Ok this wave has lasted more than I can stand!

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I have been knocked on my ass yet again.  For the past three days I just can not think straight.  I did my best yesterday to push through it, I even forced myself to work out, and get outside for a walk....Did not help at all, and the anxiety is climbing back up.  I feel like crap, and I just don't want to get out of bed.  I am almost to three months off, but I just feel like crap.  These are the moments I freak out and think something is really really wrong.  Bad day again.

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Hi, Smuel.  What you are experiencing is normal (even though I know it's torture.)  I just recently had a BAD wave that lasted more than a month, but after it was over, I saw good improvement in my baseline condition, and even had a small window.  I fully believe these waves are healing.  Just keep pushing through, and know it's not you, it's the w/d. 

 

 

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Thank you wtbna.  How are your symptoms now that you are 7 months out?

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Thank you wtbna.  How are your symptoms now that you are 7 months out?

 

While my symptoms in the "absolute" sense, would still be considered pretty bad, they are "great" compared to what they were in the previous months.  I try to look at my healing as "where I am now" compared to "where I was."  If I look at it like I'm not like I was before benzos, I can get pretty effin' discouraged, so I try to avoid doing that as often as I can. 

 

I still have a ways to go, but I have had windows where everything is fine again, and it's as though w/d never happened -- with this, I know my brain will be fine at some point, and as will yours. 

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why does month three feel so hard??gosh, i just want my life back. 

thanks for the tips:0)

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why does month three feel so hard??gosh, i just want my life back. 

thanks for the tips:0)

 

A lot of people have a hard time in that month; I did as well.  Months 2 and 3 were my overall worst months.  Here is a list of the months in order of worst to best, for me, thus far:  Month 2, 3, 1, 6, 4, 5, and 7.