weird sadness- letting go of meds

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I hope this isn't inappropriate to discuss.. I'm new so let me know :/

 

 

After facing the facts that it's in my best interest emotionally, physically, psychologically to get off benzos and hypnotics for good, I'm left with this kind of emptiness. In a weird way, it's like a 'well.. I guess the party is over'... feeling, like a let down (like a post Christmas feeling if you get what I mean).

 

In a lot of ways being on Z drugs has made my life easier despite the side effects which I want to get away from. I can float away into nothingness and sleep. But the reality that I need to be off of them and learn new patterns and habits (which are going to take a long time and effort and struggle) is bringing me down. I go through thoughts that my dose isn't that high. I need to sleep and I haven't slept naturally in a very long time. I don't even know if it is possible. But I'm aware that this stuff is toxic for me. So I feel weak and lazy being on them but then I get these sad feelings knowing I have to let go of it. I just don't know how I'll function off of meds.

 

Anyone else experience this?

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Hello there,

 

I completely understand what you are saying, and it is definitely all right to discuss it here.  To have a pill that will allow you to fall asleep without a struggle, has become like a trusted, and faithful friend.  It can be extremely hard to do so, but you are taking the first step in the right direction by realizing that at some point in your life you must be able to fall asleep without the aid of a pill.

 

 

I stayed on them for far too long, and seriously eroded my ability to fall asleep on my own.  It took a long time, but I have been benzo free for 15 months, and am now sleeping, drug-free, 7 hours a night.

 

I wish you the best

 

pj

 

 

 

[[Fr...]]

Thanks pj.

 

I'm hoping one day I can be drug free. It seems impossible from where I am right now. I don't even know what it would feel like. It's a foreign concept to me at this point. I'm on my second day of tapering so I have a ways to go. Thanks for your words and congrats on your success 

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Thanks pj.

 

I'm hoping one day I can be drug free. It seems impossible from where I am right now. I don't even know what it would feel like. It's a foreign concept to me at this point. I'm on my second day of tapering so I have a ways to go. Thanks for your words and congrats on your success 

 

You're welcome.

 

 

A drug free world is where our senses become alive again, our thoughts become clear again, and our anxious minds become peaceful  again.  This will one day be your world.  It does happen