support requested

[[no...]]

Hi guys. For those of you more recovered than I, at 6 months. The question: What about extremes in  windows to waves?  Can you feel more or less ok and then plummet to the depths overnight? I was developing a success story Sunday. Things had been manageable for a time. Then it slammed back as severe as it ever was. I am having severe depressive feelings, and amped up fog and fear. ARGH! Thought it would be back for sure, but not at this maxxed out level. Need some input. I am on spring break- more time by myself. Never a good thing, but last week almost had some fun alone.

Having a rough day.Feel heavy and out of it, like I am so' internalized"- does that make any sense?

thanks

[[pi...]]

Hi,

 

I know for me the windows are pretty wide open, but when the waves come they hit hard and fast.  I can't tell sometimes if they really are so terrible or if I am comparing them to how good I felt before.  If I think back, they must really not be as bad as last year, where I would just go to bed and wait it out.  I am able to work and be functional even during the waves.  Thats progress I think.

 

Everything you said makes perfect sense, all the part of the withdrawal process.  I hope you can enjoy your spring break and spring back into a window.

 

pianogirl 

[[re...]]

Susan I was out enjoying a fine spring day in San Fran at the Farmers Market on Saturday. Sunday, I wanted to go to the ER. I was SO sick!! Fever, could hardly move, aches, pains, it was awful!  I was better Monday and now I am back to my baseline of tingles, etc but able to get out and have a life.

 

Hang in there. My hunch is the beast knows it is "dying" and is doing its best to convince you you need him back in your life. Don't listen to him~

You are healing every day. Even in the down turns. Hang in there ok? Keep the faith. Don't lose hope!!

 

 

[[cn...]]

I was feeling great and fine for a long while, then BAM almost over night just got slammed. Can't really remember how it went exactly. I think it started out with feeling a little off BP wise while I was deep cleaning the house... felt a little off... but my BP was fine. I then noticed my heart was pounding out of my chest... it's like these symptoms just slowly yet in a fast way set in... then it was no sleep that night... dry mouth from hell... the next day was pure torture... Hell. Breathing issues... anxiety... shooting adrenaline type rushes through the body... racing heart... ugh! I then kept ruminating on my symptoms... questioning w/d or the new me... then worrying about not getting any sleep that night etc. My throat was getting stiff and tight and shooting pains... ugh!

 

Surely I slept way better than next night. And over the next few days started feeling much better. And now it's ALL GONE. =)

 

I some how managed to keep my cool through that bad half of a week. Rational thinking is the key. =)

 

It's the beast. But it knows it's slowly dying a slow death! =)

 

We will make it!