Valium

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Did anyone else have a bad reaction to valium? I’m trying to get off of ativan i’ve been on for 4 weeks tomorrow i was started at 2 mg at night and went up and down with dosing throughout the time i’ve been on, tried one day of taking nothing thought i was going to die, had been cutting my own pills carelessly so who knows what dosages i had actually been taking but have been on 1.5 for over a week now. i at first was only taking it at night but after trying to CT i then experience interdose withdrawals and started taking it 3 times a day and going back down to 1.5. I tried to replace my night time dose of .5 mg with 5 mg of valium and it was horrific. I had a paradoxical reaction i was restless and rapid heart and felt so strange and after finally falling asleep for 3 hours i fell into really scary sleep paralysis and felt really really bad the next morning even worse than usual. i took my morning dose of .5 mg of ativan and was so out of it it was crazy and scary. i reallt feel like i have dementia off these things. i’m only 23. that day which was yesterday i had two migraines with aura where i was almost vomiting and felt like i was dying i had to take aspirin.  i resumed my ativan .5 mg and slept for hours thank god. i woke up with still a slight headache and took more aspirin and still have a slight headache. i feel really sick and awful since taking valium. i thought that was supposed to be the gold standard for getting off short acting benzos? i will never take it again after what i experience even just trying to slowly incorporate it. i just don’t understand why my body reacted so horrible to it all i could find was that i might not be able to metabolize ir or it caused histamine issues? I have so many horrible symptoms im afraid ive wrecked my brain for good after everything ive done i just want off asap