9 month update- 6/11/11 to 3/11/12

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Hi Buddies,

 

Today is my 9 month anniversary.  I don't do an update every month but thought I would today.  Did I really think I would still be suffering withdrawal now when I started my taper and still was not benzo wise.  Heck no!!  I have accepted that it is a healing process that I don't control, really hard for a control freak.

 

That being said I am happier than I have been in 3 years.  I am so happy to be off meds and to know why I was sick for so long.  I can't thank the people here enough for helping to educate me and others about this process.

 

Many things are better, here's the list:

 

anxiety: really none

depression:was never really a factor except when I was so afraid of what was wrong with me

sleep: so much better post benzo, its finally real sleep with real dreams.

night sweats, really smelly: gone

very frequent urination: gone, I can wear pants with belts now, no hurry

shaky hands: gone

memory: much better

balance and coordination: much better

GI symptoms: better with careful eating

 

Lingering symptoms:

 

muscle issues: internal twitching, pulling, tightness

dizziness: much less but still occasionally upon getting up

adrenalin in am: less but still rears its ugly head at times

fatigue: still pretty strong.  A long day really makes me scary kind of tired.

 

I had a super long list of symptoms after my first ct of ativan which I had to do for a medical test. I also had a much much longer list last summer at the end of my taper and when I jumped off.

 

So there is lots of progress, sometimes painfully slow but its there.  I am so glad I am where I am today compared to where I was this time last year.  Just wait until next year!!!!

 

Hugs,

 

pianogirl 

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Wishing you continued healing.

[[St...]]

PG, congratulations!  9 months is huge, so much recover time behind you that you'll never have to go through again. You're well on your way. 

 

 

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Excellent news.  keep us posted as you heal more.

[[sh...]]

Sounds wonderful! 

[[vi...]]

Congratulations!!! Fantastic

[[Ho...]]

  This is wonderful...good for you!! Congrats!  Wishing you continued healing in the coming months.

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Congratulations!!! 

[[Kl...]]

Pianogirl,

 

I am so glad that you posted your 9 month update!  You are so very, very close to 110% healing!  :)Much love, Klonkers

[[Po...]]

pianogirl,

 

So very,very happy for you.  The ordeal is over and now you just have to finish healing.  Thanks for being there for me.

 

Hugs and prayers,

Popcornlady