Are you in a current wave?

[[re...]]

I am curious how many of us are in a current wave and where we are at in our healing. What are your sx?

 

I am 8.5 months out and back "in the soup."  Not that I have ever been out, but I have felt much better than this.

Current sx are

tingling, bone pain, extreme fatigue, burning skin, fears, irrational thoughts, obsession with death/dying, muscle aches, cramps, burning tongue, back of head/neck pain, pressure, chest burning/tingling, hands hurt, blood shot eyes, dry eyes, heat in chest, tinnitus, bottom of foot tingles pain, jaw/mouth pain, bone pain that migrates, ear pain/pressure/itching/ head pressure, and over all just feeling depressed and anxious about my life. And boaty sensation and hard to walk. Sigh

 

Anyone else in a wave? How far out? whats going on?

[[wy...]]

I'm in one big time, recovering. I am 5.5 months out.

 

My SX: major anxiety, left arm pressure, headache, light sensitivity (which had completely gone away), chest tightness when I breathe deep, intrusive thoughts, feelings of death/fear, irrational emotions (like extremely irritable and angry). Most of mine feel psychological and less physical. But, I do have the left arm thing and my left thigh also pulses and quivers with pain off and on. All my physical stuff when it does present, is on my left side. Many days I do feel better than I did months ago, but this wave (going on 3 days now) has really hit hard and in some ways makes me feel worse than I did in the early days.

 

[[ed...]]

Pretty much sounds like my life right now.

I am curious how many of us are in a current wave and where we are at in our healing. What are your sx?

 

I am 8.5 months out and back "in the soup."  Not that I have ever been out, but I have felt much better than this.

Current sx are

tingling, bone pain, extreme fatigue, burning skin, fears, irrational thoughts, obsession with death/dying, muscle aches, cramps, burning tongue, back of head/neck pain, pressure, chest burning/tingling, hands hurt, blood shot eyes, dry eyes, heat in chest, tinnitus, bottom of foot tingles pain, jaw/mouth pain, bone pain that migrates, ear pain/pressure/itching/ head pressure, and over all just feeling depressed and anxious about my life. And boaty sensation and hard to walk. Sigh

 

Anyone else in a wave? How far out? whats going on?

[[Sa...]]

I'm also back "in the soup".

 

It would take a while to list the current sx's of my current wave that has lasted for roughly a week now.  The main ones are

-Flu-like feeling

-Migraines from strong scents

-Nerve pain

-Intrusive thoughts

-Anxiety

-Depression

-GI trouble

-Uncoordinated

-Irritability / lack of enjoyment 

-Extreme Fatigue

 

Hopefully we all get a window soon....I'm going to cross my fingers.

-Sam

[[Ho...]]

I think a ton of people are in horrible waves right now. Something about a solar storm, full moons, all that jazz. I don't know how all that works, but I've always heard it affects us, and it sure feels like it does!!

 

 

This is the most disturbing wave I've ever had. I feel like someone I don't even recognize. Last night I felt like someone I was hanging out with was about to attack me for no reason.    I feel completely disconnected, I guess that's just some major dr/dp. Very depressed. Cannot concentrate on anything, I feel like my mind is seperate from me and I can't access it. What's wrong with me? 

I am not functional right now.

[[re...]]

I'm also back "in the soup".

 

It would take a while to list the current sx's of my current wave that has lasted for roughly a week now.  The main ones are

-Flu-like feeling

-Migraines from strong scents

-Nerve pain

-Intrusive thoughts

-Anxiety

-Depression

-GI trouble

-Uncoordinated

-Irritability / lack of enjoyment 

-Extreme Fatigue

 

Hopefully we all get a window soon....I'm going to cross my fingers.

-Sam

 

Oh Sam!! I was hoping you had skipped this party.

Hang in there buddy. I wish you a speedy ride to shore.

 

[[re...]]

I think a ton of people are in horrible waves right now. Something about a solar storm, full moons, all that jazz. I don't know how all that works, but I've always heard it affects us, and it sure feels like it does!!

