I feel like I'm going to give in!

[[bm...]]

I still have the same symptoms everyday like clockwork! Shaking, face tingling like crazy, in and out of sleep, unrefreshed sleep, walking zombie fatigue, should I go back on K? There are no windows! Just the same symptoms everyday! The Social Anxiety is killing me! I never had this before!! Thought

It was getting better but it's not! I don't know why but this is never ending.

[Guest [Pf...]]

You are very early in the process, so the fact that you have not gotten windows is not necessarily an indicator of things to come.  I was actually doing pretty well when I finished my taper and then things hit later.  Other will probably chime in with their experience after they stopped.

 

If you reinstate, think of why you are doing it.  At one point, I reinstated with the idea of retapering.  That makes no sense, if you tapered slowly.  If you tapered slowly and have these symptoms now, there is no reason to think that you will get a better result next time.

 

If you are thinking of reinstating so as to stay on, others may come by to talk about their experience.  Some people find that they do not get relief when they do this, and then they have to taper again.  Obviously it is a tricky thing, and unfortunatley, no one can give an exact answer.

 

Good luck

[[en...]]

It will take shear willpower and time. Once I get off this drug, I will never take one again.

 

Hang tough. You will get there.

 

endeavor to persevere

 

[[am...]]

The same thing happened to me. I tapered in only 3 weeks and was in agony by the fourth month. No doctor would believe it had anything to do with rapid withdrawal and I was told after four months there was no way. I literally could not function and all I could think about was ending it - there was no help, no hope, no answers. When I finally discovered I was right all along, I reinstated and began a slow slow slow taper. Within an hour of reinstating, 80% of my at least 25 symtpoms - all of which you mention diminished. It's been about 8 months of tapering and I have some rough days, but I'm able to function - work a full time job now and for the most part - feel somewhat normal. I live with hyperacusis, tinnitus and some dizziness. Sometimes I get a feeling like my brain drops in my head - and like my brain is floating, but I've been able to take the fear out of it because I know what it is. Here's the thing, it will get better as our receptors heal. I believe our receptors heal as we decrease our dose, but it is different for all of us.  But there have been too many success stories to believe it won't happen. Good luck to you!!!!

amb

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I didn't start feeling full windows until the third month, maybe. From the time I jumped, till that third month hit, I was always in some kind of constant withdrawal, and I did a slow taper.

 

I'm sure you'll get there, but it takes time and patience. Some have to deal with grittier trials than others, and that's okay but, reinstating would only push you back further.

 

I believe you're strong enough to stick it out

[[bm...]]

Is it normal to have head pressure where I am off?

[[ma...]]

I just want to say hang in there...

 

I am not completely off, but I have observed on this site how people often go through a trial following the last dose. It seems like the first 3-6 months are the roughest and virtually anything can happen even with a long taper.

 

I am having head pressure, tinnitus, and brain zaps today - they are intense and insane. I am trying to cast them as my system rebooting and healing. Without this pain, my body and brain would not know to create more receptors.

 

Man I wish there was a better way for us, and that the symptoms were more linear and predictable like with opiates, but they are not. This is why benzos are so tough.

 

I just got done screaming out of frustration with my brain. It did not help...

 

Please know that we are here pulling for you even if it is abstract and online.

 

M

 

 

[[ja...]]

Zach hey..

Listen this really is a process thats so hard to understand.the length of time can be tuff.

I had all my sxs nonstop no letups for months. Actually I became worse before I became better.

You have to have Willpower to never want to take this med again.That will help keep you strong for the Duration of this.It will end Zach. But if you decide to go back on .Well then I dont know.

 

You have been on and off 2x rt? Becareful not to keep this pattern up .Im afraid it can make it so much harder for each time you go on or Off.

 

 

Please hang in there things will get better for you..

 

~Jenny

[[bm...]]

Just waiting every morning when I wake up shaking and so fatigued for the head tingling, head pressure and extreme fatigue to stop! And it just is there day after day like clockwork!

[[Wh...]]

I am afraid that what you are going thru is very normal for those of us who get hit hard with symptoms.  I'm sorry that you have to one of us.  I know its brutal ... we have to be true warriors to get thru this.  Jaso19 mentioned on this thread that you already tried the reinstatement route.  Is that right?  What happened then?  Do you really want to do this trip over again?

 

Is it normal to have head pressure where I am off?

 

Yes, very, very normal.  I swear my head was squeezing so hard I could hear the bones crunching in there.  Two months is very early days.

 

Someone mentioned willpower and I have to second that.