What Happened After You Jumped?

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Hi,

 

Can anyone share their experience in the few months following jumping? It is much appreciated.

 

Thanks,

Adam

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I have had days of terrible, immobilizing anxiety. Nothing like the anxiety that I was originally put on the benzo's for in the first place. Its attached to nothing and its really physical. As if someone turned up the anxiety meter in my brain to 12 out of 10 at times.

 

But I have had some brief glimpses of feeling WELL in the 25 days since I left Valium. I mean WELL, like feeling like myself.

 

My appetite has gone down. My sleep is helped by Remeron, which allows me to get 5-6hours.

 

I've tried to start a business. I was forced to leave a job because of debilitating depression WHICH WAS CAUSED BY BENZO WITHDRAWAL DURING MY TAPER.

 

All in all, it all seems gloom and doom. But everyone is different so there is no way to tell you what is going to happen.

 

I CAN tell you not to read into what others on this site say in terms of time to recover. I think "everyone takes an average of 6 months" or "I've been suffering 2 years" should NOT WORRY YOU. There is no way to tell what is going to happen.

 

IMHO, I would never deny that anyone is suffering. But I take them with a grain of salt and so should you. Be strong. Stand up. Fight each day. You will get through and survive.

 

If you can beat this, you can beat ANYTHING in your life.

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Check your PM, Flea.

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I went into detox ha and on a rapid valium taper.  The first few months when I got I out were tough, more specifically, the first couple weeks I did not go back to work and took as much care of myself as I could since my symptoms varied each day, I remember a lot of sweating, dizziness, confusion, fog, cravings, vertigo the first few weeks (but had this during my taper too) lots of mini anxiety and panic attacks but somehow I made it through the first three months which for me were the most brutal. After that much improved. 

For me I had to jump, my doctor explained to me that my body hit a plateau with the tapering and that's i began to feel myself slipping off the plan, he also explained that since the drugs are constantly in our system, our body continously craves the original dose we try to taper from hence why mentally it gets more and more difficult for me to have been tapering especially when I was getting low, I was having rage fits because my brain was screaming for more benzos, this somehow made sense to me so I'm saying this because I had to get off asap, and when I did I noticed that certain symptoms from the w/d of tapering actually lessoned a great deal right off the bat especially the emotional lulls and even the anxiety. Anyway, everyone finds their way through this process there's no right or wrong good or bad, you'll figure it out, the process will direct you on the best way to keep going..

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Thanks Guys. This is all so terrible but interesting to hear the different experiences. There is definately a consensus of sorts that tapering can get brutal at the much lower doses - this happened to me as well. I ended my last dose a few days early because it was just excruciating. Now I am walking headache today. Oh well.