Could use some encouragement, guys. Please.

[[pa...]]

Hi Guys - It's just one of those days that I need to hear from others that are beyond where I'm at that they know they are healing - and that they have improved a lot.  I'm at that 5 1/2 months off time - and I'm having BIG swings between fog / less fog, things feel pretty "right" -but mild d/r.  Sometimes I am in the "back" of my brain and sometimes I can wiggle through to the front and feel more "here". But overall, this fog is REALLY what's got me so discouraged.  I know I'm healing, but I just need to see this fog go.  It seems that so many others have physical symptoms or mental ones but not the d/r. And I seem to MOST of the time have d/r. It's finally starting to lift a little, but the more "right" things feel, the harder it seems to be for me to be okay with the fact that so much is still off. 

I feel like I'd trade a day of physial stuff for this mental symptom of fog to just GO. There was ONE day a few weeks ago, in all of this recovery, that i woke up witout it. Other than that, I've had times for a few hours every 4 days or so this month where it has lifted SOME -but not like on that day.  I have no idea why it lifted that one day. I can't attribute it to anything. But I feel like this is the symptom holding me back from living life the way I want to be. And I am so tired of riding out the months. I need to hear some good hopeful news that it's going to improve soon.  Please. 

 

Parker

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Hi Parker.  I can't give you too many words of encouragement on this subject unfortunately.  However, I wanted to let you know that I am almost 7 months off and DR/DP/Cog Fog have been some of my worst and most consistent symptoms.  I haven't had any breaks in almost 8 months from them.  I do have days where they are a bit less intense but they are always with me.  I have basically been living in a disconnected dream-like state for my entire recovery time.  I actually feel as though derealization is a pretty common and persistent symptom for many people.  This is the impression I have gotten from obsessing over this forum for nearly a year anyway.  I hope it improves for you soon!  Hang in there!! 

 

Hope

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Hi Hope-Thank you for responding. If you don't mind me asking, what benzo were you on and for how long and how much?  I'm reaching out for any kindred.

 

[[WT...]]

Hi Parker.  I can't give you too many words of encouragement on this subject unfortunately.  However, I wanted to let you know that I am almost 7 months off and DR/DP/Cog Fog have been some of my worst and most consistent symptoms.  I haven't had any breaks in almost 8 months from them.  I do have days where they are a bit less intense but they are always with me.  I have basically been living in a disconnected dream-like state for my entire recovery time.  I actually feel as though derealization is a pretty common and persistent symptom for many people.  This is the impression I have gotten from obsessing over this forum for nearly a year anyway.  I hope it improves for you soon!  Hang in there!! 

 

Hope

 

Ditto on the "I have basically been living in a disconnected dream-like state for my entire recovery time."  I would also go so far to say, for me, that mine is like a near death experience, as I feel as though I'm dead at times.. it's so bad. 

 

 

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Hi,

DP and DR were one of my worst and prolonged symptoms. I felt like I was in zombie land forever.  No feelings, emotions etc.  Felt like I was me, but somehow lost in my body.  Gosh, it is so so hard to describe but like walking in a fog and being lost at times.  Anyways, this is only because of withdrawl .  Since withdrawl entails alot of anxiety symptoms DR and DP would be included in that.  I feel that it is one of the hardest symptoms to deal with as it severely impedes your ability to function.  Mine has finally gone away a couple of months ago and I can now just deal with the few physical symptoms I have left.  Try not to worry too much it's just your system still in overdrive and once it settles down it will go away and then it will honestly be hard to remember what it was actually like. 

Take care,  Ginia

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Hi there Parker,

 

I agree with Ginia,

 

This is d/r and d/p, and I have been dealing with this since July of last year, not saying you will. I find mine has got better or something, not as thick at times. It is still there, though. It feels like a cog fog but amplified. I agree with Ginia, it is your system in overdrive. I notice when my system calms down, when it does, this gets a little better. These mind blowing pills and withdrawal induce this stuff! You are perfectly sane. The d/r and d/p are what cause so many other problems in this.. it is just heightened anxiety. I recall having it in '02 for six months straight, and yeah, this is what it felt like.

 

Billy.

[[pa...]]

Thank you guys --- this is hard.  It's getting better.  But just a lot more slowly than I'd like.

:)Parker