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I am days shy of 8.5 months out. I was turning some great corners. But Saturday I went into the City with friends and was out all day. Paying for it now.

 

I have had a low grade fever 99.6-100.5 but no cold or flu respiratory sx.

Increased bone pain that is almost crippling

muscle aches

fatigue that makes my stint of mono I had for 6 months in my mid forties look like cake walk

mouth pain

burning skin

tingles

 

Any one else get a fever in WD?  any one else feel like they were really well on the road to recovery only to get slammed?

This level of pain is new and worrisome.

 

I know we are all weary of the journey. I am SO over this. it is my 54th birthday today and I feel so sad. I can't remember what health feels like. I know in my heart this is not forever, but it is hard to believe when I feel this bad, after beginning to feel hopeful about recovery.

 

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I've now had exactly the same low grade (99.5-100.5) fevers for the last year, with a few breaks for a month or two here and there - I got thoroughly worked up by the best doctors in the country, and they couldn't figure it out. Now that I'm seeing other people going through benzo w/d with the same thing, I have to wonder whether it was tolerance withdrawal and now actual withdrawal causing the whole thing. I'm also there with you on the insane fatigue and tense/sore muscles. I'm only just starting the damn process! Hope you feel better soon :-/

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I've now had exactly the same low grade (99.5-100.5) fevers for the last year, with a few breaks for a month or two here and there - I got thoroughly worked up by the best doctors in the country, and they couldn't figure it out. Now that I'm seeing other people going through benzo w/d with the same thing, I have to wonder whether it was tolerance withdrawal and now actual withdrawal causing the whole thing. I'm also there with you on the insane fatigue and tense/sore muscles. I'm only just starting the damn process! Hope you feel better soon :-/

 

Thanks for the reply. I wish you the best on your journey. Buckle up. It can get bumpy. But you know that. Hope your fevers go away.

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I had the low-grade fevers during my taper several times, and have had them occasionally since jumping (though not as often).  I get the body aches as well still.  Especially before my period.  I'm so sorry things came crashing down.  I was doing really well last week and then go hit SO bad on Thursday night and all day Friday.  Panic, fear, pacing the house, crying, body aches, my insides literally hurt and felt bruised - horrible.  Then it passed this weekend again and things are looking up again.  I think we just have to expect a bit of a roller coaster for awhile.  Things were getting better for you, so you'll get there again.  I'm so sorry though - I know how disheartening it can be. 

 

You are getting there - thinking of you,

Schatje

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I had the low-grade fevers during my taper several times, and have had them occasionally since jumping (though not as often).  I get the body aches as well still.  Especially before my period.  I'm so sorry things came crashing down.  I was doing really well last week and then go hit SO bad on Thursday night and all day Friday.  Panic, fear, pacing the house, crying, body aches, my insides literally hurt and felt bruised - horrible.  Then it passed this weekend again and things are looking up again.  I think we just have to expect a bit of a roller coaster for awhile.  Things were getting better for you, so you'll get there again.  I'm so sorry though - I know how disheartening it can be. 

 

You are getting there - thinking of you,

Schatje

 

Thank you. Sorry you got hit too. This is a brutal and cruel process. Good to know we are not alone. Thinking of you too.

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Hi Recovering,

 

I am so sorry you are getting slammed today.  While I haven't had a fever during this process, my normal temp is pretty low, I have had the benzo flu so many many times.  The body stuff still gets me.  I guess we keep getting reminded that our cns are so fragile still at this point.  Your trip to the city was fun but taxing.  I know you will regain that hope about recovery when your body has a chance to rest.  Its so hard to not able to do all things we did in the past, I know I get so tired I can barely move.

 

Happy Birthday to you, a birthday free of benzos, that is a reason for Joy!!!

 

pianogirl 

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Oh, I'm so sorry you got slammed!

 

I find that travel is really destabilizing for me too.  I'm disgustedly holding my taper now (disgusted because I hate holding, want to always be reducing!) because I have a big trip planned the last week of the month and I know that even though I feel okay right now, it's going to hit me like a Mack truck. 

