Is it common for your mind to run 1000 miles a minute?!

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Hi again....I guess on my previous post...no one has tried Holy Basil? That's ok because I'm not going to take it anymore till I find out more about it....Anyways....I am concerned about myself because some days my mind seems to just race! Like I always seem to be thinking a million things about myself and getting through this withdrawal! It's bothering me. For example I can focus on other things for awhile but then it always comes back to obsessing about "what if" questions about my health! Like "What if" my mind can't calm down and quit worrying then I am always worried this is abnormal.. : ( It's always worse in the mornings and afternoons. Evenings I tend to be more calm but I'm just always more anxious during the day. It probably doesnt help that I'm going through "that time of the month" this week either. I am SO tired of this anxiety! I also keep worrying about my ears and like "what if" tinnitus gets bad...I only have a slight ring in my left ear and really it only bothers me when I'm in a place really quiet...never the less It freaks me out. Also I hate having obsessive thoughts about myself everyday mainly analyzing myself and how I'm always feeling...it seems I'm always doing that! Do any of you have this problem at all?? Where your brain just seems to be really actively thinking about EVERYTHING?! 

 

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Oh and i just dropped my 1/4 dose in the afternoon a couple weeks ago so maybe this is also contributing?? It's not bad everyday but more so this week and some days I'm a lot better but some days like today are bad for my mind to wander!

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hey Sunny

 

I just posted this answer for someone else somewhere as well.  I definately have this cant stop thinking about how bad im feeling for a single minute worried about the whole process and this makes things so much worse.  cant focus or concentrate on anything its dreadful.  I feel like im going to be like this forever and ever and never will get better.  everyone assures us that we will we can only hope right.

 

Lizzy

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Lizzy,,

Thanks for responding...I will be fine like right now after I get up and then it seems as my mornings progress I start thinking about it all...I guess I will just have to keep as busy as I can to keep my mind on other things no matter how hard it is. It's just really frustrating though! I was also put on paxil 4 yrs ago for some anxiety/panic issues I was having...nothing that bad...my new dr. now says I should have never been put on that kind of drug for what was just situational anxiety. He and another dr. I have seen tell me that those ssri's are only a temporary thing anyways not meant for long term and only for about a year to take. I can't believe I just kept taking that paxil for four years not even thinking about this! I wish I could take it all back! OH well! I then was put on Ativan to help with the horrendous Paxil wd that I was getting back in July and it did really help me! I just wish I wouldn't have taken it though because I'm just soooo tired of this whole process. I've been in the process of withdrawal for the past 8 months now....I also know I'm still not 100% over the paxil withdrawals yet too. I mean they have got much better but I still have bad days and this ativan wd on top of it is NOT FUN! My main issues right now are just with overthinking and then that will spark an anxiety attack. Evenings are usually better for me but the days are very difficult at times. I'm a stay at home mom and so I have a hard time trying to keep busy. Now that its warmer I can ride my bike go for walks I also volunteer at a place helping with gardening and different things so that will help I know but it is when I'm in my spare time that my mind starts wandering and I get really worried about this.

 

Julie

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Hey Julie

 

that is funny because the morning is my absolute worse.  I have the most horrific anxiety and adrenaline rushes its unbelievable.  I cant keep busy because i find it hard to function.  I cant believe these doctors and the meds they dish out its simply crazy  You know i was always anti med for this reason i never used to take anything and then i got this blood pressure issue happening and somehow someway i got caught up in it all was put on 4mg of xanax which was crazy in itself.  You sound like me wishing we never ever took anything to begin with because we were born ok.  anyway im here for you and good on you for going out and about.  will chat soon im in Australia and im off to bed.

 

Lizzy

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You can write to me anytime as well. It would be nice to have someone to relate to about all this. Good night! Oh and I so envy where you live as that has been a dream of mine forever to visit Australia! : )

 

Julie

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Hey Julie

 

it is a great country and i usually enjoy every bit of it but unfortunately it doesnt matter where we live at a time like this you just cant appreciate it at all.  Its raining at the moment which is not a good thing.  I have my son's 21st birthday party tomorrow heaven knows how im going to do it.  I just dont know but i will manage i will have to.  Its also raining which is not a good thing.  Woke up this morning with dreadful anxiety i cant handle it at all makes me want to cry and cry.  anyway hope you are doing ok..

 

 

Lizzy

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Lizzie

 

I hope things are going better today....I know those exact feeling you were going through it's nasty! Today I feel more anxious than normal. I have a nervous feeling through my body. I have now cut out the afternoon dose. I did that on Friday and it was just a real small drop but I think that's what I'm feeling now. It usually takes a few days for it to hit. It's so frustrating! You can pm me if you want....I don't know how to on here...but any time you can message me! : ) I can't believe it's this hard to taper down...I've only been on .5 mg a day or 6 months!  Ridiculous! I am just so sick of the paxil wd and the ativan wd now! Just trying to stay positive!