 

 

This is the most disturbing wave I've ever had. I feel like someone I don't even recognize. Last night I felt like someone I was hanging out with was about to attack me for no reason.    I feel completely disconnected, I guess that's just some major dr/dp. Very depressed. Cannot concentrate on anything, I feel like my mind is seperate from me and I can't access it. What's wrong with me? 

I am not functional right now.

 

Hang in there Holly. It will pass but it sure is scary when you are in it, I know. I am not too functional these past few days either.  I was turning some big corners and WHAM. Sounds like that is true for many of us here. Keep us posted, OK?

[[Fl...]]

Yes,I too am in a bad wave for the past week. Not to scare anyone but I am 17 months out from a c/t of ativan. I was doing fair before this(about 60% better most of the time) but this wave is bad. I have all my old symptoms back and I am really scared right now. My waves are not usually this bad. Hope it gets better soon.

 

Rain

[[re...]]

Yes,I too am in a bad wave for the past week. Not to scare anyone but I am 17 months out from a c/t of ativan. I was doing fair before this(about 60% better most of the time) but this wave is bad. I have all my old symptoms back and I am really scared right now. My waves are not usually this bad. Hope it gets better soon.

 

Rain

 

Hope it gets better for you soon. I wonder how many of us who are hurting so bad did a cold turkey? I did, after a miserable bed ridden taper.

Keep us posted as to how it is going.

[[Ga...]]

me too horrible depression and anxiety this am:(  7 mo off.

[[...]]

Been in a never-ending wave for quite some time...

 

I think a ton of people are in horrible waves right now. Something about a solar storm, full moons, all that jazz. I don't know how all that works, but I've always heard it  :-*affects us, and it sure feels like it does!!

 

 

This is the most disturbing wave I've ever had. I feel like someone I don't even recognize. Last night I felt like someone I was hanging out with was about to attack me for no reason.    I feel completely disconnected, I guess that's just some major dr/dp. Very depressed. Cannot concentrate on anything, I feel like my mind is seperate from me and I can't access it. What's wrong with me? 

I am not functional right now.

Hollyms, I've also had that thought that people are going to attack me...so irrational but feels so real. It scares me

[[re...]]

me too horrible depression and anxiety this am:(  7 mo off.

 

So sorry to hear. It will get better.

[[Ga...]]

recovering, the other night I had a bout of vibrating and bad ear ringing, the 2 together drive me nuts!

I hope you feel better soon

[[Au...]]

In 11 days I will be 1 year off...and I am in a wave too.

 

My sxs are:

head pressure/floaty feeling/dizzy, nausea, weak, inner trembling, muscle tightness in back of neck and shoulders, flu-like feeling, diarrhea, frequent urination, anxiety, adrenaline rushes, night sweats...

 

This is awful... I almost forgot how bad this could be... I can't stop crying...

[[Tu...]]

Hi recoveringfrombenzoz

As you already know I'm in a heavy wave from my other post in which you were so helpful! Anyway here are my symptoms (its good to get em out there and off my chest)

Tinnitus

Inner Trembling

Heavy derealization (took me a few times to try spell it lol)

visual distortions

Fatigue

Heavy/Jelly legs

headache and head pressure

Tightness  in my chest

Anxiety

obsessive thoughts (mainly fear of dying, I hate it)

jaw and neck pain

 

There are probably more that dont come to mind, but cant think right now

I am so looking forward to the day when we get to list off all the good things going on with us instead of all the bad symptoms!

 

[[Al...]]

RFB,

Clearly in another bad wave. Same sx's as everyone else. 6.5 months out form c/t (somewhere I posted that i was 7.5 months out -cog fog). Getting progressively worse for 1 week now. Exhaustion, breathlessness, burning, ANXIETY, tremors, twitching are the worst. Hanging in there.

[[Ho...]]

I'm 6.5 months off and still waiting for my first window.  I hope we all have large windows that lead to doors very soon!!

[[ki...]]

Count me in too, anxiety and depression showing their ugly heads. All the usual suspects are worse too, Head/ear pressure, vision, cog fog

thought process messed up. Morning anxiety thru the roof. This stuff is just too crazy 

[[no...]]

