9 months free.....Need friends & support

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I'm struggling right now......having a lot of w/d symptoms. I've been healing pretty well right a long, I've had some pretty good windows and I've gotten off all of my psych meds but I feel like I'm slipping backwards.

 

I haven't been able to find any support from people at my stage of this process or people who've been where I am now.

 

If you have been where I am or know of someone who has, I would love to hear from you. I'm feeling so discouraged and lost. I wish I knew if what I was experiencing was normal for this process.

 

Lou

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I just want to say congratulations on your accomplishmensts so far, I am sorry you are struggling, that must be so discouraging for you to have come so far I am sure others who are at your stage will offer encouraging words, keep going, you can make it 

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I just want to say congratulations on your accomplishmensts so far, I am sorry you are struggling, that must be so discouraging for you to have come so far I am sure others who are at your stage will offer encouraging words, keep going, you can make it 

Thanks Ladygrace12........I'm just trying to hold on right now.

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Hi Lou...I will be 9 months on April 11th..I'm in a very bad way right now.I did nothing different to make things worse.As a matter of fact ,I feel like I'm the sicker than anyone else thats at the 8th month here.If you would like to talk please feel free to pm me!My spelling is very bad and sometimes I write things backwards..Lol But I'm still here for you..I read everyones post that 7-10 months out.So you all are my benzo family..I'm gonna go back now and reread your posts..Hang in there with me..I really need help with this!I'm really a lone with this,unless you count my 4 little doggies and kitten.They dont help much.Proboly make things worse!

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Bump!

 

Lou I hope you get the support you need. So sorry. 

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Hi Lou!

 

Congrats on getting off the benzos. I know how hard it is to cope when you have windows and waves - and then waves again.  It doesn't make logical sense because it's almost impossible for the human brain to comprehend that healing in this case is non-linear. 

 

I know you probably know that and are just sick of hearing and reading it.  But hang in there, because you are nearing that point where SO many start to turn the last big corner - and then things are just done.  You're so close and you've come so far.  THese are 9 months you never have to live through again. 

 

You have many people here to be friends with.   Have you checked out the 7-12 month thread on this board?  These are all folks you could connect with and are in the exact same boat.  I know they would love to have you.

 

:)Parker

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Hi there,

 

I am approaching 9 months later this month and have been doing relatively well up until this week - where I have now fallen back into a wave of sorts (I believe brought on by health stress).  I am back to feeling a bit restless, extremely weepy, mildly depressed, and pains EVERYWHERE.  Shooting nerve pain, burning pain, you name it.  I spent an hour straight this afternoon sobbing about just about anything I thought of...and had to wash my face to clear the tears before picking my 8 year old daughter from school.  My mind is in a fog but racing at the same time.  My mood changes from happy to full of doom and gloom in just seconds. 

 

I had all of this happen at the 6 month mark and have improved greatly since...and now I've read of a few forum members who are struggling in a wave around the 10 month mark...so I think that's just the way things are right now for us...and I truly believe we are going to come out of it.  It's just SO hard to believe it when we are in the thick of it. 

 

Our central nervous systems are SO highly sensitive for quite awhile once off of the meds, so it takes time to heal...and during those months of healing it is VERY normal to have some dramatic ups and downs.  Eventually the ups and downs should become less dramatic and then diminish all together.  Or for others they get hit w/ a final "wow" of a wave only to find they are almost completely healed after.  Just hang in there.  I'm toughing it out right now just like you and I know it is SO difficult.  I can fully empathize. 

 

We will get there - like all the others who ARE healed.  I'm thinking of you and I know this will end like any other wave.

 

All my best, hugs and healing,

Schatje

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Hi Lou...I will be 9 months on April 11th..I'm in a very bad way right now.I did nothing different to make things worse.As a matter of fact ,I feel like I'm the sicker than anyone else thats at the 8th month here.If you would like to talk please feel free to pm me!My spelling is very bad and sometimes I write things backwards..Lol But I'm still here for you..I read everyones post that 7-10 months out.So you all are my benzo family..I'm gonna go back now and reread your posts..Hang in there with me..I really need help with this!I'm really a lone with this,unless you count my 4 little doggies and kitten.They dont help much.Proboly make things worse!

Hi Elsie,

 

I had a lot of bad w/d in my 7th month and then again near the end of my 8th month. I even went inpatient to the wrong type of place for 5 days.  I've made probably too many changes but my remaining meds were causing my mornings to be hellish. I see you were also on Effexor XR.........such a horrible drug.

 

I couldn't find your blog......I'd like to read your posts. I'm in the same boat. I have all my little dogs........they are getting so sick of my mood swings......and of course so is my husband and my parents, but their all I've got. Thanks for reading my posts.

 

I'm hear if you need me. I'm so glad we were able to connect right now. I was losing hope.

 

Love,

Lou

 

 

 

 

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Bump!

 

Lou I hope you get the support you need. So sorry. 

Thanks Flip. I can always count on my BB friends to step in and help.

 

Love,

Lou

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Hi Lou!

 

Congrats on getting off the benzos. I know how hard it is to cope when you have windows and waves - and then waves again.  It doesn't make logical sense because it's almost impossible for the human brain to comprehend that healing in this case is non-linear. 

 

I know you probably know that and are just sick of hearing and reading it.  But hang in there, because you are nearing that point where SO many start to turn the last big corner - and then things are just done.  You're so close and you've come so far.  THese are 9 months you never have to live through again. 

