Waves & Windows

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Is the stabilization process one where after you experience a window and think you might be close to getting better, only to be thrust back into what you feel is the very beginning all over again, sometimes hours or days apart. The other night my GI symptoms went away, I felt hope, I cuddled with my ten year old in my bed and fell asleep. I woke up and wanted to do a family movie the next night. Then my gut bloated, I freaked out, I have mild akathisia and I want to lose it. How can you feel almost healed and then back at the beginning. How is that stabilizing? It feels like you are just trading good for bad and cancelling it all out. I figure I should at least go back to maybe not as bad as before or something. Like I get the back and forth but when do the lows get less low. This is a mind screw.