Right there with you guys. 6 1/2 months. Wave city.

I can handle any sx but fear and intrusive thoughts. They are my huge challenge now.

I see that many have the death thought issue- so that should reassure you all that it is in fact benzo related. I sincerely believe the w/d symptoms always eventually go away. this is not permanent.

My thought- my head is constantly telling me OMG- you cannot do---fill in the blank with whatever it is I am ready to go do, or have to do tomorrow. Like the worst anticipatory anxiety EVER. it is intrusive DREAD. And I don't know if this is w/d related. It is so insistent, and loops around and around.

but- if we have had windows, there is NO reason why another window is not in our future.

I am not really physically ill like I was before, occasional inner trembling and a boaty thing when I get freaked out.

Lets get these waves over with, and start a window thread, huh?

[[Ho...]]

Right there with you guys. 6 1/2 months. Wave city.

I can handle any sx but fear and intrusive thoughts. They are my huge challenge now.

I see that many have the death thought issue- so that should reassure you all that it is in fact benzo related. I sincerely believe the w/d symptoms always eventually go away. this is not permanent.

My thought- my head is constantly telling me OMG- you cannot do---fill in the blank with whatever it is I am ready to go do, or have to do tomorrow. Like the worst anticipatory anxiety EVER. it is intrusive DREAD. And I don't know if this is w/d related. It is so insistent, and loops around and around.

but- if we have had windows, there is NO reason why another window is not in our future.

I am not really physically ill like I was before, occasional inner trembling and a boaty thing when I get freaked out.

Lets get these waves over with, and start a window thread, huh?

 

I get those " I cannot do this" thoughts also - ALL the time. With practically everything I try to do. This is what's making it so scary to look for a job soon.

[[no...]]

Girl- the thing is- our minds LIE. Keep telling yourself, out loud that you refuse to believe it. Challenge it every time. I know- its like every second, but its simply not true. I started a new job three days after jumping, as well as grad school. You can do it. We can do A heck of alot more than our minds say we can. I look forward to hearing about your job search adventures. You know we are here for you, and plenty of us have done the same things you are faced with. Congradulations on your graduation! Celebrate that, don't overlook the accomplishments!

[[Ho...]]

Girl- the thing is- our minds LIE. Keep telling yourself, out loud that you refuse to believe it. Challenge it every time. I know- its like every second, but its simply not true. I started a new job three days after jumping, as well as grad school. You can do it. We can do A heck of alot more than our minds say we can. I look forward to hearing about your job search adventures. You know we are here for you, and plenty of us have done the same things you are faced with. Congradulations on your graduation! Celebrate that, don't overlook the accomplishments!

 

Dang  You are a STRONG person to have started a job 3 days after jumping! I'm in awe.

I do need to learn to stop listening to my negative thoughts! It feels impossible for me though. ugh

[[re...]]

susan

I like your idea of a window thread! let's all have one soon.

Will you start it when you get yours?

[[el...]]

I'm thinking you already know my symptoms because you posted them.My wave started Feb 1st.Got really bad feb 15th-mar 12th.I started feeling a litter better yesterday.Dont know if its gonna last.So many benzo symptoms hit me all at once. I just kept thinking how can this be happening to me..It dosnt make since.Why dont my feet work!I hope the worset is over now.But I always hope that!

[[pe...]]

Hi All

 

I am having a hard time now and it seems that ever since my 7th month it is just getting harder and harder.  I have minimal windows that last maybe a day and then only partial.  It seems that it is never ending and I found that over the last 4 months it is more difficult to do even the basic everyday things. 

August..... I am off of c/t clonazepam the same amout of time that you are (to the day) and I still have the same symptoms that you do.  I find the the head pressure and facial problems both me the most (although if it was not those it would be something else).  Unfortunately, I stopped zopiclone almost 6 months ago and I don't know if that has caused my last 5 months to be worse.

 

I'm praying that we all get a wonderful long window VERY SOON and that it is a turning corner for everyone.  Very had to hang on to the "we all heal" thought right now.

 

Take care everyone.