convincing myself of sickness

[[Ch...]]

sooo i have shoulder pain and shortness of breath.. i have convinced myself that i have long cancer... why do i do this to myself?? i have had bad pain in right shoulder front and back.. it hurts when i breath... isnt that what happens when you have mucle pain??? i dont know.... this is silly.. just trying to bring myself back down....

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Hi Chance,

 

Everytime I would get a new symptom I would equate it to some disease.  I'd go on Wikepedia, and look up the symptoms for what I imagined that I had ( definitely not a good idea ).  My anxiety would go through the roof, so I quit looking up diseases on the internet, and resigned myself to the fact that it was all withdrawals.

 

Those benzos can make us believe just about anything.  They could probably make an elephant think that it was a mouse.

 

If you get a 'gut feeling' that what you experience may not be withdrawals, it may be prudent to seek medical advice.

 

the best to you

 

pj 

[[Ch...]]

thank you pj i was looking on the internet!! dumb dumb du.... it will pass it is just hard to remember when you are not feeling well!! as you know.... thank you for rsponding!! it helps to have someone answer!! hope you are well thanks again

[[pi...]]

Hi Chance,

 

Well, we've all been down that road. Perhaps I really wanted them to find something and get it fixed.  I know that after many of my tests that came back normal I was so sad and weeped on my husbands shoulder many times.  I just wanted to be cured.  Well I am becoming cured, not maybe the way I envisoned, but its happening anyway.

 

pianogirl 

[[Ro...]]

I have convinced myself that I have had almost everything in the book!  I did exactly the same thing and googled symptoms...Good God that's a bad idea!!  I actually had some sharp tight pains in my right shoulder (front and back) today and panicked a little but then once I chalked it up to withdrawal, I got busy and forgot about it and low and behold, the pain was gone.  I have had shoulder issues off and on during all of this.  I literally thought I had everything at one point or another.  Just goes to show how powerful anxiety can be.    It will go away!  Take Care 

 

[[Ch...]]

thank you pianogirl i have read many of youf posts!! i tottally agree on the wanting to be cured!!! it helps to know that i am not the only one whom does this it sounds like your husband is great.. mine is too he hugs me and reasures me that i am healthy...hope you have a great night ans thanks again!!

 

rose28 i dont know what i was thinking checking my symptoms out on the internet.. i know better then that!!! my husband has threatend to throw my phone in the garbage if i use it to look up symptoms anymore...lol i think he might be serious!! thamnks for writting me hope you have a good night!!!

[[Ro...]]

Hahaha...my husband threatened to call and cancel our internet!  I also thought he was serious LOL

[[AN...]]

Yes!  I've read a little neuroscience, and that's not a good thing!  The brain is really complicated, so some very strange things can happen...I convinced myself yesterday that my brain would probably never recover from benzo withdrawal, that I was going permanently insane, etc., and I couldn't dismiss this idea because I was so befuddled.  Truth is, the brain and the body are very plastic and have miraculous healing capabilities when the stressors are removed, so hey--we will probably all come back from these medical problems.

 

Best to you,

ANewOne