 

I guess what I'm saying is, this is another thing that will pass; and even good things can be stressful and stimulating and it might be best to try to take them in small doses for a while I suppose.

 

The fever, that's interesting, haven't seen that one before but it sounds like you're not alone.  I'll add it to my list.

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Happy Birthday to you!    I have a feeling your trip to the city was just a bit too much action for your fragile CNS.  I think it's wonderful that things have improved so much for you over the course of the last month or so...try to focus on that.  You give me hope because I am a few months behind you and am still so debilitated I can't leave my house.  Your good days will return!  I hope it is sooner rather than later.  Hang in there!

 

Hope

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oh forgot to say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY  :yippee:

 

Just remember--you're on THIS side of quitting benzos, and you're clearly making progress and getting better.  Healing takes time, but it's clearly happening. 

 

Be proud of yourself for how strong you are and what you've survived!

 

Love you!

 

--Rhi

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Sorry you are getting slammed but at 8.5 months out you should know to just roll with the bad times -- that they'll pass. Hang in there.

 

I was dead to the world for over a week with the flu. Today is the first day I've had the energy to get online at all, and even then I am just drenched in sweat. This was the flu, nothing to do with w/d. I'd gotten a flu shot in September, so I guess I got it a bit too early!

 

Hang in there. We'll both live!

 

Tucson

 

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I will be 57 this mo and I feel like Im way too old for this Did your burning start out as awful itchiess?

I had it Sat and it started turning into burnig on my shoulder. sometimes, you wonder what else cn happen in this. I hope you feel well soon recovering

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Thank you all for the replies and the birthday wishes. I deeply appreciate them!

 

To answer the burning question, mine started out as full bore burning. No itchiness. But I have heard people who have the itchiness.

 

Tucson glad you are hanging in there.

P, glad you are holding! You are a very wise woman.

 

I have benzo brain badly today so those I have not mentioned by name who replied I am sorry. I read them all and thank you.

 

I "should" know to roll with the punches but I am SO weary. I thought I was making great progress. I didnt see the fever/pain/malaise coming.

What ELSE can happen? No wonder we are anxious getting off this crap! You never know what is waiting in the wings.

 

 

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So sorry RFB. It is probably just temporary.

 

Happy B-day!!!!

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Happy b-day, Recovering.  I'm so sorry that your corner collapsed -- this happened to me at month 5.  I thought I was on my way, and by the time I got to month 6, I was back in the pits.  Keep going, because at some point, you'll turn the corner and stay around it.

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Lots of love from Whoopsie 

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Lots of love from Whoopsie 

 

thank you so much. went out to dinner with all of my kids and their SOs.  I didnt feel great but it was good to be out and about.

Next year will be awesome! Right? 

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Lots of love from Whoopsie 

 

thank you so much. went out to dinner with all of my kids and their SOs.  I didnt feel great but it was good to be out and about.

Next year will be awesome! Right? 

 

You are welcome and oh gosh I hope next year will be awesome for you Recovering.  I'm glad that you got to share your special day with your family. 

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Hey!  Did you recover from the crash?  I truly hope it was just a short-lived setback.

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Hey!  Did you recover from the crash?  I truly hope it was just a short-lived setback.

 

FOr the most part, yes. I am not feverish or as achy. Today I have strange stomach pain, very very bad ones. Burning, sharp pains. Not like me at all. I just chalk everything up to wd. Lol..

 

I just got back from the grocery store and felt a panic attack coming on. No fast heart but a strange gripping fear that went from head to toe, light headed, and tingles all over. I just breathed through it.  So ready for this sh*& to be over, ya know??

 

I am grateful for my healing. I am grateful I dont have to swallow that stupid little green pill every night. Freedom is sweet.

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Sounds like you have everything under control and are trusting in your healing!---that's the right attitude to have, which is hard for me since I've never been the most patient or positive person