Flea fights on!

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Well, no window again today, but, after yesterday I can claim a few victories. Made myself do stuff all day, and felt a little better for it. Those who read and responded to yesterdays post thank you so much! One of the worst days of my life. Well, screw it it is done with so I will forget it. I am on vacation all week so I ran 5 miles, assembled a bicycle for my GF I had bought her that has been sitting in my dining roon for likwe a week, got a haircut, went to the library, yes I am an uneducated idiot who loves to read. Also played wii sports for 1 hour and made dinner. So withdrawal can bite me! I felt like poop most of the time but I lived my life today. Oh, and one of the librarians hit on me, bonus! Wait till I do get a window, all hell is going to break loose! Thank you for the help yesterday, I am sure I will need it again. I have an appointment with a balance center near Orchard Park(Near Bills stadium) on the 19th. I have this awful dizzyness and my right ear is losing hearing and the tinnitus is wicked and I am concerned this may not be benzo related as I had this to some degree before the drug so I want to check it out. Anyone read John Sanford? Stay strong everyone!

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Hey there Flea,

Sounds as though you've had a busy day!  Staying busy does have it's bonuses.  You got hit on by the librarian?  My, oh my, you don't only fight on, but you rock Flea! 

 

Yesterday is the easiest day we all have and thankfully it's over lol, I had a rough day yesterday, as well.

 

John Sanford?  Does he write horror stories?  Have read a quite few books by a guy with the last name Sanford, but can't remember his first name.  Used to read Stephen King, but can't even handle watching CNN right now.  I'm a true pansy these days.  That's alright though.  Once we get past all of this, I truly intend to briefly turn around and give all of this withdrawal crap the middle finger, I'll give it one for you, too ...just for good measure lol.

 

Take care and hoping a window swings by your way soon enough.

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Awesome!! good post

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I'm so proud of you flea. Hope your tomorrow is as good as your today. You're strong

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Nice job Flea!

 

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Good to hear that you are pushing through this. We are truly warriors.

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well done, keep up the fight! 

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Good luck Flea.  Stay strong!

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Nice post! Good on you Flea for finding the strength. 

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Good going Flea, glad you got your fighting spirit back. 

 

Oscar

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Great news Flea,

You sound so much more positive here....long may this continue for you !

Debbie 

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happy for you

yesterday was my worst day

weak and gi issues all day

[[Be...]]

Very inspiring, Flea. Thank you.

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Love to see you fighting Flea! We have to stay united in our approach to overcome this. With the right attitude and the effort your making to not be a victim of this nastiness is truly inspiring. I myself went to a theme park the other day and rode a rollercoast. That was a HUGE step for me as with this infliction I have been terrified. I did have to get the ride attendants to open the chest portion because I did start to freak out a bit but I rode on! If anyone is familiar with Manta at Sea Word you know just how intense it is. But I survived and found joy in things I use to do. I thought, if I die so be it. That's how I am going to handle everyday. Glad to see you making strides buddy!

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Thanks everyone! I love you guys, you are awesome. Just did a 45 min run, I do not know how I woke up with that adrenalin crap I hate. Then I felt pretty dizzy which starts the anxiety and round and round we go. Well despite what my body told me I ran and now feel slightly better. Thank god for this vacation, this is as bad as it has been, that incedent two days ago really scared me. I need a good window but if not I will keep fighting, no choice really.

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hi Flea,

Good to see youre still fighting, cant give in.

I hear ya on the dizziness thing. its awful.

Keep on fighting dont give in to this.

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I myself went to a theme park the other day and rode a rollercoast. That was a HUGE step for me as with this infliction I have been terrified. I did have to get the ride attendants to open the chest portion because I did start to freak out a bit but I rode on! If anyone is familiar with Manta at Sea Word you know just how intense it is. But I survived and found joy in things I use to do. I thought, if I die so be it. That's how I am going to handle everyday. Glad to see you making strides buddy!

 

Leo, I am really impressed!  I know the Manta well, have ridden it many times myself but not lately.  I can't imaging getting on that monster right now.  Good for you Leo.  Great attitude.  You are inspiring me.