 

You have many people here to be friends with.   Have you checked out the 7-12 month thread on this board?  These are all folks you could connect with and are in the exact same boat.  I know they would love to have you.

 

:)Parker

Hey Parker,

 

Wow, what you said really got to me. I haven't had anyone say it like that..........you're right.......I will never have to go through those 9 months again. Thank God !!

 

I will check out that thread. Do you have a blog? Thanks so much for the kind words........you opened up my eyes today. I'm so glad I didn't go to the ER this morning.

 

Just know you really said something new......something I haven't heard......something that will help me keep the faith and press on.

 

God Bless,

Lou

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Hi Lou,I hope you got my pm...I lost my internet connection as I was sending it..

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Lou,

 

At 9 months, I hit what was the longest an possibly hardest wave I've had since jumping.

I'm 6 weeks into it and hoping it is losing steam. 

 

You are not alone with the resurgence of symptoms at this stage. Check of th 7-12 month support thread.  You will see a lot of us going though the same thing.

 

I hope you turn positive again very soon.  You definitely will in time. Best wishes and prayers your way. 

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Bump!

 

Lou I hope you get the support you need. So sorry. 

Thanks Flip

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Hi Lou!

 

Congrats on getting off the benzos. I know how hard it is to cope when you have windows and waves - and then waves again.  It doesn't make logical sense because it's almost impossible for the human brain to comprehend that healing in this case is non-linear. 

 

I know you probably know that and are just sick of hearing and reading it.  But hang in there, because you are nearing that point where SO many start to turn the last big corner - and then things are just done.  You're so close and you've come so far.  THese are 9 months you never have to live through again. 

 

You have many people here to be friends with.   Have you checked out the 7-12 month thread on this board?  These are all folks you could connect with and are in the exact same boat.  I know they would love to have you.

 

:)Parker

Hey Parker,

 

I'm still struggling.......not feeling very positive. I will check out that thread.

 

Thanks,

Lou

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Hi there,

 

I am approaching 9 months later this month and have been doing relatively well up until this week - where I have now fallen back into a wave of sorts (I believe brought on by health stress).  I am back to feeling a bit restless, extremely weepy, mildly depressed, and pains EVERYWHERE.  Shooting nerve pain, burning pain, you name it.  I spent an hour straight this afternoon sobbing about just about anything I thought of...and had to wash my face to clear the tears before picking my 8 year old daughter from school.  My mind is in a fog but racing at the same time.  My mood changes from happy to full of doom and gloom in just seconds. 

 

I had all of this happen at the 6 month mark and have improved greatly since...and now I've read of a few forum members who are struggling in a wave around the 10 month mark...so I think that's just the way things are right now for us...and I truly believe we are going to come out of it.  It's just SO hard to believe it when we are in the thick of it. 

 

Our central nervous systems are SO highly sensitive for quite awhile once off of the meds, so it takes time to heal...and during those months of healing it is VERY normal to have some dramatic ups and downs.  Eventually the ups and downs should become less dramatic and then diminish all together.  Or for others they get hit w/ a final "wow" of a wave only to find they are almost completely healed after.  Just hang in there.  I'm toughing it out right now just like you and I know it is SO difficult.  I can fully empathize. 

 

We will get there - like all the others who ARE healed.  I'm thinking of you and I know this will end like any other wave.

 

All my best, hugs and healing,

Schatje

Hi Schatje,

 

I was hit w/ a really hard, long wave in my 6th month too. This wave seems to be so up and down and it doesn't leave for long.....it hits hard and it lasts so long. I don't know if my head is re-wiring again since stopped the Lamictal last month but the head pain I am feeling is very scary. I've been crying a lot like you mentioned and I've been filled w/ anger and resentment about this whole process. I feel like I'm pushing people away. I need more support but I just don't know where to get it. I know I just have to ride it out but the days seem so long.

 

The aches and pains have gotten a lot worse this month. I have the most pain in my lower right back which is usually caused by stress. I wish I could do more walking but I'm so easily worn out so I'm just staying inside w/ my dogs and trying to rest.

 

I hope for both of us that the 10th month is so severe. It's hard to keep your energy going when you're hit w/ all these psychological and physical symptoms.

 

Thanks for you support.

Love,

Lou

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Lou,

 

At 9 months, I hit what was the longest an possibly hardest wave I've had since jumping.

I'm 6 weeks into it and hoping it is losing steam. 

 

You are not alone with the resurgence of symptoms at this stage. Check of th 7-12 month support thread.  You will see a lot of us going though the same thing.

 

I hope you turn positive again very soon.  You definitely will in time. Best wishes and prayers your way. 

Hey Brian,

 

Your dog is so cute. Is that a boxer? I'm only 1 wk into this month and I've already become so negative about these setbacks. I think I'm worn down and so sick of having to rest....especially when you can't really rest like a normal person.

 

I have to ask you........how have you been able to ride out this long..hard wave?

 

It's so hard to keep my mind from going to a dark place. I feel like I'm constantly bouncing from one emotion to another.

 

Thanks,

Lou

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Hi Lou.

Just a thought. I read in your sig that you also stopped zyrtec recently.  Do you have many allergies?  Allergies can really rev symptoms up.  Is there some reason you stopped your antihistamine?  I personally felt zyrtec made me too groggy so I use over the counter allegra.  It might also help you to get outdoors for some short walks with your dogs.  The sunshine can help a lot with the blues, which you might really need since going off your a/ds.

 

Best,

 

Vertigo