psycological symptoms?

[[se...]]

I have been struggling with some pyscological symptoms today. I wanted to see if anybody could offer any input or relate with what im am experiencing. It seems like there has been a battle in my mind all day. i litterally think things are going to bo ok and have hope one minute and then the next i am all depressed and cant see a way out or that healing isnt really possible. it makes for an exhausting day going back and forth in your mind. I just cant beleive that i can have hope one minute and then the complete opposite the next. just wondering if anybody has experienced this??? Praying for everybody! 

[[pr...]]

Hi sena, I'm sorry about what you're going through.  It's absolutely common for people to have the kinds of disorderly emotional and mental symptoms you describe, during benzo withdrawal.  I have read many stories of people describing what you describe and I've experienced it myself in withdrawal.

 

 

[[os...]]

Absolutely, i go from "all will be fine" to "i am terrified i will get worse and i´ll never be well again"... it is exhausting... i am sorry you are feeling like this but it is common... things will settle in time... they are just thoughts, maybe try distracting, i know it´s hard but keep at it... it will give your mind a break.

 

Hang in there.

 

Oscar

[[se...]]

thank you guys for your replys. I know its very early on and I know things have to get better. Sometimes i just feel like an actor in a movie or something... like the whole world is moving on with business and im stuck in my own mind and worrying and fretting about what will happen next. i feel really bad bc i am a person of faith and alot of times i doubt that Lord will get me through this. I went out and walked a mile today and that seemed to help a bit... im kinda starting in with agoraphobia... either that or i just have a hard time getting motivation to leave the house. I am making myself go to wal mart in a min and grab some lunch from the deli... I know nothing will happen to me but I see all the people and i get upset bc they all look so happy but i know that everybody has problems of thier own and i should be thankful that that i am not worse off.  Phil 4:13. 

[[Ga...]]

me, too People look so normal to me and its like theyre so relaxed. Its upsetting. I keep telling myself will be there one day.

[[su...]]

Me, too, and it can change throughout the day.

 

I can so relate to seeing other "normal" people out and about and wondering if I will ever again be back to the person I was before I took Ativan.

 

Went to the grocery store with hubbie yesterday and did better than when I went alone when I wobbled my way around the store feeling anxious and sort of off-balance,  but I  couldn't anymore think of going to Walmart by myself than fly.  And that feeling started happening within months of starting Ativan.    The lights large space, crowds, long lines are more than I want to tackle right now.  Then I see the "normal people" in the store...many of them much older than me....doing just fine and it's a real kick in my self-esteem. 

 

Good for you for walking a mile today, that's awewome.  Prayers out to you for  healing.....  The folks around here tell me we will heal, and I have to believe it. 

[[se...]]

the crappy thing about this is this is my second time going thru this. I c/t'd ativan once before in Mid Aug 2011 (not benzo wise) i had only taken it prolly 10- 15 times. I continued living life not knowing i was in w/d and things did get better but then they got worse again around Late Nov... reinstated around Dec 9th 2011 and then tapered really fast and c/t'd Feb 3rd. I get discouraged bc if i would have just rode it out i would have been 6mo off and prolly feeling alot better by now... BUT i guess it could be worse; at least i was fortunate enough to not be on benzos for very long.