back to squar 1

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today I fill like i did in the beginning  I dont fill like I made any progress I actually fill worse then when I started today  Ive been on a pro biotic for a a couple of weeks my stomech has improved 100% but I fill worse then ever I have not had no window at all I always fill like crap some days more then others today seems to top it all    this is driving me crazy becouse my mind keeps going and wanting to live and get better but my brain just wants to tourcher me.  how do we heal when thers no progress.

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It feels like square 1, but you are healing.  I have waves that make me like I did in the beginning as well, and while you're in those waves, it feels like no progress was made.  From what I've heard, the people who are all better now had stuff just like this.  I don't understand the healing process any more than I understand the Chinese language, but apparently, healing is real.

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I don't under stand this eather when youcut your finger it hurts it builds a scab and it don't hurt that bad it heals the scab  falls off  you have a little  scar your all better. You bump your head it hurts you get a bumP and it goes away along with the pain. But with this it never hills it keeps getting infected  I just don't see no end. I want to progress  but who am I 

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I don't under stand this eather when youcut your finger it hurts it builds a scab and it don't hurt that bad it heals the scab  falls off  you have a little  scar your all better. You bump your head it hurts you get a bumP and it goes away along with the pain. But with this it never hills it keeps getting infected  I just don't see no end. I want to progress  but who am I 

 

Some people have hesitated to call it 'healing' so to speak. It's not like there are tears and wounded places in the brain, and there are many theories as to what is actually going on -- one of my favorites that I've read about is that the polarity of the GABA receptor is reversed, like what happens in people with seizures.  Over time the receptors could just be trying to work out the charge (making a positve charge like is supposed to be, rather than a negative one.)  In this case, there would be no physical damage, only functional. 

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Ray when did you quit klonopin and at what dose?

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I feel like I never even left square 1.  I've been in the same place, if not worse off than I was in the beginning.  I am now almost 11 months off.  Does anyone know if your brain can get stuck in a state of shock which can prevent you from healing?  I don't know what is happening but I starting t to think I am going to be stuck like this, in hell, forever.  Is there a any way at all to know if you are healing for real or is it just a subjective thing? I think I've lost it.

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I like to think that every body heals. and I hope im not stuck like this eather . its very fustrating what makes me diffrent from the next guy why cant I heal fast why cant I have wndows  wha wha wha :'( the only thing I have going for me is my complaining