What IS this??

[[Me...]]

Hi all,

 

I've mentioned before that the klonopin makes me sick if I take and sick if I don't.. 

 

Last night, I took .25 mg, maybe a touch more, before bed.  I woke up again an hour and a half later, my heart pounding, feeling scared, sad, and like something truly awful was/is going to happen.  Something kept telling me that not only will I probably die, but that I SHOULD.  That I will never feel good again.  Ugh.

 

I took another .125 mg and eventually calmed down, heart returned to normal pace. 

 

This isn't the first time I've had my heart rate and anxiety go up within 1.5 - 2.5 hours of my dose.  Is this paradoxical anxiety???

 

I'm scared to take the sh*t and scared not to.  :'(

[[...]]

Melodie,

 

It's too bad that you seem to be caught in the proverbial, between a rock and a hard place, and the damned if you do, and damned if you don't scenario.

 

I guess you have to weigh the pros and cons of taking the Klonopin, versus not taking it.  I wish I could give you some encouraging advice, but I went cold-turkey off the Ativan and Ambien that I was taking for insomnia.  So, I must confess that I am not well versed on tapering.  Are you in contact with a Doctor, who could possibly help you with the quandary that you are dealing with?

 

What I do feel confident in telling you, is that we all do heal, and we do get our lives back when we are free of benzos, but to reach that plateau, can sometimes be a long, painful experience.

 

I sincerely wish you the very best in your struggle to find the answers that you are seeking.

 

pj 

 

 

[[An...]]

I had this on the Ativan, I was taking 1 mg twice a day when I went into tolerance withdrawal. I would take the odd 2 mg when my anxiety got real bad. I was hospitalized about a month after I tried to cut my dose 50%, the advice of my doctor was to cold turkey it.  In the hospital another doctor told me to take 2 mg three times a day. If I took 1 mg it barely touched my anxiety and if I took two I had paradoxical reactions such as insomnia, racing heart and anxiety.  I stuck it out and continued to take 1 mg twice a day just to get by.

 

I talked to a drug and alcohol counselor and she told me this is common when your body is in tolerance withdrawal, you can have the opposite effect. Did you just drop your dose recently or up it?  I don't know much about the kindling effect......maybe someone else might be able to comment.

 

I know how scary it is to feel that you can't not take it, but it also causes symptoms if you take it.  I was on Ativan so for some reason switching to klonopin helped for

 

Maybe someone else might have been in this situation as well and have some suggestions.

 

I hope it gets better for you.

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I was in the same pickle at one time. My body just wanted more of the drug to be happy. It wanted more, and it wanted it on a regular schedule. At the time I didn't even realize I was addicted. I was dosing sporadically.

 

The trouble with benzo dependency is that it's a dead end street. The only way out and to turn around and get done with the stuff. It's not easy. In fact it's hard as hell.

 

To me, benzo dependence was like being in prison. I just wanted OUT.

[[ka...]]

hi meiodie i went through the some thing my body want more from .25 to 0.5 so i just taper off it,now im 7 1/2 months off the meds and doing much much better love in JESUS...kate7