Hit a mini-wall - IBS + hormones = rough day

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I've hesitated at writing this today as i just finished writing how well I've been doing on the Celebration board.  But the fact I'm having a rough day or two doesn't discount the fact I AM getting better - so I will write now as my anxiety is through the roof and I find myself needs constant reassurance today.

 

I should have already got my period, but it is a bit late.  This is not out of the ordinary as my hormones have been a bit of a mess during this process.  However, the PMS I get since being on benzos has been pretty bad, and now it almost gets worse the further I get out from being OFF of benzos.  Keep in mind I am having some issues with ovarian cysts right now and my GP is taking every precaution to make sure nothing else is going on. 

 

I have to go for a 2nd ultrasound in a week or so as something came up on my last one that apparently send them a "red flag"  Their words.  So of course I'm a bit worried as I am young (33) and feel like yelling, "really?  what now?!".  But I'm not losing sleep over it.

 

Until last night.  Although I don't often get panic attacks since being benzo free (usually 1-2 per month), I had the worst I've had in months last night.  I went to bed w/ my normal anxiety.  But as soon as I put my head down, a switch went off.  From 12am - 4:30am, I was in a full out attack.  Chills, shaking, teeth chattering, crying, bm's (not fully loose, but lots of cramping), pacing the house, you name it.  It was horrible.  I DID have worse during my taper, but last night's was still pretty bad.

 

This morning I slept from 4:30-7:30am.  As soon as I got up, I had to go pee. When I went back to bed, my bowels started to have pains again.  I went to the washroom - loose, but not fully loose.  Then again an hour later.  Now I am back again.  But it's not like I'm going a lot and I DON'T feel sick.  I do have IBS and I know IBS can worsen before a woman's period.  But I just need reassurance that other (women) feel this from time to time.

 

I am scared.  I went right back into a full attack from about 8am - noon, and I FEEL like it could come back.  I don't feel settled at all.  I am exhausted after panicking for SO long on such little sleep.  I feel right back at square one even though I know I'm not.  I know I'll pull through this.  My ovaries ache, my insides hurt and feel twisted.  My ribs hurt.  My back/ribs area feels tense.  I cry off/on all day long.  It's just a brutal day.

 

Do any of you have this feeling where it's like something has taken over your body.  You know nothing has...but it's like you have no control of your insides and it almost feels like they are being pulled and pushed inside of you?  I get this w/ my panic attacks and it is extremely unsettling.  The feeling won't let up.  I have my daughter home sick today and I am struggling to take care of her and myself - although I'm doing it.  I've had my husband on the phone 2x, my parents 2x.  I just cry and cry.  I feel like i have to pace and pace and move and move.  As sson as I sit too long, the feelings get worse.  I am typing this while standing at the kitchen counter so I can keep moving my legs and pace if need be.  I'm 7 months out and I do know that we can still get hit hard every now and then this far out, but this is a hard hit after doing quite well recently. 

 

If anyone has some words of advice, encouragement or can share a similar story, thank you!  I feel so scared today and even though I DO know it won't last, it just feels so long when you're in it.

 

Thanks to all, hugs

Schatje

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I was standing at the kitchen counter with my laptop a few nights ago while struggling to cope with a panic attack form 3:30 p.m. in the afternoon until 4:30 a.m. the next morning.  Had to keep moving and was pacing up and down the hallway.

 

My cycle has also been screwed up for many months.  I'm irregular and feel more discomfort than I used to.

 

Hang in there.

 

 

 

 

 

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I was standing at the kitchen counter with my laptop a few nights ago while struggling to cope with a panic attack form 3:30 p.m. in the afternoon until 4:30 a.m. the next morning.  Had to keep moving and was pacing up and down the hallway.

 

My cycle has also been screwed up for many months.  I'm irregular and feel more discomfort than I used to.

 

Hang in there.

 

 

 

 

Thank you very much, mmgc.  I have just been rattled by this one.  Especially since I was doing considerably better.  But I know it won't last.  I had a long shower this afternoon and put on some fresh pj's.  I managed to get some dinner made for my husband and daughter, as well as some laundry.  Anything to keep me moving and busy.  I get a LOT less panic attacks nowadays, and I really think this one is brought on with the hormones.  I should have had my period days ago, and i have all the "signs" it wants to come, so I'll wait it out. 

 

Thank you again - much appreciated.  Hugs.

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I'm not sure how to offer you a solution, but if you search progesterone on here, there are many posts about it's effect on gaba receptors and all that comes with that.  If you are late, my guess is that what you've been going through the last day or so is an indication that your period will be starting soon.  I'm not guaranteeing anything, but it does sound like a change occurred in your body, perhaps a drop in progesterone, which would indicate the onset of your period fairly soon. But it's just a guess.

 

I'm so sorry the deamon is surging it's ugly head

 

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