 

MiniMinnie

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Aww thanks Mini! Never thought of myself as someone who inspires! Thanks for making me feel special today

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Way to go Flea!  I got up not feeling well this morning and read your "BITE ME" post and really felt inspired.  I have just finished a brisk 45 min walk and then worked with my weights and did a thorough stretching routine.  I love to read too and have determined to go to the library later today and find some good reads.  Maybe I'll get lucky too and some handsome patron will hit on me and make my day.  Your girlfriend is lucky, I just LOVE a man who can use a wrench. You rock Flea.  Your attitude will get you where you want to be and help other strugglers like me to keep setting em up and knocking em down.

 

MiniMinnie

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Love to see you fighting Flea! We have to stay united in our approach to overcome this. With the right attitude and the effort your making to not be a victim of this nastiness is truly inspiring. I myself went to a theme park the other day and rode a rollercoast. That was a HUGE step for me as with this infliction I have been terrified. I did have to get the ride attendants to open the chest portion because I did start to freak out a bit but I rode on! If anyone is familiar with Manta at Sea Word you know just how intense it is. But I survived and found joy in things I use to do. I thought, if I die so be it. That's how I am going to handle everyday. Glad to see you making strides buddy!

 

i lived in kissimmee so use to go to seaworld alot

use to ride kracken

then moved to clearwater

bush bush bush miss it

 

use to ride all of them Shrieka is the bomb

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love this thread

 

Just remember if you over-reach or overdo and you get a bad spell and have to take some down time, it's not the end of the world, as long as you keep that positive and fighting attitude and do what you can, and do what you need to do to take care of yourself. 

 

Too much overstimulation can cause a bad wave, but too much isolation and not-doing-things can make us depressed, so find your balance and fight for it!  Withdrawal is NOT going to beat us!

 

I love the spirit of all of you, so inspiring!

 

--Rhi

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Hi everyone! The fight continues, I think I lost a round yesterday, pretty crappy, but I did work out, but the diizzies hit and I hit the couch for probably 9 hours. God, this pisses me off! I want to do stuff. Today started off bad, with the morning adrenaline crap I hate, sat in a chair till 11 AM (I go to bed at one due to my work schedule) and woke up at 5 sweaty and crazy, went back for three more hours of broken crappy sleep with weird dreams, in 1 dream I was having withdrawal symptoms( it was like Freddy Krueger was messing with me). Then when I sat in the chair all these weird random non-sense crap was running through my head. As someone once said about quarterback Terry Bradshaw" A million dollar body with a ten cent brain)! That is me right now. At least that DR crap lightened up after I ran and lifted weights. Felt like I was running in a cartoon or something. I am dreading and fearful of going back to work Monday but the Flea has to eat. At least it is just me and 1 other guy at work at the new site, I love that part of it, we can super-size our breaks and he is a smoker so there are lots of breaks. I have my coffe maker and microwave there so it has all the comforts of home. If I felt good I would not mind going there at all, but now I get all anxious and stuff, it really bites. Well enough rambling. One more thing, please do not fight on the posts, it ruins them for those of us looking for positive help, everyone deserves our non-judgemental help. Oh and how come when I hit spell check my post disappears, bear in mind I do not even own a cell phone and it took me 17 days to type this.

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Flea ..LOL@ 17 days to type, thank you for the smile!

It stinks you're having all those thoughts flooding your mind.  Random junk just droning on ..know how that feels.  I always try to think of funny or pleasant stuff but when that hits hard ..it's almost like my mind is not my own.  That sounds crazy but I don't know any other way to explain it.  Dizzy, yep, sometimes walking sideways or it feels like it anyway.  I've tried to not pay it any attention but that is impossible.  Looks as though been heavy some heavy liquor at 7 a.m.

The funky dreams are weird, huh?  A few of mine have been of stuff I could have never imagined and woke scared as all get out.  Very vivid.  It sucks the big one, that's a fact!  All of this is the pits but at least we have our BB's and know that we aren't losing it and not alone.  Honestly, if I was going through this mess and didn't know that other folks have the same symptoms, I would be down at the mental institution, ringing the doorbell (not really ringing the door bell, more like beating the door down).  It seems as though your symptoms and mine are hand in hand and I'm not even done with this taper.  Good grief, if this gets any better (worse) I will be sitting out on my front porch throwing rocks at passing cars, or chasing them down the road 

Best wishes to you, keep fighting, it will get better ...it has to.