covid maybe this create worsening, 

I think to manifest for us is to at least be a little functional. That’s already a big dream that seems impossible. 
 

we have to keep going and fight for our precious children …

I somewhere read u had a two month window! 
you will heal dear please don’t give up 

♥️