am anxiety/weakness/chain smoking anyone?

[[al...]]

my anxiety seems to be the worse in the am

which causes me to light up

don't wanna smoke ,want to quit in the worse way

but know i must beat this first

so i use xtra filter

 

i smoke 10 cig per day

5 between 5am and 800 am

when i wake up and realize im still in this nightmare

then comes thoughts of days gone by

mds that do nothing

md that started this nightmare

even though i told him i drank beer and smoked weed

today is day 10 off

i heard wd symtoms peak at 10 days off

hoping this is true

and maybe i get a break

this is hard for us

but harder for people who share our lives like my wife

who is our only source of support

and feels she can't even take a sick day off

then i get depressed because i love her

and hate what our joyous active lives

havew become

i had my first grandhild born in june 11

lives in philadelphia i have not seen him yet

my mentor and good friend for 32 yrs passed away

was unable to attend funeral

through this i am trying to help my mom

who has health issues

which is taxing because i'm her ride

everywhere

and i worry about her

[[He...]]

Alan,

 

Hear all you say, the whole of life does not stop because we are in wd. It is hard is it not? Seems near impossible at times.

 

I stopped smoking today (We will see though) I had been off tobacco for five years or more when I got ill because I took crazy contaminated Source Naturals food supplements, gave me an autoimmune condition, as it affected cns I was panicking among many other things and docs in their wisdom gave me diazepam. Also went back on smokes, big time, wouldn't like to keep a record of how many I have smoked in last 18 months. Probably around 40 a day on average. But I decided today enough is enough, bought patches and am now four hours smoke free. See how it goes, can't guarantee, but it feels like a little step in the right direction.

 

You will get back those busy and happy days my friend, it's only a matter of time. You are on the only road there is to get there, and right on schedule. 

 

[[al...]]

Alan,

 

Hear all you say, the whole of life does not stop because we are in wd. It is hard is it not? Seems near impossible at times.

 

I stopped smoking today (We will see though) I had been off tobacco for five years or more when I got ill because I took crazy contaminated Source Naturals food supplements, gave me an autoimmune condition, as it affected cns I was panicking among many other things and docs in their wisdom gave me diazepam. Also went back on smokes, big time, wouldn't like to keep a record of how many I have smoked in last 18 months. Probably around 40 a day on average. But I decided today enough is enough, bought patches and am now four hours smoke free. See how it goes, can't guarantee, but it feels like a little step in the right direction.

 

You will get back those busy and happy days my friend, it's only a matter of time. You are on the only road there is to get there, and right on schedule. 

 

thanks

fyi did you know tramadol is additive as well like oxycodone

which i had to withdraw from last year after surgery

thats what put me back on benzo

[[He...]]

Hi Alan,

 

Yeah, know about the Tramadol, lot of pain though, and I figure from what I hear once I kick the Diazepam out that Tramadol will be a good bit easier to get off than this beast