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OMG IM GOING THROUGH THE SAME EXACT THING MINUS THE EAR RINGING. I WAKE UP MOST MORNING WITH WORRY AND THROUGHOUT THE DAY WITH WORRY LIKE U STATED WORRYING ABOUT MY HEALTH EVERY LITTLE TINGLE OR TAP ITS GOT TO BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME RIGHT. BUT IN ALL REALITY ITS NOT. AND THIS IS FROM SOMEONE WHO WENT TO THE E.R 3TIMES THIS WEEK. BUT AT NIGHT EVERYTHING IS AT PEACE AND CALM AND I FIND A LITTLE HOPE AND ENERGY TO SUFFICE FOR THE MOMENT BUT STILL THE ANXIETY IS THERE IN THE BACK OF MY MIND JUST WAITING TO BE TRIGGERED NOT TO MENTION THE INSOMNIA. AND I TO AM GOING THROUGH WITHDRAWAL FROM STOPPING COLD TURKEY. ITS A HASSLE AND A FIGHT BELIEVE ME YOUR NOT ALONE I DO RECOMMEND THAT ITS BETTER TO SLOWLY(TAPER) OFF THE STUFF. AND ALSO A LITTLE ADVICE I HEARD ABOUT ACCEPTING THE SYMPTOMS AS APART OF YOUR RECOVERY. U HAVE TO REMEMBER THE BODY IS TRANSFORMING TO A NORMAL STATE WHERE ITS SELF RELIANT. SO THE PROCESS TAKES TIME TO RE ADJUST ITS LIKE RE BOOTING A COMPUTER. YOU WILL BE FINE I KNOW ITS EASIER SAID THEN DONE I'VE BEEN THROUGH THE CRYING AND EVERYTHING BUT AS MY TEARS FLOWED MY ANGER TO BEAT THIS ROSE HIGHER. SO HERE I AM HOPING THAT MY WORDS WOULD BRING ANY RELIEF TO YOUR MIND. ACCEPTANCE AND STRENGTH IS WHAT U NEED! ACCEPTING THE PROBLEM AND THE STRENGTH TO GET THROUGH IT WHICH I KNOW YOU WILL! JUST KNOW THERE IS A DAY COMING SOON WHERE YOUR GOING TO LOOK BACK ON THIS AND SAY YEA...I DID IT...WELL MAY STRENGTH LOVE AND PEACE OF MIND BE WITH YOU ! YOUR IN MY PRAYERS!

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hey sunny

 

sorry i didnt get back to you dont know why i missed you last post.  how r u feeling lately its been a few days and i havent heard how you are.  Im still the same more or less and thinking about cutting but may hold another week because im already so fragile.  I hate it so much and can never get over the fact that i let another drug near my body but at the time i was desperate thats all i can put it down to.  hate to feel like i will live like this forever.

 

Lizzy

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Thanks for the words of encouragement! Yes I was a wreck yesterday morning it seems that's my worst like right before noon! : ( I always get anxious thoughts after I've been up for a little while and I hate it!  They are irrational worries and I had to keep telling myself over and over that my brain is just playing tricks on me that I'm FINE! It turned into a horrible panic attack but I finally snapped out of it after awhile..so horrible!  I wonder if it's because I take my biggest dose of Ativan in the morning at like 6 am.?? I take .25mg then....then I don't take anymore until 5 pm and that is .125 mg. I just this past week cut out my afternoon dose. Also is lightheadedness a wd side effect because lately I can't seem to do a lot of physical activity because like 3 hours later I feel lightheaded and I have to sit down for awhile.  I kind of noticed this when I was tapering my Paxil also.  I keep praying constantly and I know God is hearing my prayers and I just need to be strong as I can and fight! I tend to get wimpy feeling and want to have a pity party for myself like yesterday when I broke down crying my eyes out but I have to try hard not to let it overcome me but it's SO hard!! I can't believe like you said lizzy that I ever took this Ativan after the horror I was going through from Paxil withdrawal! But I was sooo miserable with those symptoms I was desperate for relief and I HAD to do something! I am a stay at home mom and my daughter is 9 so I have to be strong and functional for her and my husband. I just get sad sometimes because I want to be myself again and I keep wondering when that will be!  I know I'm getting there I can feel it but the constant morning feelings and the anxious thoughts at that time really get me down. 

