When do the feelings come back

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Im so sad that I cannot feel anymore well I think I cant feel anymore for anyone this makes me grieve so badly.  Does anyone else feel nothing at all but sadness.

 

Lizzy

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Lizzy, i guess we all get our emotions back in time... right now mine is anger but you are real sweet and you are caring and you will feel again.

 

I am off to bed i am so tired tonight... you stay cool as you can, you are doing great and in a safe place... keep on.

 

Hugs,

 

Oscar

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Goodnight Sweet Oscar

 

sleep tight and let go of that anger it eats us away.

 

Hugs Lizzyxx

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Hi Lizzy,

 

I dont know you other than to be able to relate to what you are going through. I got teary when I read your post.

 

I don't know when the feelings come back but I keep reminding myself that "there is no withdrawal symptom that is as bad as being on a benzo". Remembering this does help me. I think that our brain will allow us to feel the feelings you are longing for when it no longer needs the energy to focus on basic functioning.

 

Have you had a window or some windows yet? All you need is one so you can hang on to the fact that you know the old you is still in there.    Even if you havent had a window yet, the old you is still in there and you will feel feelings again......   HTH, mandala

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Im so sad that I cannot feel anymore well I think I cant feel anymore for anyone this makes me grieve so badly.  Does anyone else feel nothing at all but sadness.

 

Lizzy

Wish I knew Lizzy!  All I can feel now is fear/anxiety/anger/sadness, very few positives 

I hope it happens soon for us and all of those suffering here!

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MMIR,

I empathize. From being on a benzo for so long, I felt like I was a robot going along in the world. Now that I am half way done withdrawing all I feel is rage, immense sadness,hopelessness and despair, terrible fear and anxiety over everything. Without the GABA receptors working, I feel all negative emotions a thousand times fold...Any negative thing that happens or I see and read about, I feel out of control.....I wish I could say that about positive emotions and feel happy and joyful. Maybe someday.

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Lizzy,

 

I was so sad for many years, with no hope. Then I went to a clinic and got off the medications. I knew that I would feel better. It gave me hope, after having no hope for so long.  I have been very positive all along this hell of WD. I wish that I could pass it along.

 

I know that it feels endless and pointless at times, maybe constantly.

 

We will heal, that is all I can say. Maybe it comes down to faith. Have faith that you will heal. You see that others have healed, and you will too. It just takes so long, it can be maddening.

 

Come, let us walk the wheel together.....

 

good healing, fair winds

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I'm down to 2.5 mg Valium now after i started tapering from 10mg mid february.  My feelings aren't back either!!! I don't know if it's depression from childhood or this benzo.

2.5 mg isn't much?!?! 

 

I don't really feel any differently.  I have the occasional body vibration, and some muscle pain but that's all the w/d I see.  Is 2.5 enough to keep you numb??? 

 

I dont' know if i'll feel any better after I get off it.  I haven't so far. 

 

 

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hey guys

 

such warm messages of support.  Im nearly off so Im down to 1mg tonight so will see how it goes.  I cant wait to jump ship I have felt dreadful on benzos neither alive nor dead just somewhere in between.  The lower the dose the better I feel.  However I still have a long path to go.  Ghostship nice post needed to hear that.  Mandala thanks so much for your warm wishes.  Hoping the old me is still in there somewhere.  hey spring how r u going havent heard from you in a whle.

 

Dancinshoes hold tight things will be all right in the end.  Ghostship i know but its all my other symptoms from the previous meds im worried about permanent damage.  Why do i cry all the time?  its called grief.  Grief about what I have lost its dreadful.  And what you guys have lost as well.

 

Dancinshoes do you think that is it just feeling all the negative emotions ten fold through this.  I was crying the day i got put on benzos and its never let up.  Im losing hope. 

 

Tell me how valium made you feel because I have felt dreadful on all benzos it truly is horrible.

 

Keep me posted with how you are all going

 

Lizzy

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Lizzy, You have a phrase under you avatar. That is the truth.

 

What have you lost? What have we all lost. The thing they find with people that live a long time, is that they have to deal with loss. I guess they are saying that these people can deal with loss and keep going.

 

I hate to sound like I am too happy, because I am not. I am just glad for what I have at this point. I just wanted to die for years. Now I dont want to die. I feel pretty good, for  the most part. I am grateful for what I have. My wife is asleep, my kitties are playing on the floor, I am typing to you, it is 2 am, and it is 77 degrees in  the house and I am sweating.  This is all so special to me.

 

I know it is about coping, and coping mechanisms. That is psych stuff.  Maybe it comes to the glass is half full story. I can grieve for what I have lost, or never will have, or I can be happy for what I have and will have.  It comes down to attitude. How we can bend our attitude is a mystery.

 

I dont judge anyone, I dont know why I have been so positive either. I am just glad that I am. I wanted to die for years. So every day alive is a gift to me. I dont worry that I am not doing all those things that i wanted to do anymore.

 

There are a lot of sayings about being grateful for what we have. I wont repeat any here.

 

I compare myself to myself.

 

I hope you can find that strength to be more positive and thrive.

 

good healing, fair winds

 

 

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Ghostship

 

Why are you not in bed fast asleep you must be tired.  I appreciate you taking the time to write to me means a lot.  Yes must remember when I put that phrase under the avatar so long ago.  I love how you are grateful for what you have.  Im so trapped in my own mind at the moment its hard to think of anything else but how I was one year ago away on a beautiful holiday and how I am today.  I guess its just the grief.  How r those kitties doing and why are not they asleep.  Im glad you are alive and no longer wanting to die that is a great thing.

 

Im really trying to pull myself out of this hole and focus on the big picture.  All will be good in the end.

 

I am strong and a survivor as you are.  Thanks Ghostship

 

Lizzy