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hey there Sunny

 

yes ill come to your pity party if there is an invitation there for me.  I woke up the same way already crying and its only 9am here.  Seriously the anxiety and fear is horrible.  I cant worry about anything anymore just that ive been poisoned by the drugs it just goes around and around.  You know what sunny we just have to get through this nightmare one day at a time.  will write more later.

 

Lizzy

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Lizzy I hope today goes better for you. I woke up like that again this morning too it's 9:15 am right now. I wish I knew what causes this is it the Ativan dose I take causing it?? It just seems like it is because once it wears off my mind calms down. Last night after I took my dose at 5 pm about 3 hrs later I started feeling really panicky again and those dumb thoughts came back but then it seemed to go away. I don't like drs anymore either I feel the new dr I have now is better than the one I had who put me on Paxil 4 yrs ago but still he doesn't really believe these drugs cause all these wd problems. It's ridiculous when all he had to do is go to this website or to paxilprogress website and see all these people reacting the same way while coming off it! Really angers me! I get scared because when I have the panic attacks it feels like my mind is racing a million miles a second!! Well I wish there was something that could help when I feel this way because it's really scary.

 

Julie

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hey Julie

 

Thks Julie woke up better today than yesterday thats for sure.  Drs wil never look at websites my doctor did only to do the conversion from xanax to valium but didnt read the rest of the stuff about going slow.  hopeless.  I agree with you about the meds causing this  i really believe that there are some sensitive people out there and it does happen.  You are right about one thing this is sooo scary and i hope we recover sooner rather than later.

 

keep me posted.

 

 

Lizzy

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Thank you so much for the encouraging words and support! I am really trying to be strong but today has been soooo horrible! Last night I got news about two different people one a friend of my moms that passed away and the other of a old friend who is being diagnosed with cancer my moms friend died of brain cancer... Also my uncle has prostate cancer but his treatment is going well but still I freaked out last night and when I woke today all I could think about and off and on all day was about my old friend....who I really wasn't that close to at all....who has cancer. This obsessive thought about him keeps ruminating off and on in my mind. I get very anxious and adrenaline surges when the thought pops into my mind! It feels so miserable. It seems like if I hear bad news of someone or if I watch something that was disturbing or also if my daughter gets anything little wrong with her I obsess about it constantly. I try to distract my thoughts and it works for awhile but then it comes back. I was NEVER like this before Paxil and Ativan withdrawal. Right now I feel it is more from Ativan wd because I think that the majority of the Paxil wd is subsiding...I'm just scared of feeling like this. I was just wondering if these obsessive thoughts are common in wd. Before Ativan and Paxil wd if I heard bad news about someone I never dwelled on it continuously or obsessively like this and I never had anxiety attacks over it! I could always put it out of my mind.

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hey Julie

 

I just pm'd you did you have ocd before this??? I already had it but taking psych meds triggered it more if that makes sense and it never went away.  I dont know Im hoping that this obsessive worry stops soon but i cant see it happening for me im still not off this stuff so it wont be until much later that i can see the damage it has done.  If you didnt have obsessive thoughts before im sure they will disappear.  After i took an ssri 8 years ago I went nuts on it and my ocd was horrific.  anyway you will see you pm and sorry about all that cancer stuff as well try not to buy into it though its only thoughts ok and your benzo head is latching on to them.

 

Lizzy

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Lizzy

 

Yes I got your pm I sent you one as well. It just seems like whenever I hear about anything bad health wise happening to somebody I know lately I just can't break away from that thought. It will stick with me for several days and then subside. Very annoying! And yes I seem to be constantly thinking about myself and why and when I will keep feeling like this. Well the only thing I did before taking any of this stuff Paxil or ativan I did tend to obsessively worry about health issues like there was a health issue with myself which I'm fine now but back 4 yrs ago when I started Paxil it was because I was constantly worrying about myself because no doctors around here were figuring out anything and it was going on for 4 months! It was a dumb cyst. Anyways that's what led me to Paxil use and the dr never even told me that I shouldn't have taken it for 4 years! Two of my drs now say I should never be on it for longer than 1 year! Nice to know now! Also I tend to obsessively worry about my daughter sometimes if she's sick. Other than that im fine. My mind just seems to attach itself to crazy things lately! Ugh!

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hey there

 

have been reading many nasty paxil stories on here so you need to feel validated it looks like a nasty drug.  I to have always had health obsessions and if i wasnt obsessing about myself it would be about the kids so tiring and draining.  Im no obsessing about anything else either just how bad this feels.  will pm you soon ok.

 

Lizzy

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sunnydayz you most certainly are right that it's possible that 1000 different things can run through your mind at once.  For a lot of people that's why they are put on drugs like Celexa, Effexor in the firt place.

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If you're me it is. When my thoughts start racing...watch out.